I lost my mom recently and here I am crying over how no one cares about me. I need to get over myself I'm so fucking worthless why can't I be stronger? I really am pathetic I don't blame anyone who doesn't want to be there for me. Hell, I hate myself more than others hate me. I wanted to go to a movie with my crush and when I needed my brother most he was fucking M.I.A. Why am I even surprised? He's probably drunk off his ass right now. Did I expect any different? Yeah, I did. I thought he was going to be responsible and care about me for once. No, it's the same pattern. It's so fucking hard to break habits, if he's not drunk in a club he's probably dead in his car, crashed against a tree from driving drunk. I need to be more independent and rely less on others, relying on others will get you nothing but hurt. I'm probably going to just end up cutting again and wear long sleeves to school like I usually do. Even if I don't wear them, no one would notice or care. I'm so angry and frustrated with myself right now.