Omg guys I didn't expect this and it's kind of abrupt but this is the last chapter (there will be an epilogue). When I finished this chapter it just felt like the right place to end it so after an internal struggle of my own I decided it would end. This actually makes me want to cry, my baby ended.

Thanks goes to all of you for reading this it means the world to me and I hoped you liked it. I also hope all of you guys haven't given up on Cashby, I know I haven't, because I have tons of ideas and I'm really excited to share them with you guys.

Once again thanks goes out to all of you guys YOU ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU ALL💜💕💜💕💜

~Driftwood_Heart

Alan's POV
Shit shit shit. I looked around frantically first to Cole sound asleep on the couch then to the door without a moments hesitation I jumped up and ran for the door. Right as I got outside Austin was pulling out of the driveway. I ran as fast as I could and slammed my hands on the hood of his car.

"Alan please move." He said out his window and I shook my head no. He cursed then got out from his car and walked to where I was standing in front of it. "What do you want Alan?"
"For you to talk to me? Look I'm sorry okay. I didn't mean actually mean what I said okay? I know people who consider suicide are going through really tough times and they feel as if it's the only choice, they're not cowards though. I said it in the heat of the moment."
"Alan I know and I understand, it's just that..." he trailed off. "I don't want you to think of me as a coward." He said and sat down on the hood of his car. I stood in between his head and looked at him.
"What do you mean?" I asked cautiously.

"You don't know this, but I guess you have a right to. My mom died when I was young." I nodded my head. I knew this he had told me before. I rubbed my hand across his thigh trying to smooth the nerves that were radiating off of him. "Well after that I kind of went on a destructive spree and I wasn't myself. I felt so hurt and after she was gone everything was falling apart. Friends left, my dad canceled the world out, and I was just there and no one seemed to be there for me." He took both of my hands in his and held them tightly. "And one night I decided I had had enough."
"You didn't did you?"
"I tried." He said looking down.
"How?"
"Pills, lots and lots of pills mixed with some alcohol, but my dad found me."

It was silent for a few moments. "That's one of the reason I was so worried about you Alan. You just kind of zoned out and I was afraid you would feel like no one was there and that you didn't have anyone that was there to help you and when Cole started talking about being worried about you it broke my heart. I know what it's like to lose a mother and I know what kind of path it can take you down. I wanted to be there for you, because I know what it's like not having anyone there."

"Austin I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to...I.... Austin baby I love you so much. Never forget that and I'm so glad you're still here." I said and flung my arms around him, burying my face in his shirt and he held me close. "I love you too." He whispered into my hair and we sat like that a while just holding each other.

Eventually Austin and I made our way back inside hand in hand. When we got in I looked at Cole on the recliner who was still sleeping soundly.
"Want me to take him up bed?" Austin asked and I nodded my head. He picked him up and I followed them up the stairs. After I made sure Cole was okay Austin and I made our way down the hall to my room.

Once we were inside my room Austin pecked my lips and we changed clothes and before I could sit back down on the bed Austin stopped me.
"Will you play something for me?"
"Like what?"
"Anything." He said and smiled at me.
I walked over to the corner of my room and grabbed the new guitar.

I sat crisscross on the bed and spent a moment or two tuning it before I started playing a soft, calm, melodious song I had written a while ago. Austin was laying on his back head rested gently against the headboard and I would think he was sleeping if it wasn't for the way he was drawing slow shapes on my knee as I played. Once I was finished I placed the guitar beside of the bed and climbed back on the bed straddling Austin in the process.

"Did you write that?" He asked opening his eyes and smiling at me. I nodded.
"Does it have a name?"
"I never really thought of one." I said shrugging my shoulders.
"The Calm."
"What?" I said with a chuckle.
"That can be the name." I thought about it a moment.
"I love it." I said and pecked his cheek.

He pulled me down to where I was laying on top of him and he wrapped his arms around me. We laid there for a while just listening to the other one breathe. I thought Austin was asleep but apparently he thought the same about me because he started speaking to me.

"God I have no clue what I did to deserve you, but I thank whoever is in charge of all of that. I ended up with you and that's all I ever wanted. I love you so much Alan. I love everything about you. The way your nose crinkles up when you laugh. The way your face always gets a rosy tint when I compliment you. The way your eyes light up when something excites you. I love your love for kittens. How you don't like oatmeal cookies. How you use berry scented body wash. How you can never sleep with socks on because you think it's weird." He laughed and started running his fingers through my hair.

"You are so beautiful and you don't see it sometimes. Your smile is brighter than the sun and your laugh is contagious. You have the biggest heart and I love how you care so much. I love how protective you are of your brothers. I love how you always put their needs before yours. "

"But the thing I love the most about you is how strong you are. You've been through hell and back this past month but you're still here and you didn't let it get to you. You didn't let it drag you down. Even though you slipped from reality a little bit you didn't fall completely in the trance. You managed to keep your senses straight and not make rash decisions. You're so strong and I can't help but to admire you." At this point I had tears slowly making their way down my cheek.

"You're a god sent gift Alan and I'm so lucky I get to call you mine. I want to wake up each morning with you in my arms and each day I want to be the one who makes you laugh and cry tears of joy. I want to go through the rest of my life knowing that I've got you right beside of me. I'm so glad my dad found me that day. If he hadn't I wouldn't have found you. I wouldn't be holding the best thing that's ever happened to me in my arms right now. "

"You are my whole world Alan and I love you so much, more than anything in this world." Austin placed a kiss on the top of my head. I looked up at him with tears staining my cheeks and crashed his lips to mine in a kiss.
"I love you too Austin. More than you'll ever know."

He reached a hand up and wiped the tears from my eyes and pulled me close to him. "Just think this all started because I met you at KFC." He said making me laugh.
"I wouldn't have it any other way." I said and pecked his lips.

I laid back down on Austin's chest and held on to him for life. I know I've lost a lot recently but in this moment I had everything I ever wanted. I was content and for the first time in a month I couldn't wait to see what tomorrow would bring.