hello wattpad...

i'm pissed off...seriously pissed off.

so, my parents just told me that we're going to hawaii for spring break this year.

yay.

awesome.

so, naturally, i text my girlfriend to tell her the exciting news (because she lives in hawaii)

and turns out

we're not on the same island.

see...things like this piss me the fuck off

for example ;

i get an amazing girlfriend like mil, who is beautiful and smart and kind and just...gets me, ya know? but it's already kinda tough for us because we're over 2,600 miles apart (yes i googled that gold star for me)

but then there's this one window of opportunity

this one glimmer of hope for us to see each other...for us to hug and kiss and cuddle and express our love for each other.

but noooooooo

everything just HAS to happen on to different islands

why?

because the universe fucking hates me.

idk what i did to deserve this

i can't think of anything that i've done that would justify this level of torment

but whatever

so you know what, universe? i've got a little message for you;

from now on, each time you think you're dicking me over, you're actually not. you're simply motivating me to throw that crap back in your face and say 'fuck you'. 

you want to keep giving me a false sense of security with friends, then rip them away once i trust them with my feelings?

fine. you do that.

but then, in return, i'm going to go find better friends. friends who will actually look after me, and won't try ruin my life, and/or reputation.

you want me to cry myself to sleep at night, always feeling that i'm never good enough for anyone?

okay, sure.

but i will then try to be the best version of myself that i could possibly be.

you want me to constantly worry about my appearance, starving myself to the point where i pass out, just so i could lose a few pounds?

sure.

i will eat what i want, and wear what i want. because if people can't accept me for who i am, how i look, and how i act, then that's okay. but i will not be wasting my time with them.

and finally, you want to prevent me from seeing my girlfriend?

thats great.

but just know that every time you push the two of us apart, i'm going try twice as hard to try and see her.

so...yeah.

fuck you.

~ skye ♡
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i'm so sorry for making you go through all of that agh please love me

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4 august, 2017