~ Chapter 75: For Now ~

[ Justin’s POV: ]

“What’s the surprise?” I asked Jackie, as her hands squeezed mine tightly. She stopped in the middle of her room and turned to look at me.

“I don’t know if it’s good or bad news,” she admitted, releasing her grip on me and biting her lip nervously. “But I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t kinda excited.”

I furrowed my eyebrows. “Jackie, what—”

“-Hold on,” she raised a hand to silence me, pushing her index finger on my lips playfully. I let out a small chuckle and let her continue.

“My mom called me this morning,” she said. “Apparently, her and Dad are coming home tomorrow from their long trip.”

I stared at her.

“She said they probably won’t stay long.. But it’s at least something, right?”

“Um.. Yeah,” I nodded.

Her smile faded. “That’s it? No excitement for me?”

“No, no, I am, I’m happy for you, it’s just..” I trailed off.

“Just… what?”

“Didn’t you say you’re rarely in contact with them?” I asked.

“Uh, well.. Yeah but it’s not like they can talk 24/7 you know,” she shrugged.

I bowed my head and stared at the floor. “Jackie..”

“Why are you worried?” she interrupted. “This is a good thing.”

I looked up at her again, gazing into her eyes.

It is her parents, after all.

“You’re right,” I sighed. “I guess I’m just nervous to meet them.” Jackie laughed and grabbed my hand again. “I am meeting them… Right?”

“Of course you are,” she smiled. “No backing away, okay?”

I smirked, wrapping my arms around her. “Okay, ma’am,” I kissed her forehead about five times before embracing her in a tight hug, squeezing her body against mine. We hugged for what seemed like forever until Jackie began trying to pull away.

“Alright, Justin,” she giggled, “I can’t breathe.”

“Shh..” I hushed, grinning at her, “Just embrace the love.” I kissed her cheek repeatedly as she attempted to fight me off.

“Okay,” she laughed, “Okay, okay, let me go.”

“No,” I whispered in her ear, before resuming to kiss her cheek over and over.

She began taking steps backwards at the same time as pulling away from me. Of course, I was still strong enough to keep her in my grip and even continue kissing her too. She leaned down, as if it would somehow help escape my wrath and, as I pulled her back, we both fell onto the bed, where she took her chance and rolled away from me. I was quick to pull her back, rolling on top of her and trapping her beneath my body.

“Are you done?” she pouted, out of breath.

I laughed and shook my head. “There’s still so much I want to do,” I whispered, running my hands down her body and leaning close, our lips slightly touching. Jackie stared into my eyes, the color red slowly cascading down her cheeks and I reached my hand up, grazing my thumb over her chin. “Jackie,” I hummed, licking my lips.

“Y-Yeah?” she shivered. I could tell she felt small compared to me when I towered over her like this.

“I really do love you,” I said, my thumb outlining her perfect lips.

Jackie swallowed hard before reaching both her hands up and running them through my hair.

“I’ve loved you since 2009,” she whispered, and my heart fluttered. I leaned the small distance between us and we shared a delicate kiss. My lips moved slowly with hers, and I could taste her strawberry lipgloss on her slightly chapped lips.

When she suddenly gripped the hair on the back of my head, I let out a slight moan, and she slid her tongue into my mouth. Our kisses began to get more and more sloppy, and we would come back for more, hungrier and hungrier each time. Jackie’s hands trailed down to the bottom of my shirt and reached my belt. She began to unbuckle it as I ran my hands up the smooth skin on her legs.

At one point, Jackie pulled away for air and I slowly opened my eyes, looking at her perfect features.

“We’re doing it again,” I breathed out, a small smile forming at the corner of my lips.

Jackie let out a tired giggle and wrapped her hands around my neck.

“Can’t we just.. Do it this time?” she shyly murmured. “We do love each other, right?”

I blinked twice, letting out a long sigh before chuckling. “Scooter would murder me.”

“For having sex with me?” she asked in slight disappointment.

“For having unprotected sex with you,” I clarified, twirling strands of her hair around my index finger.

