Morsea (Mor-say)
Hadnt seen bae all day. She hasn't text me. We got the mostly all our classes together. I figured she was in the library, that's usually where she thinks and clears her mind, but when I got there she wasn't there.

I called her phone it went to voicemail. I hate when she do that shit. I go to find Danny and as always he in some hoe face.

"Aye Dan, where Dee?"
"Nig, you got classes with her not me. Prob round here being a hoe"
"Are you fucking serious nigga? You a sorry ass brother. Watch your tone dawg when it come to her."
"Boy please, I'll find ha when I'm done after practice, you coming?

Lord keep my cool. I gotta find Dee 1st. I have no idea why you even gave her a sorry ass brother like this. He should have been the one to die instead of La'Trake I swear. We boys but she bae and he gown make me catch a case.

I couldn't do anything I gotta find bae. I see the crew up ahead. And I already know Cyn gone have some shit to say but today fuck ha, she not all the way in my good graces today.

" aye, Nelson come with me. I can't find Dee, scoop and Troy tell coach it was a fam emerg and I'll make it up"
"We gotcha kid" (scoop said)
"Well lets go" (Nelson said)
"Hell maybe she need some breath room hell let ha be" (Cyn said)

Of course we ignored her ass and kept it moving. Like she will be alright. Dee my best friend my heart. And I can't have nothing happen to her.

We hope in my car and roll out. I went by the house no answer, went by the mall no answer. I was started to get drove because I was trying to fit worry and then it hit me. The park. We always go to the park and talk and clear our domes its just one of those places where it could be packed and you still feel alone. You feel me. Sad reality.

As I head back to the hood, this morning keeps playing in my head. And my blood boils because I know its something and she didn't want talk earlier but her ass goen talk today, now, no exception.

"Aye bruh there she go" (Nelson said)

See the crew sees her as they sis or girlfriend, but to me she always wifey. I park Nelson gives me that look and I already know he's giving us time. I hope out and head to her. Her head is down and she's crying........

Yep I'm bout to beat SOMEBODY ass..........

Diane/Dee
I was in so much pain after I went to the bathroom, I just wanted to run away and that's what I did. I was walking out the bathroom and bumped I to somebody...... I look up and I feel even smaller.....

"Damn baby, if you wanted to touch me all you gotta do is say so"
"Boy bye, move Lommie"
"Come on bae..."
"I'm not your bae, let me go"
"I just want a hug"
"Keep your hands to yourself"
"I'll taste you later"
"Never sir, never"

He kissed my neck, it felt so weird but naw it was fucking weird. I don't see him like that. And he been flirting hard. Maybe I be over reacting where he concerned. I can't think about that shot right now. I need to get away.

Everybody heading to class and I can't let the crew see me, there will be too many questions. So I just slip out the side door. My body is so sore, but I refuse to let the tears fall right now.

I leave off campus, looking back making sure the rent-a-cops are nowhere near me...... Hell the last thing I need is iss or detention. Cuz they swear by law that will straighten you up. When actually its cu jus boring.

I walk to a park not too far but far enough from the school. See its two parks I go to when shit heavy on me. One me and the crew hang out at and act silly and then another one where you can hide out and think shit thru.

I feel like I'm dying. Maybe I should just die. Maybe I'm not worth the air I'm breathing. Who knows. I don't know how much longer I can fight. As if on cue when I sit down and place my head on the table I cry, I haven't cried since before the summer.... The last time Danny wanted me to be his sex puppet. I was fatter then. And I know now that I dropped this weight it is going to be harder to fight him off.

I just sit there, and let my thoughts take me over. I was once protected when La'Trake was alive, he always kept me safe. Then he went to the army and that was all she wrote. Damn I miss him, but then God sent my love Morsea..... Don't tell him I said that either. That nigga ego is bigger than TEXAS. But ijdk (I just don't know)......... In the mist of me crying I didn't hear anybody but I felt him pull me to his chest.. And I felt safe all over again. See just like I said......

My protector..............
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