Eren's POV

This couldn't be, could it?

Levi wasn't cheating on me, was he?

Then why the fuck was he there together with that woman?!

My lips began to tremble as utter shock, pure frustration and confusion flowed through my body. I didn't want to believe that Levi was really meeting another person -and on top of that it was even a woman!- but what I saw in front of my eyes was telling obvious things.

Both, anger and sadness welled up inside me as I slowly shook my head, making tiny steps backwards. It was now that Levi spotted me, too, he looked at me straight in the face, but when he did so, his facial expression didn't change. Not in the slightest. His bored, stoic expression remained on his face as we were both just staring at each other, me being motionless by now, having disappointment written all over my face.
Levi didn't move as well, he didn't make efforts to walk away nor did walk to me as that red-haired girl still talked to him, even though Levi didn't pay attention to her, but it seemed that she didn't mind that.

I still didn't take my eyes off of Levi and neither did Levi. I wanted him to move over where I was! I wanted him to explain himself! I wanted to hear what he would say! Why he would be with that girl! I wanted to know... but at the same time, I didn't want to because I was scared of what his answer would be. I didn't want to hear from his why he was cheating on me!

So that was why I then decided to run; to run away. The last thing that I had noticed from the corner of my eyes was that the raven still remained at his spot, not bothering to follow after me.

I see...

That's how it was...

Levi didn't care about me at all.

I accelerated my pace as I was walking through the crowd of people, bumping into some and even shoving other out of my way. I didn't care. I didn't care at all if I was hurting people now, all I wanted was to be somewhere where I would be alone. The only place that came to my mind was of course my home; my room.

Tears threatened to come out of my eyes as I made my way to my living place, I blinked several times to clear my view, running like mad as I was attempting to suppress that thought of Levi and that woman hugging him and he wrapping an arm around her waist.

This couldn't be. This couldn't be. This couldn't be! Why was that happening?!

Having arrived my apartment by now, I rushed the stairs up, unlocked the door with shaky hands and entered my home as fast as possible as I hastened to my room then. When I entered it, I closed the door loudly and leant my body against it, panting hard as I slowly glid the door down. As I did so, I started to cry out loud, letting all the tears spill out, flooding down my cheeks. I let out a loud cry as I grapped my head firmly, shaking it heavily and hitting it hard against the door then. My tears piled up, my sight was blurry as I crawled over to my bed, sobbing and choking.

It hurt. It hurt so damn much seeing and realizing that I was betrayed by him. The whole day I had tried to convince myself that Levi wouldn't be like that, but in the end my worries and fears were true. The sorrow and pain overtaking my body right now were unbelievable excruciating, I rolled my body to a ball and cried into my knees as my body shivered from my sobs.

Why? Why was Levi doing that to me? Did I deserve that? What did I do wrong that Levi would decide to cheat on me?!

I knew that he didn't love me and even if we were only sex buddies, he couldn't do something like that! H-He... He couldn't play with my feelings like that... but he did. I was nothing to him...

I bet in his eyes I was a pathetic human being. A dumb guy who had feelings for someone like Levi and who had the expectations that some day the raven would feel the same.

I was indeed pathetic. A useless, immature man who fell for the wrong guy.

Levi didn't want me. He never wanted me. To him I was really just like a sex toy. Fuck that toy and don't show any emotions. Toys didn't need them because they were just objects.

It took me more than an hour until I had calmed myself down. I wasn't crying anymore, just sniffing here and then. I slowly sat up, resting my back on the headboard as I looked straightforward at no specific spot. There were some dried tears on my cheeks, but I didn't feel sadness anymore. I was staring emotionlessly at the wall now, my head cocked to the side a bit.

My mind was restless and a mess, but there was one certain thought pestering me the most...

If Levi could do something forbidden, than I could do it as well.

Two things. Levi and I had agreed to two things when we had started our fuck buddy relationship.

1. Don't sleep with another person besides your fuck buddy.

2. Don't touch yourself in order to satisfy yourself.

One hand of mine reached to the rim of my pants, laying on the zipper. My fingers slowly unzipped the zipper, revealing a part of my boxers. I gulped hard. Of course I knew that what I was about to do wasn't as worse as what Levi did, but better anything than nothing.

Proofing myself that I wasn't weak and pathetic, right?

After I had thrown my last resistances off which had invaded my mind slyly, I eventually tugged my boxers down, revealing my cock. Cold air hit my exposed skin as I looked down, my final debates on whether doing it or not dying off. I then grasped my dick hesitantly, shivering at the sense of touching myself. God, when was the last time that I had done that? It was too long ago and doing it now after all those years felt really strange.

Nevertheless, I pulled myself together and continued by wrapping my hand around my member fully, now starting to pump it at an agonizingly slow pace since I had to become familiar with that feeling first. It indeed felt differently when doing it yourself than when Levi did it to me. Seconds after seconds I then noticed that my body gradually got aroused as my dick started to swell, blood starting to accumulate in my lower area.

I fastened the pace around my length, feeling better now as I my breath went heavier. I put my thumb on my slit, swirling it around as pre-cum leaked out, coating my thumb. I continued with my circling motions for a while, low moans escaping from my mouth, before I rubbed my length down, the rubs being more smooth by now because of my cummed fingers.

It felt so good, I didn't want to stop. I panted hard as lewd groans escaped from my mouth, my hips bucking up in synch with my hand movements. My dick felt almost rock-hard by now and the pleasurable feeling inside me was risen when I pumped my cock very fast now, letting out sounds of lust and closing my eyes firmly.

Tears hit me when I had remembered again why I was even doing all this, making me sob and cry, my pumps going slower.

"L-Levi..." I spoke in a cracked voice, my head falling down on my chest as I pleasured myself only barely at the moment.

"Levi..." I said again, but this time I swallowed hard as I was trying to gain my courage again, pumping my dick a bit faster now, my eyes still shut.

"Levi." my tears didn't disappear, but I didn't care about that, so I just started to simultaneously gasp and moan, crying as I occasionally called out for Levi.

"Levi!" I exclaimed, feeling close to the edge.

"What?" I heard another person snap harshly as they grapped the wrist of my hand which was wrapped around my member, pulling it up.

Being totally surprised, confused and startled by that, I dashed my eyes open and milliseconds after, my teal orbs met with a pair of cold, steel-grey eyes.

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Everyone: Why is Eren masturbating?

Author: *sweats* Um... *grabs Ereri porn and runs away*