Third person POV

Ella had been thinking a lot about weather she actually liked John or not. If she didn't, she felt awful about playing with his feelings the day he confessed. If she did, why was she second guessing herself? Ella needed to talk to someone. An outside force that didn't know much. 'Frances,' She thought. Ella pulled out her phone.

ItsColderHere: hey Frannie

yaLL🤠: heyy what's up

ItsColderHere: guy problems

yaLL🤠: omg it is Philip

ItsColderHere: what-

ItsColderHere: No it's not

yaLL🤠: ma'am yall literally kissed in front of my house

ItsColderHere: well this isn't about him

ItsColderHere: it about this other guy who ive known since we were kids and he apparently had a crush on me so i kissed him and now idk if i like him or not

yaLL🤠: oop youre a player

ItsColderHere: am not

yaLL🤠: whatever you say

yaLL🤠: ok but can you hand over some of these guys im single af

ItsColderHere: no.

yaLL🤠: selfish 🙄

ItsColderHere: will you just help me figure out my own love life before I help u with urs

yaLL🤠: well do you want to spend the rest of your life with him?

ItsColderHere: I do but idk if its like that

yaLL🤠: lemme put it differently

yaLL🤠: do you wanna have kids with him

ItsColderHere: no not really

yaLL🤠: then theres your answer

ItsColderHere: Girl you are a life saver

yaLL🤠: ik, now go tell him before you hurt him more

ItsColderHere: will do, thanks again

yaLL🤠: bye Ella

ItsColderHere: bye

Ella put her phone in her pocket, grabbed a coat and started running out of her room. Mary was sitting on a couch reading when her sister sped past. "Where are you going?"

"Somewhere important, if Dad comes back tell him I'll be back in a few" Ella answered.

Mary gave a subtle salute for a response as Ella continued her way out of the house. Ella walked to the Madison estate, which she knew how to get to by heart. She knocked lightly on the door and a tall, muscular girl opened it. "Ava? I didn't know you were home!" Ella exclaimed, and the two girl hugged each other.

Ava Dolley Madison, John's older sister who was in college, insanely smart but also insanely athletic. "Hey Ele, I missed you," Ava laughed pulling away from the smaller girl, whom she saw as a sister.

"Is John home?" Ella asked.

"Yup, he's in his room," Ava answered.

Ella started walking towards the stares and waved to Ava, "Ok, thanks." She made it to John's room and knocked on the door.

John opened the door with a done expression on his face. "What do you want this ti-" He cut himself off when he saw Ella standing there. "Oh hi Ella" He said, a grin spreading across his face.

Ella smiled at him back, a light smile, but is wasn't completely whole hearted. She didn't want to break his heart by telling him this, but she didn't want to hurt him by leading him on. "Hey John"

John noticed she looked a little off and raised an eyebrow. "What's up?"

Ella sighed lightly. "Can.. Can we have a sorta serious conversation?"

John was a little concerned as to what she had to tell him. "Uh sure" He walked over to his bed and pat the spot beside him. Ella walked over and sat in the spot.

"I honestly don't know how to go about this, but I wasn't expecting to even have this conversation today so bare with me here." Ella looked at John and he gave her a nod. "I don't wanna hurt your feelings but I think I'll be hurting you more if I don't tell you this. I don't think I like you in a romantic way, but I don't wanna lose you. You're one of my best friends and I couldn't stand it when you weren't talking to me. But I don't like you the way you like me" Ella spoke the the ground almost the entire time. She couldn't stand to see his face right now.

John looked at her with tears in his eyes, but he smiled nonetheless. "Hey, look at me." Ella did as he told her too. "I'm gonna be honest with you, that hurts. But I'm glad you told me and I'll respect any boundaries you set. I don't know how I survived without you for almost two months"

Ella smiled at him, tears brimming her own eyes now. "So we're good?"

"Always"

The two hugged each other and stayed there for a while. Once they pulled apart John asked, "It's Philip isn't it?"

"I- what? No!" Ella's face unknowingly turned a little pink and John just laughed a little.

"Come on be honest"

"I don't like Philip why does everyone think that!" Ella exclaimed, jumping off the bed.

