Ah yes, the grand year of 2016. This would be the year I would start having "thoughts". Now as to how those thoughts started is what happened on June 1st, 2016. I was a freshman in high school at the time and I was VERY anti-LGBTQ, kindly, but very much against it. I had just finished my last final exam and was dismissed for summer break that day. I get into my van and my dad explains to me that he got a text from a local mother, whose daughter wanted to check out our church. So I was told her name was Angel, and she was currently 13 1/2 at the time. I figured, "well, she is younger than me but I guess a new friend wouldn't hurt." As I went to church that night for Bible study, I got to meet Angel. She tagged alongside my sister first, as I honestly didn't trust her. Heck, I had even went as far as to tell my cousins to keep anything valuable to them hidden so that Angel wouldn't try to steal anything. However, it was that same night that she and I became friends, practically BFF'S at that point. Now about two weeks later, we dropped Angel off at her trailer and she hugged me and said "Bye sis". I remember looking at her, slightly confused but feeling a bright, warm feeling in my heart as I said "Sis?" and she smiled at me, replying "yep, we're sisters now". I agreed that we were indeed sisters, not biologically but by heart. Now, Angel had claimed to be a Christian (Born again believer, saved by grace through faith in Christ alone) but turns out she would later get "saved" so to say in September of that year, but that's later in our story.  Anyways, I went home that day, and note that i hadn't had my first kiss yet, but I wondered what it would be like to kiss someone, especially a girl. I realized I was thinking of Angel and kissing her in my mind and I immediately pushed the thoughts down to "the thought", the "oh so horrible thought" of "If I ever kiss a girl, I won't be gay or a lesbian cuz that's sinful and gross, but it'll just be something I want to do before I die. Like another thing to add to my bucket list, yeah that's it. Nothing "gaaaaayyee" about that at all" (*my 16 year old deep down inner gay intensifies*) I honestly regret pushing those feelings down, as I was denying who I really was.  However, I always looked forward to spending time with Angel, and I miss those days. 

//Hiiiiiiii Guuuuyyysss!!! I really hope you enjoy the first chapter of my first LGBT story, more almost like an autobiography kind of. Anyways please  share it, as I'm busy with my senior year in High school, I will try to update as much as possible. I hope you guys have enjoyed it so far! I look forward to writing more! I love you all! Remember to be who you are and don't let anyone tell you any differently! If they don't love/accept you, know that I will! Peace out Loves! - KitKat//