“He’s now sleeping,” I heard from Jungwon as he sits beside me.

I grab the bottle of soju and drinks. “Did you treat his wounds?” I asked him.

“Yeah,” he paused. “Are you really fine?” he asked me full of concern.

“How can I?” I replied coldly and drink again from the bottle.

“Stop it now,” he halted me by trying to grab my bottle so I pushed him. “We can’t do anything about it anymore,” he stated firmly.

“That money is too big,” I commented.

“I know but we can make it back,” he replied.

I glared at him and spoke, “How?” I asked him.

“Sunoo, I know you’re mad but please don’t be like this. Let’s clear our minds first and think of a better solution,” he suggested and showed me a forced smile.

I was about to say something when my phone vibrated and I read Sunghoon’s messaged, he want to have a coffee with me tomorrow.

“He’s our last chance,” I heard from Jungwon.

I rolled my eyes and drink everything in that bottle. I remain silent until Jungwon leave me alone in the salas and still drinking.

He’s our last chance, my ass.

I opened my phone and agreed to meet up with him tomorrow. I scrolled on my Twitter tl and saw this thread with a title, “Why Sunghoon needs to win in year ends.”

I opened it and my tears escaped as I went down. I covered my mouth with my hand to stop myself in crying out loud.

Why do I need to end up in this kind of situation?

Seeing our pictures together in my gallery just breaks me so much. I hate myself for loving this man. I’m now regretting it.

I’m sorry hyung.

“Sunoo! Are you okay?” I looked at Sunghoon hyung that’s in front of me.

“Huh?” I reacted blankly. “Why?”

“Are you really okay? You’re acting so weird. Are you still with me?” he asked me and held my hand.

I looked at it and then my eyes went to his. I smiled, “Yeah ahahah!” I fake a laugh. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay hahaha! Do you have a problem? Is that about what happened yesterday?” he asked.

I looked down, “Ahh yeah, my brother fell down from his bike while at school,” I lied.

He nods, “Oh, is he okay now?” he asked in concern.

“Ahh yeah…”

“That’s good to hear. Kids will always be like that hahaha,” he commented that I agreed with my laugh also.

“But hyung, about your senior trainee?” I asked him that made him stops from sipping his coffee and looked at me.

“What about him? K hyung?” he asked.

“Is he still in here?” I asked him.

“Uh, when we got a small reunion before, I heard that he’s still here in Seoul. Why?” he asked me.

I shrugged my shoulders, “Nothing I was just curious. Sorry for bringing that up,” I apologized.

“It’s okay hahaha! You told me I debuted because I deserved it right? So I don’t mind it anymore,” he replied and smiled at me.

“Hyung, how could you like me that fast?” I asked him again in a more serious voice.

He played with his straw and looked back at me, “Does love needs time?” he asked me and smiled.

I smiled back at him. If only you know how much I’m hurt seeing you smile right now, hyung. I’m sorry, please forgive me with whatever I’m going to do.

“Love needs a perfect time,” I stated.

“Really? I think falling in love to someone will always be the perfect time. That’s the time you chose to invest yourself to someone and decided to love that person no matter what,” he countered, sharing his opinion.

“Then why do people fall in love in wrong time?” I asked him, looking intently at his eyes.

“I’m not sure but…” he paused. “I think people fall in love in the wrong time because they believe that someone is the right person for them. Like if you believe that that he or she is the one for you, you will really force it and what will happen? You both end up being hurt. But as for me, loving you right now is the perfect time,” he explained.

I smiled when he said his last line. Perfect time loving me? I’m not sure about that tho.

“Hyung, do you believe you fell in love with right time and the right person?” I asked instead.

“Why are you acting so serious today? I think I’m seeing ddeuno right now,” he observed and let out an awkward laugh.

I also faked a laugh, “I’m just curious about your answers,” I replied.

“Well, I guess so? If this isn’t the right time and if you’re not the right person then I can’t think of anyone,” he answered.

I’m hurt by that. Why are you so in love with me? You barely knew me. How could you trust me that much? How could you see me as the right person for you when you don’t even know who really I am?

