Mike's P.O.V

I have been with Tony Perry for 3 years. I love him with all of my heart so why did I say I hate him. It all started when we decided to go to a party.

Vic, and his boyfriend, Kellin were hosting a party, they got engaged. I was so proud of Vic and I know Kellin makes him happy. Me and Tony arrived at the party and everything was going good.

Until I saw Tony's ex boyfriend, Jaime. I hate him, he was abusive towards Tony. Why the fuck is he here?

I managed to keep him away from Tony all night, that is until I went to the bathroom.

I did my business and went back to were me and Tony were before, he wasn't there. Shit. I swear to god if Jaime lays a hand on my turtle I'll cut his dick off and shove it up his ass so far, it'll come out of his mouth.

I looked everywhere, all over the house except one place the bedrooms. I went upstairs to where the bedrooms were and looked in them, I looked in the first one and saw something that I never wanted to see.

Tony and Jaime were making while on top of each other.

"WHAT THE FUCK!" I yelled.

Both of their heads looked at me, I stormed out of the room before either of them could say anything. How could Tony do this to me? Why? I got in my car and drove home.

I finally got home after what feels like forever. I go up to my room an think why tony would do this. I love him, I changed for him, 3 fucking years, what if he never loved me and he's been seeing Jaime behind my back. I needed to stop my thoughts so I put some music. Then I heard the front door open and close.

"Mike I'm sorry." Tony said once he got up to our room.

I said nothing.

"Mike please it wasn't my fault, Jaime pinned me down and I couldn't get out." Tony said.

"Yeah right." I scoffed.

"Mike it's the truth, please I love you." Tony was crying now.

"Well I hate you." I said before I walked out of the house. I didn't mean it.

I left for a while, I just walked around San Diego trying to clear my mind. I ended up forgiving Tony. Jaime probably did pin him down, Tony would never do that to me. I love him and he loves me. I started to go back home to tell Tony I regretted saying that I hate him.

"Tony." I yelled as I got into the house.

No reply

"Tony please, I don't hate you I just said it in the heat of the moment, I love you and forgive you." I said as I went up the stairs.

I looked in our bedroom and he wasn't there. I was starting to get worried, the last time we had a fight like this he almost-

"Fuck." I said as I saw what was in the bathroom.

Tony was laying there, his wrists bleeding, he looked so pale. I called 911 then grabbed Tony.

"Tony please, you can't leave me I love you, please don't leave." I was sobbing, I should've never left, I should've never said I hate him. Why am I so stupid. I heard the sirens getting closer, I kissed Tony one last time.

"I love you." I whispered as they took him away.

I didn't take the ambulance, I was to scared. We finally got to the hospital after what seemed like hours.

"I'm looking for Tony Perry." I said as I got up to the front desk.

"Ah yes, I believe you will need to talk to Dr. Carlile about that, I'll page him for you." The lady at the front desk said.

"Okay." I said before going over to the chairs.

I took a seat and Dr. Carlile came over not long after.

"Are you here for Tony Perry." He asked.

"Yes." I said.

"Well I'm afraid Mr. Perry has passed away from blood loss, I'm so sorry." He said.

I ran out of the hospital as fast as I could. I got in my car and went home to cry my eyes out.

*after Tony's funeral*

Today was Tony's funeral, it was the worst day of my life. I watched as they lowered the love of my life into the ground. I stayed and looked at his grave. Everyone had already left. I just stared at it.

"You weren't supposed to leave me, we were supposed to grow old together, get married and have kids. Please Tony, I love you so much." I began to cry.

I didn't want believe he was gone, I'm never going to hold my little turtle again, I'm never going to tell him I love him at the alter. I didn't have my Tony.

"I'm sorry."I whispered before I walked away from the grave and drove off.

I Mike Fuentes had loved Tony Perry for 3 years. I still love him with all of my heart. Even 50 years later I still go to his grave everyday to say

I'm Sorry