I'm so sorry for the scare! I was only seeing and testing of what it would be like if I DID kill myself.

Because it shows me of what I WILL lose.

It's actually mostly true...I haven't been eating right (half reason because I'm sick...and I probably shouldn't have read the Maze Runner series) and I have been in a funk.

I have been thinking of actually doing it since middle school...it kind of never left...but it was more of a curious thought to see how many were TRULY there for me.

After doing this, I came to realize that I'm too deep in life to end it. I don't WANT it to end yet, I'm too young. Though, if I do...it was an accident and I love you all.

But, right now...I still love you all. All of you have supported me and thank you.

I really am TRULY sorry...and for those who sent death threats over this...it shows you love me and REALLY care about me.

Thank you.

But, I did feel like I died a little reading page 250 of the third book...Maze Runner fans know what I mean...I cried so much...

Anyway, I love you all! Please know that there is at least SOMEONE out there that loves you! Because I know there is...later! :)