You’re a fool for love, Park Sunghoon.

I nods and sip my coffee, “Hyung, falling in love really requires time and people are hurt after loving the right person in the wrong time. Love and time are both complex and defined based on how they used but putting love and time together is like comparing to a defected camera,” I stated and stood up.

“Huh?” he reacted like he’s still processing what I said. “Where are you going?” he asked me and also stood up.

“I have a meeting to attend, hyung,” I replied and smiled at him.

This time it was genuine. This time I really meant it.

“Okay! Okay! When are we going to meet again?” he asked me.

I smiled, “I’m not sure when but I really want to meet you again as soon as possible, as soon as I can. Sunghoon hyung, I’m really grateful that we became friends,” I stated.

He smiled at me too, “Take care and let’s meet again soon,” he replied.

I bowed at him, “Then, I’m going now. I’m sorry,” I whispered the latter part then started walking away. A tear escaped from my eyes as soon as I went out.

Before I could take another step I just found myself running again to the café and I saw hyung standing so I hugged him from his back.

He held my hands that on his tummy then asked, "Why? Are you okay? How could you miss me that fast huh? Huh Kim Sunoo? Hahahah!"

"I'm sorry hyung," I whispered in tears.

"Huh? I can't hear you properly," he replied and then moved to fave me but I stopped him.

I don't want him to see me being like this. I just hate this feeling.

"Kim Sunoo, what's wrong?" he asked me in his serious yet worried voice.

"See you," I stated and then let go of his body and run away while brushing my tears.

If love has perfect time then maybe we don’t have one because we’re not perfect for each other.

“Good evening everyone! We will now start our meeting for the year ends preparation,” Ms. Cha welcomed everyone.

She started talking the importance and the roles of ENB in the year ends. How it will affect our ratings and the like. For the last month check, ENB is still on top 3. Boss Jeon is aiming for number one.

Ms. Cha ended her part then Boss Jeon went in front. “Okay, ENB really needs to get highest views after year end awards. We should be the broadcast station that will give everyone valid and fresh news to everyone,” he stated.

“Here’s the company that we need to write an articles, JWYP, WAIGY, ESM and HIVE. Here’s the artists that we’re going to focus,” he then pressed his pointer and a new slide appeared.

It shows the list of different groups and idols that we need to focus on and the team that will be writing the article.

“In HIVE, we will have STAYCI, MOA, TINYTAN, HYPEN and Hyun—“ Boss Jeon talks and someone interrupted him.

“Wait, where’s Park Sunghoon?” an old guy asked him, who’s also a team leader.

“Sunghoon, will not be attending the year end awards,” Boss Jeon answered him that made me gulp and sweats.

Everyone in the room gasps. “What do you mean by that?” someone asked.

“Right, we just released an article last day about him preparing for his performance,” another one added.

“Park Sunghoon not attending all the year ends means good news for us,” Boss Jeon stated.

“Why is that? I think it’ll be better if he’ll come though?” that team leader spoke again.

“Yeah,” someone agreed. “He’s also expected to win a new soloist award,” he added.

“You’re wrong,” Boss Jeon said and then the next slide appears that shows Sunghoon’s profile. “Park Sunghoon, not attending the award events means a big news because why?” he paused. “That’s right! Because everyone expected that he will win and if he won’t come it will make a fuss!” Boss Jeon exclaimed then grin.

“But, how can we make him stop from attending? HIVE will do everything for him. And how can we so sure that he won’t come?” he asked agaid.

This old guy is so annoying. I’m pissed already.

“Kim Sunoo?”

I heard my name being called by Boss Jeon that’s why I stood up. All of them are looking at me that made me feel so nervous. “Yes, Boss Jeon?”

“Kim Sunoo will assure us that Park Sunghoon won’t attend any of the awards shows,” Boss Jeon stated that made me gulp.

“Him? He’s just a sasaeng,” that old guy again countered.

I’m about to kick him already. I’m not just a sasaeng!

“Kim Sunoo, what are you going to do again to stop Park Sunghoon?” Boss Jeon asked me like he’s trying to make me prove all the employees in here that I can do more than they can.

