I just wore a casual shirt and pants then went out on our unit. Jungwon will find a job for the meantime while he's suspended. I just let out a sigh after remembering what happened.

Jungwon didn't tease me anymore about Sunghoon after I answered him yesterday. I'm really going to stand firm with that decision. I won't let my feelings ruin what I tried so hard to build.

I arrived at the broadcast station and there are quite fans sitting in there already. You need to be really early since they're only accepting less than 150 people inside and every idol that are going to perform should have at least two fansites and limit of five.

I take a seat that's on the center and middle part since it's vacant. A minute after I take my seat a sudden flash from my side caught my attention. This girl on my right suddenly hid her phone.

Why'd she do that? She probably knew me or something.

I open my phone but on my other account. I scrolled down in my tl then I saw my picture with the caption, "The fanboy of hoonie from fansign is here!" it made me grin under my mask.

So they still remember me after that? Even if I have my mask on?

I think showing up that day have made some disadvantage they might know who really I am. That tweet reached even international fans but I don't put so much care about it.

The show started and idol's started live performing. The fans started screaming when Sunghoon appeared in the waiting room. They interview him and he just keeps on smiling while answering.

Next is his performance, his fans in the back stood up and sings with him while us at the center to the front is required to sit only. I removed my mask since I want him to see me.

He doesn't have the idea that I'm coming in here and I'm not the type of sasaeng who will attend these shits.

He's just enjoying his songs when our eyes meet so I smiled at him and I received a wink at him while he's smiling so wide. His fans screamed while I realized others staring at me but I didn't mind them.

Sunghoon's performance ended and a break happened then I heard some gossips around me. "I didn't know I'm going to be this jealous."

"Did you see that? Sunghoon smiled at him!"

"Righ! So lucky!"

I put my mask again to prevent exposing my whole face to them. Awarding held and as expected, Sunghoon won.

"Ahh yeah hahaha," he laughs after receiving the trophy. "Thank you Penguins for making me win today and I din't really expect you to be-I meant these many of you to be here today," he stated while looking at me so I laughed at his mistake. "And hahah yeah! Congratulations to us everyone!"

He did his encore and he let his fans sings while he put down his mic. He's really enjoying.

"Thank you so much! See you later Penguins! I love you!" he yelled and he forms a big heart shape above his head before leaving the stage.

The show ended like that and the crowd started to leave the room. I am patiently waiting for my turn to get out in here because their eyes are really on me.

Jeez, what's with them?

I'm on the line already when a woman who's wearing a HIVE staff shirt with PSH on its back approached me and whispered, "Are you Kim Sunoo?"

I nodded, "Yes ma'am," I replied politely.

She tiptoed again to reach my ear, "Park Sunghoon wants to see you at the back," she whispered that made me a bit shocked.

"Ahh yeah," I answered in hesitation then she started walking away so I followed her.

Why is he calling me to his waiting room? That guy really likes causing a lot of scene.

We entered a room that has "Park Sunghoon" label in the door and I saw a lot of his staffs wrapping up in the room.

"Sunoo!" I heard him called me so I walk towards him.

"Why did you call me here?" I asked him in my low voice. "Hello," I greeted the staff that's looking at me.

"Hey. I didn't know you're going to come in here!" he exclaimed that made me laughs.

"I'm sorry hahaha! But congratulations!" I greeted him with a smile.

"You should treat me," he demanded and he even looks like he's sulking.

"Hahaha! Why would I? You're the one who should treat me," I talked back to him.

"What do you want?" he asked me.

"Scoop," I replied immediately.

He gets what I meant and then he laughs, "Okay! Okay! I'll let you have one later," he said and laughs again.

"Nice hahahah!" I exclaimed.

"Wait a second, I'm going to post a selca," he said and grabs his trophy on the table. "Take me pictures please," he pleased and acted like a cute puppy.

I chuckles, "Okay hahaha!"

He lends his cellphone to me and then he stood up with the wall behind him. I focused the camera to him and he started doing some posing. I counted and then press the shutter button.

"Okay done," I stated and lend his phone back to him so he can check it.

"Ohh cool! I like it," he commented.

"Of course," I agreed that made him laugh.

"Expected from my best sasaeng," he complimented again.

"Stop it hahahah!" I replied.

He laughs and raises his hand with his phone. He smiled in front of his phone and takes selfie. I want to mess him up so I purposely made a finger heart beside him.

