//y/n's pov//

Now that all the "exciting" shit is all over, I can finally relax and go out to hang with Jon and Susin. Susin is on brake from her job she works at. I'm gonna ask her if she wants to hang out today with me and Jon. Then when Jon goes home me and Susin are gonna get drunk as hell. I've got this day all planed. I'm just gonna let go of tom now since he OBVIOUSLY doesn't want to hang out with me anymore. I don't know whats up with him still. He doesn't want to talk to me, he doesn't want to look at me and even be in the same house as ME! rude but I don't care. He can stay home and I can go out. My turn to leave and to have fun drinking. Even though I hadn't done it since that night with Matt, I'm gonna try it out once more.

//time skip brought to you by yey money!//

I was all set to go and I already texted Susin to met me and Jon at the park. I then got out of my room and headed straight to the bathroom to take one look at myself. Of course, everyday, classic F/c hoodie and black jeans. I brushed my H/l H/c hair a bit and looked at myself again.

Did that night mean so little to him...?

Whoa! What the hell? Why did I suddenly think of that? K never mind! This day is going to be the best! Nothing can ruin it...right...?

I then walk out the bathroom and made my way downstairs. Then Edd and the rest of the boys came into view. "Hey guys! I'm going out for a bit, I'll be back soon." I announced. They all looked at me. Tom looked away and continued "reading" his book and Tord was also reading a book that I will not speak of and Matt is looking at himself and edd watching TV while drinking cola along with Ringo on his lap sleeping.

"Have fun Y/n!" Matt shouted.

"Thanks! I'll be back"

//time skip again to the park with Jon//

We were sitting on the bench just talking and waiting for Susin to arrive. We were talking about random topics and so. "I'm just saying! You shouldn't let that ass pick on you! Your not a child" I said. We were talking about edoardo and how he's always mean.

"I-I know! But when ever I try to talk to him he alway ignores me or just hits me on the back of the head. He never lets me talk.." Jon said.

"You don't have to talk to him, you could alway bet his a-" I was interrupted by Susin yelling out.

"Hey guys! Sorry I'm late...I had to talk to my boss for a bit about business and some other boring things" Susin said while walking towards us.

"Hello Susin!" Jon cheerful said.

"Hi Jon! Hi Y/n" she says.

Okay time to start the day!

//time skip at the bar//

Today was fun! We just talked about a lot of random things and told jokes. We even got something to eat. But now it's time to relax and enjoy a drink but I wish Jon was here too but apparently he doesn't drink. That sweet angel!

It's just me and Susin here just talking about some other random stuff. Until Susin Spock. "Ya know you should have brought your boyfriend here as well, he seems chill." Said Susin while taking another drink. She obviously doesn't know what's going on between us now.

"I..." I paused "I don't actually talk with him anymore..." I say, with a little bit a sadness in my voice. I tilted my head down a bit while signing and taking a small sip.

"Oh, mind me asking what happened?" She asked. I guess it's time to explain.

//time skip after explaining cuz I'm bored and need to get to the good part//

"And he just never talked to me since..." I took anther drink. "But hey! It's not a big deal, my friend Matt has been helping me throw it"

"Dang...that's just plain rude! If I were you I'd just move the fuck I out!" She said, nearly shouting. I could tell she was a bit drank now. After telling Susin my story I began to think about Tom again. Ugh, of course I would think of him on the day I hangout with my friend....stupid tom making me feel emotions... I took anther drink, only realizing I ran out so asked for anther one. (Susin said she'd pay anyway)

Soon it was drink after drink and more drunk the second. I only did it just to get the thought of tom away. It didn't work...maybe because I was drinking smiroff the whole time. Dammit....

As expected, we got kicked out...

First it was all laughs, jokes and stupid faces and now darkness caved in.