"Then why are your cheeks red?" John asked smugly.

"They are not." Ella crossed her arms in protest.

"They sure look it"

"Are not."

"Uh huh," John smirked at her, he was well aware she was in complete denial about her feelings.

"I should probably get going before my dad gets home," Ella waved at John. "Thanks again for understanding"

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Ella laid in her bed, wearing an oversized t-shirt and a pair of running shorts, feeling successful for how her day had gone. She'd narrowed it down to one weird boy feeling and well she didn't want to think about that one. She heard a noise come from near her window and glanced over at it. Seeing it was open she shrugged it off. "Must've been the wind." Ella
muttered.

She grabbed her phone off her nightstand and started scrolling through it. Ella thought she heard another noise but just ignored it, assuming it was the wind. But when she heard a louder noise she sent her phone down and look at the window again. However this time when her eyes met with a pair of familiar hazel ones and scream came out of her mouth and she fell off her bed. She quickly stood up and glared at the person.

"Philip Hamilton what are you doing in my room?!"

"Well your dads home and I didn't wanna come through the-"

"No forget that HOW did you get in my room?"

"I came through the window" Philip looked at her as if she was stupid. It was pretty obvious he climbed through the window to him.

"Yes but-" Ella sighed and put her head in her hand and motioned go him with the other one. "How did you climb to my window?"

Philip just shrugged at her. Ella rolled her eyes. "You're lucky I wasn't changing"

Philip blushed at the thought of it. Ella snickered snd pushed his arm as she walked by. "Keep it in your pants."

Philip managed to snap out of his trance and look at Ella. "We need to talk about.. a few things"

Ella turned around and looked at him, her eyebrows pinched together. "Ok.."

"I know you said you don't want to talk about this but I feel like we need to and-"

"Philip..."

"No I think we need to talk about the ki-"

"Philip"

"Please just..." Philip looked at her with pleading eyes "let me talk"

Ella put her hands up in defense and let him continue.

Philip took a deep breath before talking. "I know you don't like talking about your feelings but I think I really like you. And well I don't know how to go about really liking someone. I know I've done some unforgivable things in the past and I've said some things I shouldn't have but I don't ever want to hurt you in any way again. I'm in love with you, Ella."

Ella looked at him, wide eyed. She had no idea what to say to that. "I think if I'm going to be honest with you, I don't know what I'm feeling. Even if I did like you, what would our parents say? What would everyone else say?"

Philip let out a light chuckle. "Since when does Eleanor Jefferson care what people think?"

Ella let out a laugh too. "Since it comes to love I guess"

"So do you like me?" Philip questioned. Ella stayed silent. "Would you want to date me?"

Ella sighed and look at the taller boy. "I don't know, but I don't think I'm ready for it yet"

Philip gave her a small smile. "Well," he bent down and kissed her cheek before continuing, "I'll wait for you."

He walked toward the window and left Ella standing there shocked. Her hand moved to graze the cheek Philip's lips had just been on. "Wait!" Ella ran over to the window.

Philip stopped as he was almost on the windowsill. "Yes?"

"What were the other things you had to talk to me about?" Ella asked.

Philip stared at her blankly for a moment. "Oh! Right. Right right right. Um. Sorry I kinda got a caught up in being romantic and..." Ella couldn't help but laugh at him. "Uh, I'll tell you those later alright? It's getting late and I don't want your dad to see me" He climbed down further so his head was now perfectly in the open part of the window. He smiled at Ella and waved lightly. "Goodnight"

She kissed his cheek as he did to her before then waved. "Night Freckles"

Ella silently laughed as Philip climbed down the wall in a daze. When he got to the ground she looked down at him and smiled. He waved and yelled up to her, "See ya tomorrow Ellie!"

"See you at school Philly!" She yelled back.

Hello. It's been forever since I've updated any of my books...
If I'm being honest this has always been my favorite book and it has the most plot actually in it so yeah. BUT CONFESSIONS ARE HAPPENING. SUPER FLUFFY CHAPTER FOR YOU GUYS. Sorry again and thanks for reading and have a good day/night!