“Oh..” was all Jackie said before she continued to look at me. It was silent for a while. Neither of us spoke, and the air was stiff around us.

My gaze was focused on her hair tangled between my fingers and I slowly met her eyes, lowering my finger.

“What’s wrong?” I whispered.

She didn’t answer, continuing to look at me.

I poked her cheek. “What’s wrong?” I repeated, quieter this time.

She sighed, looking up at the ceiling. “That’s exactly what he said that day.”

“What who said?” I pressed my lips together.

“Tyler,” she said. “I felt pressured.”

I waited for her to continue, the confusion of what it was that she was talking about was spreading rapidly throughout my very being.

“I felt pressured to have sex with Tyler,” she clarified. “What’s wrong, is exactly what he asked me when I tried to tell him I wasn’t ready.”

My face was solemn as I listened.

“I actually never said ‘Okay’ or ‘Yes’ or any sign that I wanted to proceed, but.. He was such a nice guy and.. I tried telling him but he kept saying promises like I’ll be gentle or I’m right here and not to be scared..”

“Jackie..” I whispered, taking her hand in mine. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I didn’t.. think it was a big deal,” she shrugged slightly. “It was kinda my fault, after all.”

I gritted my teeth, quickly getting off of her and standing up.

“Why didn’t you tell me!?!” I repeated, yelling at her.

Jackie sat up on her bed and looked at me, surprise written all over her face.

“Whoa, calm down, I said it’s really not a big deal,” she tried reasoning.

“Jackie, that asshole took advantage of you!” I curled my hands into fists, squeezing on them tightly.

“No.. I led him on. It was my fault,” she quivered.

“DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?!” I screamed. “That’s what every rape victim says!”

“I’m not a rape victim, Justin,” her eyes watered with tears.

I couldn’t quite describe it, but I felt angrier than I’ve ever felt in my life when I heard those words come out of her mouth. How can she honestly sit there and tell me it was her fault that a boy decided to steal her first time from her, and not realize she was taken advantage of? I don’t care how fucking nice of a guy she thinks he is, this doesn’t sound very nice to me. And to think she left this huge detail out..

“You honestly don’t think so?..” I spat bitterly.

She nodded hesitantly.

“HE TOOK YOUR VIRGINITY, JACKIE!” I yelled.

“Can you STOP yelling!?” she raised her voice, standing up from the bed.

I ignored her.

“Did you want to have sex with him?”

“N-Not necessarily..”

“Can you look me straight in the eyes and say you have no regrets of what happened that night and losing your virginity to that son of a bitch?”

A single tear streamed down her cheek as she looked down at her feet.

“N-no.”

I took two deep breaths.

“I’m calling the police,” I said, as if it was all decided now. I turning around before Jackie stopped me.

“No, stop!” she yelled, running to me and grabbing my arm. “Don’t do that.”

“I’m not.. going to let this slide.” I said every word slowly so she’d understand.

“Please don’t,” she cried, “I-I’ve known subconsciously.. that.. that I may have been raped but.. Please, I.. I’m not ready to go so far as to involve the police. He’s a nice guy and—”

“Listen. To. Me,” I interrupted, grabbing her and making her look me straight in the eyes. “I don’t give a single fuck what type of person he is. He stole a precious thing from you and if you think I’m going to do nothing about that, you’re wrong, princess.”

“P-please stop..” she whimpered. The anger that pumped throughout my veins simmered down as she continued. “I have you.. And soon I’m going to have my parents back, at least for a while. I just want this week to be perfect, okay? Do what you want, just not right now. Please.. If you really do love me you’d listen..”

I scoffed, releasing her from my grip.

“This is fucking unbelievable,” I spat.

“Relax..” she said softly, grabbing my hand. “Stay calm for me.”

I felt her squeeze my hand and, by instinct, I squeezed back.

“We’ll deal with this soon enough, okay?” she tugged on my hand.

A scowl formed across my face.

“Okay, Justin?”

I grazed my thumb against hers before murmuring an unconvinced, “Fine.”

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If I said shit got real, I’d be lying. There’s still some fake shit left that’ll get real soon enough ;)

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- Nina xx