"No! You're not listening. I wasn't upset at James! I was upset at myself!"

Oh.

Green Eyes didn't say anything, but I couldn't look at her.

Stop talking!

"I convinced myself that I was in love with a douche bag! Then I looked like a fucking idiot because everyone else already knew what was going on between them."

Still. She said nothing. Maybe she was focused on driving, but I couldn't shut up.

"And I knew he didn't love me! Deep down I knew, but I was too fucking afraid. And I don't even know what I was afraid of! God dammit."

For some reason. I was angry. Maybe because I didn't mean to cry, or maybe because James had screwed me over, but that didn't matter now.

So why was I crying?