"Hey! Hahahaha!" he laughs then check his photos.

I just laugh at him then his makeup artist walks towards us then she started taking Sunghoon's makeup off. "Hello," she greeted me with a smile so I greeted her back also.

"Sunghoon! We're going out now!" one of the staff shouted.

"Yeaaaah!" Sunghoon answered back. "Thank you noona," he then thanks his stylist.

"Okie! Let's go now, are you going to bring your friend?" she asked while putting her things in her bag.

Sunghoon looked at me and I shook my head and gestured like I'm clicking the shutter button of the camera. "Ahh, he won't," he then stated.

"I'll be going now. Good bye," I bid my goodbye and Sunghoon smiled at me while waving his hands. I nod and made my exit.

While walking I grab a hoodie inside my bag and a new black mask. I head to the other side exit that are for employees and visitor and wait for Sunghoon to go out.

Then I received a messaged from him saying, "I'm going out now. Make sure to capture at best angle HAHAH!" I just laugh after reading it.

I walk towards the exit, there are only few protocol team since the fansites in here are also few. I saw him walking with his mask so I started pressing my camera's shutter button.

He made an eye contact with my camera and I saw his eyes smile at me. This guy really loves smiling and I really love seeing it also.

I won't defend myself in here.

He finally went inside the car and drive out. I started walking together with the others and I heard them talking.

"Ddeonu's scoops are so good. He's always updated, how the heck can he does that?" the girl in white stripes stated.

"I don't know. You know, a thought crossed my mind that what if Ddeonu is actually close to Sunghoon?" her friend replied.

The girl in stripe hit her, "Are you crazy! Why is he going to let a sasaeng ne his friend?" she asked.

I'm also curious about that.

I stopped walking when my phone vibrated and read Sunghoon's message. He wants me to come to that weir girl's café again. I don't have anything to do after this so I say to him.

I wait for bus and hop in. While on my seat I scrolled on my newsfeed but the people at my back are talking loud also.

"Let's just go to his house and burn them hahahah!" I heard a deep voice laughing, I don't know if it sounds evil or not.

"What do you mean? Hahaha! Our youngest shouldn't know anything about this," I heard another voice that can be sounds as healing.

I heard a smirk from the first guy, "Someone's life will end that night," he stated.

"Are you really going to let our memories turn into ashes?" the other guy asked.

"Our scintilla was already burned, hyung," the first guy stated again.

Their conversation made my brows frown then I realize that I should get off the bus already so I pressed the stop button near me. I went out then looked at the two guys that are behind me.

The first guy with a deep voice and small hint of satori has a brown hair while the other one with a healing calm voice has dyed his hair into yellow.

They sounded like they're going to kill someone.

I just shrugged the thought and started walking inside that street. I reached the café but I was surprise when there are like three people in there preparing for something.

"Oh sasaeng you're here!" I heard from Lia that made me roll my eyes.

"Sunghoon?" I asked her instead.

"He's still not here and we have an event for today so just go upstairs," she said while busy posting some designs on the wall.

"Up? Both this is only a ground floor right?" I asked her.

"Just go, I'm busy," she replied not even looking at me so I just started walking.

I head inside the door and took the stairs. When I get there it looks like a mini library or art gallery. The wall is pastel colored and has full of different fairy lights, paintings, books and even K-pop posters. There's only one table in the center and you can make your own hot coffee.

I put my bag on the seat and started looking around. This is so cute though the space is small. It's only for two people. There's a window so walk towards it and there are some post it on the notes.

Then I noticed outside a familiar car. Sunghoon went out in there and entered the café. After a few minutes I can now smell his scent.

"I'm not that late, right?" I heard him asked so I turn around.

"Not really," then I chuckled. "You should be resting right now, why did you want us to meet?" I asked him.

"Talking to you is also a rest for me," he stated that made my heart skip a beat.

"Stop talking nonsense," I replied trying to hide my weird feelings.

"Hahahah! I'm sorry," he apologizes and walks towards me. He look outside the window and speak, "I'm just happy that you came in my last promotion," he said.

"You're welcome hahaha," I replied while smiling.

"Did you know that smiling a lot suits you the most?" he asked me.

I looked at him and smiles so genuinely, "Like this? Hahahaha!"

He's just staring at me in awe then he looks away, "So cute," I heard he whispered.

