Have you ever looked at someone and thought that they had everything figured out?

I put an 'had' there, not an 'have'. Why? Because it may seem like someone is happy. Or, has everything figured out. Though, in reality...we're only human...and life happens...

Now, let's back up.

The only reason you are able to read this, is because I'm gone. It may seem like I was happy and always laughing, but I was far from it.

My anxiety got bad and I'm suffering from MAJOR depression. I wrote this late at night after thinking about my life...and in turn...my death...

I wasn't scared, because I had similar thoughts in middle school when things got really bad.

I'm not crying...I cried all my tears away. To be honest, I feel hollow and empty...never being able to feel again.

I can't feel the pain anymore...

I have thought of ending my life before. It isn't anything new.

So, as I spill my thoughts and putting it into a note...I...KNOW that me being gone will be...wrong...though after everything...I can't go on.

My book 'Isolation' wasn't random. Most of that stuff I dealt with...because if you do see this...it means I'm gone...

I'm not scared or nervous...I think death will be an awfully great adventure. After everything...I'm just done.

If you read this, it means I'm gone and I wanted out.

Of what...only me and my family know...

These past few months have helped, but not enough. I have to some of you things that I haven't told anyone and I'm glad I got a lot of it off my chest.

I'm more free and lighter.

I'm sorry OCF for this, but (it's in the title)...I appreciate everything...

...Sorry everyone...

I know this is a shock and everything, but I warn you...the people closest to you may be suffering like I have...

Just be there for them.

For me.

For yourself...have them stay. Be there to help them stay...

I truly am sorry...

...MsPenguingirl1234

Also, please comment and spread the word to prevent suicide...do your love ones a favor...because you are never truly alone.

Goodbye.