"Young miss." Min Seo sniffs.

"I'm alright Min Seo." Y/n smiled despite the tears flowing.

Her body hurts. Her heart hurts. She doesn't know how to deal with it.

She just witnessed Taehyung die. She had failed to protect him. She wonders that if she just didn't decided to run away, maybe Taehyung would be still alive right now.

She wants to forget. She want it all to end.

The pain, the suffering. She wants to get rid of it.

"Take this." Hoseok then stepped forward and handed her a moist object.

It was a tiny flower.

Y/n sniffs, "Why did you take the soil with it?" She asks the shadowguard.

Hoseok actually gave her a tiny flower with it's roots still intact and some soil at the end of it.

"I didn't want to kill it." Hoseok answered.

And at that moment, Y/n smiled genuinely.

"I want to give something too." Min Seo whined and became upset that she couldn't give anything to her young miss.

"Y/n." A voice interrupted them.

Namjoon and Jin was standing outside of her door.

"We need you two to get out for a moment." Jin told them.

The two hesitated before following the doctor's command.

Y/n placed the tiny flower on her bedside table.

She was about to ask Jin why he made the two leave but Jin was also gone.

The only one left was a seemingly familiar man that she couldn't figure out who, until he stepped forward and the light shine on his face.

"Yoongi?" Confusion coated her voice. Before she could ask the man on why he's there, Yoongi had tackled her down.

Hugging her with an enormous amount of strength.

"I'm sorry." Her friend cried. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He repeatedly says.

"Yoongi." With concern, she grabbed his shoulders and faced him properly. "Why are you apologizing?"

Yoongi looked at her with tearful eyes. "I'm the cause of it. Those lives. You being brought back. Your suffering, i-it's because of me." Yoongi let out.

He couldn't look at her. He feels ashamed.

Silence was all he received.

He had expected it.

He knows that she probably won't forgive him.

"But you didn't mean to don't you?" Her response startled him.

With that, Yoongi had the courage to look at her.

Only to find out that she was smiling at him.

"I know you. You wouldn't do that on purpose so maybe there might've been a mishap?" She rambled, still in tears.

She knows that she shouldn't blame him.

Yoongi squeezed her hand and let out a sob.

"I-i'll help you. Do you want your memories erased? All those pain. All those sufferings you've went through." Yoongi quickly said.

"But are there some consequences once you do it?"

Yoongi gulped.

'My whole existence'

And then he shook his head.

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Bang!

Seokjin and Namjoon flinched.

"Your majesty!" A servant shouts.

"Oh my goodness!"

The two looked at each other before rushing to the commotion.

As they followed the yells, the two realized that it came from Y/n's room.

Footsteps of blood greets them and right below the door was a puddle of the scarlet liquid.

The two immediately thought of one thing.

"Min Yoongi! What did you do?!"

The said man flinched and faced the two. His figure revealed a sleeping Y/n on the bed.

All deprived of blood stains. The blood wasn't related to her.

"Would you help the other shadowguard? He's been having a trouble with the emperor." Yoongi stated and Namjoon rushed to the room's bath place.

"What the- what happened here?" Jin stepped in the room and avoided all the blood puddles.

"Emperor went on a rampage after seeing me in his wife's room." The pale man bluntly said.

Jin was about to sigh in relief until he saw a looking dead man on the floor.

"Who the fuck is that?!" Jin rushed to the man and placed two of his fingers on the pulse.

There was still that pumping feeling but it was faint.

"Oh yeah, can you heal that one? The emperor brought that man with him."

"I swear every time that I'm gone, all the strange things happen." Jin grumbled and carried the man like a bride.

"Can you calm the fuck down?!" Yoongi heard the tall man shout.

He didn't bother to help Hoseok and Namjoon and instead stared at Y/n who was sleeping peacefully.

She had collapsed after he used his magic on her.

Yoongi swiped a piece of hair that was sticking in the tear trail of her cheek.

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"I don't want to." Y/n looked down and squeezed his hand back in return.

"But Y/n.."

"I have been also thinking that I want to end all that suffering, to erase all those memories but I realized something." Y/n stops for a moment and gazed at the little flower that Hoseok had given her. "In those memories, I have suffered. Majority was suffering but it doesn't mean that it was all suffering. There were good times that are too precious to forget." Y/n continued and she carefully took the flower from her bedside table. "Those memories of me falling in love, of me meeting you and becoming my friend, the time when I first found out about my pregnancy, the day I met Taehyung, this little flower that Hoseok had given me and there's many more. All those things had given me an enormous amount of happiness. These memories are part of me. Even the ones that's too painful to keep. Those had molded me into what I am now." Y/n smiled as a tear trickled down her face. "Do not blame yourself Yoongi. Especially if you didn't mean for it to happen."

Yoongi stared at her in awe, his eyes still coated with his own tears.

"But I still want to do something for you." He mutters.

She bit her lip and thought for a moment.

"How about giving me the other perspective in my past lives? Would that be too much?" Y/n asks.

"Other perspectives?"

"There's so much things that's hidden and I want to know those things. It's my fourth life yet I just recently knew that Jihyun and Jungkook were siblings. Her child was never his and Jungkook never cheated on me. All those times and I just sticked into thinking using my perspective. It was only until now that I realized that there's always a different sides in a story." Y/n rambled. "I wanna know why he always ended up killing me.... And why Jihyun always had that deep hate towards me."

Yoongi nodded and stood up.

"This can take a while and you would be unconscious for the time being." Yoongi stated.

Y/n just nodded.

With the permission he had, Yoongi placed his right hand on her head.

A bright yellowish light flickered like a lightning and then Yoongi saw her falling back on the bed, a relaxed look on her face.

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Yoongi sighed and caressed her hand.

He should request Jin to rehydrate her since she would be unconscious for the time being.

"Wifeeee~" he heard the emperor whine.

He was not sure what kind of poison the emperor had but it was surely successful on making Jungkook high.

"My wifeee~ Let me cuddle her~"

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My Y/n bby🥺
She went thru so much🤧