"Stop it. You might like me," I stated jokingly.

He nods while smiling, "Well, I don't know hahahah!"

"Tsk," I hissed. "Just wondering why people really like you a lot," I stated.

"Why? I have the talent and looks though. I also have a good personality," he replied but I don't sense any brag in there.

Like he's just stating facts yet I can't agree with it fully.

I nods, "But you're just going to hurt your fans at the end. Yes, it's a matter of give and take. You make them happy and entertained then you'll receive the profit but they'e still the one who'll lose at the end," I stated.

"What do you mean by that? Every content that I'm doing is for them, what do you mean they'll lose at the end? Okay, I'll admit this one, during predebut I'm really worried that my fans are so few and having few fans means less chance of winning but after I debut I don't really care anymore, all I want are those who truly supports me," he replied.

"That's it. They support you so much. They keep on buying and buying, streaming and streaming, that they even sacrifice their own time for you. They called it love and love is pain," I added to my claim.

"They're just doing what they want," Sunghoon talked back.

"Hyung, have you thought of this one? People love Hollywood music even if they don't stan the artist. They don't care if the artist is a shit, they just care about the good music. But in K-pop if the artist is toxic, they'll unstan them right away. You aren't just making them fall in love with your music but with you himself. And that's what will cause the pain to your fans. You earn money they earn emotionally. If bad scenarios happen, you can still earn money, how about them?" I stated and looked at him.

I saw him sighs, "You are really my anti," he replied that made me laugh.

"Hahahaha!" I laughs. "No, I'm just stating how a fan and an artist relationship works that people keeps on trying to neglect," I added.

He nods, "You're right about it but I will still make music for them. So they'll continue to fall in love with me," he satted with a smile.

"Then break them," I added to his statment.

"No! HAHAHAHA!" he laughs at me.

I laughed and walks toward a shelf, "Just make music, it can heal someone's life," I stated and reached a Polaroid cam.

"I know right," he agrees. "What's that?" he asked me and my eyes widen when I felt him so close at my back.

I slightly pushed him, "You're too close," I said.

"Oh sorry!" he apologize and immediately took a few steps back.

I turn around after checking its film, "Should we take a picture?" I invited him.

I was shocked when he grabs my waist and held the camera, "Smile!"
Though I'm still shock, I still manage to smile before he clicked the shutter button. When the film came out he let go on my waist like nothing special happened.

THE FUCK?

He keeps on flipping in through the air until the picture appears. "We should take two pictures," he stated. "Oh! It turned out nice!" he commented.

I checked the picture and I smiled after seeing it. "Another one," I said and take the cam from him.

I was about the click the button when he spokes, "You're too far," he stated and I felt his arm on my back and his hand on my shoulders. "Now press it," he added.

I just smiled and slightly tilted my head as I pressed down the capture button. After a few seconds the film came out and it's my turn to flip it.

"Sunoo, you really look so cute when you smile," he commented after seeing the photo.

What he said makes my heart flutter but it makes my heart beat more abnormally when I saw how he posted in our picture. He's smiling while looking at me.

This guy is making me feel so weird.

"Okay! I'll put this one in my phone case," he said and pulled the picture that I took.

He grabs his phone from his pocket and put it under his phone case. "Someone might see it, hyung," I said.

"They won't. Look, it's not clear," he replied while showing to me the back of phone.

His phone case is colored gray and it has a blurry texture so the picture under it isn't really clear.

"Then I'll take this one," I stated and pulled what he took from him and put it also under my phone case. My case is pure black so it doesn't really matter.

My phone vibrated and I received Boss Jeon's message that he what's me to come to ENB. I suddenly wondered why?

"Hyung, I need to go now," I said and pulled my bag then wear my mask.

"Okay, okay. Thanks for today!" he exclaimed and smiled.

"Just messaged me if you want to talk again, your schedule isn't that busy anymore so I'll have more time," I replied at him.

"And if you need a scoop we can meet anytime, you can also message me anytime," he responds that made me taken aback for a moment.

He's really letting me to be his damn sasaeng for free and less hassle.

"Sure," I agreed.

"And Sunoo, I appreciate what my fans are doing and giving to me. I appreciate all those buying, streaming, and sleepless nights. I might hurt them at the end at least I did my best to make them happy as well," he stated with a smile.

"Sunghoon hyung, you have the best fans in the world."