//third person pov//

This was before you ran away.
It was that time of day where school was over your friends were ready to walk home together. They all walked together while walking home as well. You lived a little further ahead so you had to walk alone for a while. It was just cracking jokes or gossiping about an unimportant topic, But at this time they were cracking jokes.  Edd with his hair over his eyes and Matt looking smart as ever, more happier tom with his braces, Tord with his black over cot and dark brown hair and finally Y/n with her one eye covered by her hair. They're awkward lives as fifteen year olds. They all parted one by one making it to their homes. Tord went home first then Edd, Matt and then Tom. Oh how you wished you didn't have to go home. You continued to walk home and you finally made it. You were outside your home wondering- "I wonder where mr. Camber is...?" Mr. Camber was your neighbor. He would usually be outside working on his garden, but now he's not here. You and him would talk for a while and he would give you a stick of gum. Watermelon. You now decided to walk inside the hell whole you called "home"
You wonder for a while of what your father would say to you but if you were lucky he would call you a disappointment and call you a sorry excuse for a solder and send you to your room. You entered you house. You were now wondering. "Why is it so quite?" It was now weird. Usually your father would be sitting on the couch with TV and your mom would ask you how your day was going, but no, no one was to be seen, until...you heard footsteps...heavy footsteps... Your father then came into view. "Ah, Y/n your here. Come with me" your father demanded and walked away. You soon followed, dropping you backpack on the floor. You followed behind him and he stopped you mid way. He kneeled to your eye level. You kept a straight face and tried not to panic. Which you were, on the inside. You just to kept a straight face or he would hurt again for being scared. " Y/n, your fifteen now and it's time that I had to bring this on you" he said with a calm voice. 'What's going on?!' You panicked but didn't show it. "When you go to war, you have to be prepared for the unexpected, such as death..." 'Oh god is he gonna kill me?! I'm to young! Holy shit!! What do I do?! Do I run or-' the thought was literally slapped out of your head. "I can see the fear in eye solder.." He hissed. He then got back up walked. We came across the basement. 'He is gonna kill me...' "Go first" was all he said. You were hesitant but did as told. You went down scared for you life. He came down as well. It was dark and dusty. 'I don't wanna die...' "Turn on the lights" he demanded. You searched for the light switch and found it. You turned it on and what you seen shocked you. It was your neighbor mr. Camber strapped down to a table. He was mumbling with fear. "This is what will happen if you don't follow rules Y/n, you get punched" you were to scared to say anything. "Y/n..," he Spock. "This is just so you could larne how to do it without hesitation" you looked at your father confused but fear filling you face the most. "Y/n, I want you to kill him"

Nothing but darkness was there...

"One for being scared."

"Two for hesitation."

"Three for crying."

"Fore for shouting."

"Five for still crying...."

"Go to your room and clean up...you look disgusting"

And with that, you were left in the dark. Alone. The sound of dripping was only to be heard. You were so lost, wondering what happened. All you could process is- 'I'm on my knees....I'm holding a knife...with blood. It's ether my blood or...' I looked down at my arms. Five deep cuts on my arms. You couldn't tell who's blood was on your hands now. Tears went down your face, as if some one was just spilling water on you. You got up and headed to your room still not saying a word. You were in you room and looking in you desk drawer. There was the small tube of makeup. It was your expect same skin color. You've always used this to coverup the scars your dad leaves on your arm. You only just realized your five yet deep cuts were to fresh to put makeup on so you just decide to take a shower.

//back to your pov and not in a scary ass dream//

My eyes were closed. It still felt like I was taking a shower but I could only feel it on my face. My head hurts so much. I can't tell if it's because of the dream or me drinking. I opened my eyes. I realized I'm crying. My vision is blurry due to the fact I'm crying and also there's a bright light shining on my face. I then tried to get used to the light. As my eyes adjust to it, I realized I'm outside. I'm sitting on a bench in the park. I whip away my tears and pull out my phone from my pocket. Unsurprisingly, I get a lot of texts from Edd, Tord and Matt.

None from tom....

Most on the texts are from Matt but I don't feel like reading....23 texts! The hell??? Is Matt that worried??? Six texts from Tord and ten tracts from Edd. I don't think I wanna deal with them right now.

...I'm gonna call tom....

//toms pov//

The sound of my ringing awoken me. I make a loud grown and pick up my phone and not even looking at it. I answered. "Hello?" I mutter out.

//tom...?//

"Y/n...? Hey....it's like....6:45am! Where are you?" I asked. That's when I hear a small faint sniffle on the other side. " Y/n?....are you...are you okay?" I asked, with worry dripping off my voice. I was still thinking whether or not I should keep talking to her. She told me to stop talking to her after all...

//tom...can you come pick me up please? I'm at the park...// She asked, Sounding weak. Her voice cracked while talking and along with other faint sniffles.

"Hold on, I'm coming.."

A/n

Holy shit I've been gone to long that I actually grow a beard :0 not really but hey I'm finish!! Hopes you enjoyed That long ass chapter!

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Literally nothing else to say...

Have a grate day!

Love - Fan_girl76~