I wasn't too sure about a lot of things. However, if there was one thing I was sure about it was the fact that Baekhyun and Chanyeol were made for each other. I was absolutely sure about that.

They were engaged and were planning to marry. I wasn't expecting them to move up their wedding last minute. They wanted it to be simple, but still, there we were, in an expensive suit store.

I sat on a comfortable chair in the shop, looking around me awkwardly. Baekhyun was inside, trying on the probably ninth suit by now.

"I think this is the one Tae" Baekhyun smiled widely as he exited the dressing room.

"You said that about the last three as well" I chuckled, turning my gaze to inspect the suit. "But I think you're right this time"

It fit him perfectly, like it was made just for him. The smile on his face grew as he heard my reaction.

"This is the one" He smiled. I smiled and nodded.

"You look great hyung" I grinned. "Let's get it"

Beakhyun once again disappeared in the dressing room and handed me the suit while he got changed. Before he even got out of the dressing cabin, the suit was already in a fancy bag in my hand.

"Tae...." Baekhyun said in surprise. "Did you just pay for it?"

"Don't worry about it hyung, it was the best thing I've ever spent my money on" I smiled.

I could see tears in his eyes, tears of happiness maybe. I got a little teary myself and pulled him into a hug.

"Thank you Taehyung, you're the best family I could wish for" He grinned. I chuckled and pulled away, handing him the bag.

I watched as he grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the shop. I couldn't stop staring at him while he was driving, remembering about his family. It was quite the sad story.

Beakhyun loved his family, but they rejected him as it became clear that he was gay, it wasn't accepted in Korea that much yet. I remember how Beakhyun cried when he told me his parents disowned him and kicked him out of the house. It was a horrible sight to see how heartbroken he was.

"You should go home, talk to Jungkook about... everything" Beakhyun shot me a look. I sighed and nodded, that was probably the best thing to do.

"I'll tell him everything" I gave him a small smile and he drove to drop my off in front of my house.

I hesitated to knock on the door, knowing what kind of conversation would be taking place soon. I really didn't want to do it, but it was the right thing to do.

My knuckles met the wood and I waited for the door to open. When it did, it revealed a tired and stressed looking Jungkook, eyes puffy and dark bags under his eyes. He stepped aside without a say and let me walk inside. My hands were shaking. It was time to tell him. I was nervous as to what he'd say. I was scared.

We sat down on the couch silently, and I started to speak.

"I know I haven't been the best brother, I'm sorry, but I must swear to you that I didn't know. I need you to believe me, just for now." I took a deep breath. "There's something else I need to tell you, because I haven't been honest to you these past weeks and it's eating me from inside"

I saw him bite his lips and nod slowly, he was clearly also nervous.

"I have cancer." I breathed out, looking down as to not see his reaction. "It's been around 2-3 months since it was confirmed, at the time I stayed at Beakhyun and Chanyeol for a while. I was afraid to tell you, because I'm a coward, and I'm sorry."

I heard him release a shaky breath. A tear rolled down my cheek

"I wanted you to be happy, not to worry about me, but I f-fucked it up" a sob escaped my throat, but I tried to keep it in. "I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I didn't mean for all of this to happen, and then you gave me those files and I j-just, I couldn't... but I had to tell you, no matter how s-scared I was. I-I don't want you to h-hate me J-jungkook."

"I-I... don't hate you hyung. I love you" he held my cheeks to make me look him in the eyes. "I knew"

"W-what?" I stuttered in surprise, his face unclear due to my blurry eyes, but I could see him crying as well.

"I found your diary yesterday, underneath those t-testimony papers in your drawer" He bent down to grab something from underneath the coffee table. "I read it, I didn't know how much I hurt you hyung. I should be the one that's sorry."

I stared at him in surprise before pulling him into a hug, sobbing in his shoulder. He knew, and he wasn't mad. I felt really happy at that moment. I had been thinking he would hate me, but he didn't.

"I-I love you t-too Jungkook" I cried in his shirt, knowing he was crying too. My shirt was wet and he was shaking. "B-but that's not all"

I pulled away and gave him a sad smile, he looked confused for a second, not understanding what else there'd could be. If I wanted to be honest, I had to tell the whole truth. I took another deep and shaky breath

"When I was at the hospital a couple of days ago, my doctor said there were new r-results. The chemo wasn't working, and the cancer s-spread to my pancreas" new tears escaped my eyes.

"W-what do you mean it d-didn't work? You'll be alright, right?" He looked at me in shock.

"Oh Jungkook" I smiled sadly at him, through all my tears.

"Pancreatic cancer is incurable"