Boss Jeon trained me well. You think I’ll back off?

“I will release an issue about Park Sunghoon,” I simply stated without any trace of nervous and hesitant.

Then I heard everyone whispering about what I said. I saw Boss Jeon smirk and then pressed his pointer. “Park Sunghoon having a big issue and us having the first scoop about it will have at least around 97% up to 99.9% increase in our ratings and that means? We will be put at the first spot amongst all other broadcast stations,” Boss Jeon explained.

“How can he do that? Can we even trust him?” A new female questioned like she doubts me.

“Boss Jeon’s trust is enough for me, Ms,” I talked back.

“Goodness, this punk,” I heard from Boss Jeon and then he laughs. “Anyways, yes. I trust him. Right, Sunoo? I know you will give me something really interested and it will really help us a lot,” Boss Jeon stated while smiling at me.

I nods, “Don’t worry about it. I will make sure that Park Sunghoon will make ENB reached the top,” I remarked.

“I know you have something up your sleeves. Just don’t disappoint me, Kim Sunoo,” he sounded like he’s threatening me.

I bowed, “Rest assured,” I replied then take my seat.

Then I felt Jungwon’s hand in mine. “You did well,” he commented while smiling.

“Thank you,” I replied. He made me calm.

That meeting ended and the higher ups remained inside for other reminders. As Jungwon and I walked out from the mess hall, he immediately grabs my hand.

“You have your scoop already, do you?” he asked me.

I just smiled at him, “Let’s go home. Ni-ki’s waiting,” I replied and pulled my arms from him.

We arrived at home and started eating together. I was alone in the salas after that when Jungwon comes out from the room. “Sunoo, let’s talk,” he said.

“About what?” I blunted.

“You,” he paused. “Are you really going to release it?” he asked me.

“He’s our last chance right? Do I have any choice? I chose him before but right now? I can’t,” I replied.

“Are you fine with that?” he asked me in his melancholic voice.

I sigh, “I-I don’t know,” I replied.

“How about here?” he asked and I saw him pointing in my chest when my heart is. “You’re hurt.”

“I am,” I agreed then felt my tears slowly running down on my cheeks. “I am going to r-ruin someone’s career that took him years to build up. I’m going to break a promise that we’re both going to achieve everything together. I’m going to break someone’s trust and heart. D-do you think I’m not hurt about that?” I cried.

He hugs me and I cried so hard on his shoulder, “I’m not! And I will forever regret doing this! But I need to, I need to sacrifice this shitty feeling of mine because of money! Because of fucking money that we need in order to live in this fucking world!” I yelled in pain.

Boss Jeon is right. Being too emotional attached to a person will really breaks you a lot. I know this is going to happen already yet I wasn’t never prepared.

I only spend a few times with him but that time made my feelings go fonder to him. Those limited time will be the best time for me and now I’m going to ruin it.

Sunghoon hyung, I love you but I can't choose you this time.

Our clock of love will now stop. It's hands will freeze and will never run again. It's impossible to go back counter clockwise. So, everything will just be pure memories hidden in our clock's battery.

I went out just to feel cold air outside our unit. My hands are shaking while trying to dial Boss Jeon’s number. It rings around three times before he answered it.

“Oh! Why? It’s already midnight, Sunoo,” I heard him on the other side of sounding so sleepy.

“I want you to find someone,” I stated trying hard not to crack.

“Huh?” he reacted. “Find who? Why didn’t you tell me about this earlier?” he asked.

“I have a big scoop for you and this guy has the answer to everything,” I continued.

“Who is he?” he asked in serious tone.

“But first, I want you to hire a fixer and a broker that can send Ni-ki back to Japan without any problems,” I negotiated.

I heard him laughs in evil, “Sure, now who’s this guy?” he agreed with my terms.

“K, he’s a former HIVE trainee and he’s the answer to everything. I need you to find him and I will ask him myself then,” I paused and breathe in silently to calm myself.

“And then?” he asked waiting for me to finish my sentence.

“Prepare a ₩50,000,000.”