Eliza didn't know what to do anymore, everything all just felt like a big jumble of as she was currently calling it: 'bleh'. Alexander and Angelica were happy together, and they would work out so much better than and Alexander. Not that there ever really was a her and Alexander, things were better this way. She could feel it the tightly wound knot her stomach which she'd convinced herself was from happiness for her two of her favorite people.

Though no matter how much she tried to convince herself right now that everything was great and she was super happy, she still wasn't able to get herself to sleep. No matter what she did. She sat up with a groan, 'why can't I just sleep?' She thought in annoyance. All she could do was think about Angelica and Alexander and a stupid article where she was called 'and friend'. She realized she should be more upset with what they were saying about her friend, but, that's what was sticking in her mind.

Eliza soon decided trying to sleep wasn't going to get her anywhere, she pushed herself off her bed. She pulled her robe over her body, tying securely before leaving her room. Deciding on a location that wouldn't disturb the sleeping people was fairly hard for her, all of the places she would usually go were too close to bedrooms and she didn't want to run the risk of waking anyone. That's when she remembered the kitchen was on the bottom level and nowhere near where anyone was sleeping, so that's where she would go. She wasn't exactly hungry but she remembered seeing Swiss Miss instant hot cocoa earlier and she was very excited about a chance to have some. The chocolaty treat was something she didn't have very often, in fact the last time she had it she was in high school, so she was definitely excited and pleased to have something to distract her.

Eliza, however, didn't know what waited for her in the kitchen. Alexander was sitting at the counter, confused and feeling slightly achy, he had no clue how he'd gotten here. When he met Eliza, he had this feeling in his gut that she was someone different, someone that could change his life. Though this isn't what he had in mind, she had in fact changed his life. For starters she broke his heart, no, no that would imply that he cared for as more than just a friend, and he didn't, right? But he did, he wanted so much more with her, yet somehow he found himself starting to date Angelica. He liked her, she was fun, funny and so strong minded, but, he felt wrong like he was leading her on. Maybe he should end things with her now so he doesn't hurt her later.

"Alexander?" Eliza questioned after entering the room, apparently she wasn't going to get a distraction, her problems will just be shoved in her face.

"Oh, hey there...." Alexander said in tone that could only be described as awkward as hell.

"What're you doing here?"

"Eating cake." He said holding up his cake for a moment so she could see.

"Ah, well... I just g-"

"No- wait." He said as quickly as he could. "I just- we were friends and then all of a sudden you barely talk to me."

"You're hanging out with Angelica, I don't want to bother you guys." She replied, earning her an eye roll from Alexander.

"Oh come on, you know that we'd- I'd love to hang out with you."

"Yeah, well."

"Well you just don't like me anymore, I guess that's how it goes." He said with a shrug.

"Oh come on Alex you know that's not true." She said, standing still in her spot.

"Then why do you keep ignoring me? You got tired of me, I understand." He said faking a sigh. "I'm just some bastard, orphan, I'm no good."

"Alex, I swear to god-"

"Don't worry, you got tired of being my friend..." he said with a shrug.

"I am not tired of being your friend..." She told him. "You're tiring me right now..." she mumbled.

"Then why do you not talk to me anymore?" He asked and she shrugged.

"I don't know, it's just..." her voice trailed off as she noticed how close they'd gotten and she no idea how it had happened, but, now she noticed it she couldn't unnoticed it.

"Just what..?" Alexander asked.

"I don't wanna mess anything up with you and Angie..." she whispered softly.

"How would you mess things up? That doesn't even make sense."

"Because..." she paused not sure what to say to explain what she felt. "I, I know this sounds bad I don't like seeing you with her..."

"You set us up Eliza, why-"

"Because Angelica always gives up what she wants for me cause she's my big sister... she deserves something..."

"Eliza I'm just something to be handed around, I'm a human being."

"But you like her, you flirted with her.. I mean you made out the first night you met."

"I like her as person, but, Eliza I love you."

The words came out of his mouth before he could stop himself. Eliza was so shocked, he loves her? Everything in her brain seemed to be fuzzy and confused, and just like that her lips were on his.

"Oh-I- I am so sorry.." Eliza said once she pulled away.

"Why would you..?"

"I know, you're with Angelica that was so stupid of me."

"No, why would you break up with me if you still like me?" He asked. "I didn't want us to end, obviously neither did you."

"What to end, us sneaking around to fuck? We weren't a couple, but you and Angie are abs you make her happy.. even if you break up with her, we can't be anything more than friends..."

"But I love you..."

"I know..." she whispered. "I'm sorry..." she added kissing his cheek.

His arms wrapped around her in attempt to hide the fact he was now crying. He buries his face in her hair, taking in her scent, she always smelt of lavender and tea and it always seemed to calm him somehow.

"Alexander?" Eliza asked softly. "Are you crying?"

"No, no, why would I be crying?" He asked, sniffing soon after.

"I don't know... but," she paused pulling away a from the hug. "You are.." she whispered, bitting her lip when she saw his puffy eyes and tear stained face.

"I just... I miss you."

"I'm right here..." she whispered softly.

"You know what I mean..." he said looking down. "Plus I'm gonna have to break up with Angelica.."

"What? Why, I thought... I thought if, maybe you'd..."

"I'm not staying with her just because I can't be with you..."

"But Alex."

"Eliza, I would end up hurting her more if I just stay with her because she wants to.. I'm not going lead her on.." he explained and Eliza nodded, she couldn't argue with him, he was right.

"Okay.. could you just wait until Peggy gets here so when it does end... she has more support, it'll only be about a week..."

Alexander sighed softly. "Yeah, Okay I can do that."

"Thank you Alex..." she whispered, kissing his cheek.

"Anything for you..." he mumbled, but, Eliza didn't seem to hear him.

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Sooooo drama...

Don't worry though things will get better, not right away, but, it'll happen.

Have a wonderful morning/afternoon/evening!

~ Eliiizzaaa