When Michael & I got back to 'the house', he grinned when he parked the car. I opened my door and got out. We didn't speak the whole ride there. I guess Michael was too busy thinking about a way to outsmart me or about court.. Whatever the case, he was scheming. I went upstairs and stripped. I got into the shower and began to wash my hair. I heard the door close to the shower door and I wiped my eyes dry. Michael stood there grinning at me and I crossed my arms in a daring position.

Michael: What are you covering yourself for? There's nothing on you that I haven't seen already.

Suesie: But I don't want you to see me this way.

Michael shrugged.

Michael: Too late.. And I must say that you are look very sexy Suzanne.

He said changing his voice.

Suesie: Don't.. Don't do that..

I said shaking my head. Michael came closer and I put my hand on his chest.

Suesie: What the fuck is wrong with you? I said get out!

Michael: You better stop cussing number one.. Two.. No you didn't, you just told me to stop doing something. What do you want me to stop doing?

'Little bitch..' I thought. I stood there looking to the side and Michael kissed me on my cheek.

Suesie: I ain't gotta listen to you, You gotta listen to me! I make the rules 'round here, alright? I ain't gon' do shit that you say until I feel like it! Alright!

I said, letting my New Yorker accent kick in. Michael sucked in his cheeks and raised his eyebrow.

Michael: Mm.. You see, that's where you go wrong.. You never said how often I have to obey you..

'Think quick Sue!' I thought.

Suesie: Yes I did.

Michael: When?

Michael said taking a daring position.

Suesie: I said you have to obey EVERYTHING I say. And you have to do ANYTHING I say.

Michael put his hand on his chin and blinked.

Michael: But you also never said that I could rebel and do what I want.

Suesie: Hello? Did you not hear me? What I just said covers everything..

I said as I snapped my fingers in his face. Michael looked me over and then shook his head.

Michael: It doesn't cover your body, now does it?

There are two ways to answer that question.. There are two right answers and two wrong answers.. How the hell am I going to figure this out?

Suesie: Not like it's clothes but if I say 'Don't touch me.', then yes.

Michael: Well played.. Well, what do you want me to do?

Suesie: Get out.

I said pointing to the door.

Michael: After you wash my back.

I glared at Michael and rolled my eyes. Michael turned and I washed his back. Michael got out after he was done and I got out after a while. I left my hair damp so that I could put curlers in it and then slipped on my red night wear. This was the first time that I would wear pants to bed. I looked around and saw Michael nowhere in sight. I shrugged and went to our wooden desk. I sat down and pulled out my little book that Michael never knew about.. It's full of poems from my childhood and up to now. All very descriptive but also very private. I began to write and I didn't notice when Michael came back in..

You said you loved me,
But what can I believe?
You said you're sorry,
But you don't realize that you're apart of me.
Why now, must you hurt me?
If you were to marry,
Why, my heart, would you bury?
You're so uncaring..
Very daring..
Why do I love you so?
I'm just a fool..
a fool.. A fool in love.

I began to write another one and this one was absolutely wonderful.

You're a lover..
My lover..
High School lovers..
Undercover lover..
You're a criminal.
No right did I give for you to steal..
Steal my heart away.
My days were bright,
But now they're dark.
You're a criminal,
But a smooth one..
You're my Smooth Criminal.

Michael: What are you writing?

Michael said hovering over me. I quickly closed the book and held it tightly to my chest. I was turning red and I could feel it. Michael started to smile and pinched my cheek which caused me to turn redder as I looked away.

Suesie: Nothing of your concern.

Michael: You're blushing..

He said gushing over the fact.

Suesie: So?

Michael: You look so adorable sweetheart!

Michael said pinching my cheek.

Suesie: Stop it!

Michael: I Love it when you blush.

Michael said letting his hands rest on my shoulders and then travel down towards my hands later on. I stood up just to be pushed back down by Michael.

Michael: What's in the book?

Suesie: Michael, leave me alone.. It's late and I'm tired.

Michael: Perfect for lovin'.. But I'm more concerned about that book.

Suesie: It's my book and its none of your business, now leave me alone!

Michael: No..

Michael said crossing his arms. I raised my eyebrow and stood up.

Suesie: I said end it.. That was an order.

Michael: I don't follow orders.

Suesie: I command you to shut up.

Michael: I don't take commands and I don't shut up.

Suesie: We had a deal..

Michael: I do any and everything, I know. But it wasn't a direct order.

Suesie: Michael, don't talk about this subject about my book anymore. Don't touch it, don't think of it, and don't even look at it.

Michael was looking and I flicked his nose.

Michael: I wasn't looking!

Suesie: What we're you looking at then?

Michael: You. You're very attractive to me and I can't stop looking at you.

I cleared my throat and looked away.

Suesie: Flattery will get you nowhere.

Michael: But my voice and touch will..

Michael said giving me that tone that I adore as he pulled me closer and inched closer to my neck.

Suesie: N-no it w-won't..

I stuttered at the feel of his breath on my neck.

Michael: Yes it will and it is..

Michael said just before a kiss that made me shiver. My eyes opened wide and I started to push on him but I had two problems.. One, the book was in my way. Two, Michael was stronger than me and I wasn't going anywhere anytime soon..

Suesie: Mike please..

I said weakly and Michael's grip got tighter.

Michael: You know something that I haven't done in a long time?

Suesie: L-let go of me..

Michael: No, that's not it.

Suesie: Don't.. Michael, stop!

Michael: Don't stop? Alright.

Michael went full on and my spine was turning into jelly with every kiss.

Suesie: T-that's an o-ord-der.. N-now s-stop!

Michael: You don't want me to take you to Neverland?

I shook my head.

Suesie: No..

I just barely said in a whisper. Michael quickly let me go and I began to gasp for air. I didn't notice that I didn't have my book until I heard pages flipping. I quickly turned around and I screamed. Too bad that Michael didn't hear me, I was so mad and sad that I had completely lost my voice. I didn't know what to do, so I tried to grab it from him and I failed. I sat on the floor of the closet somewhere outside of the bedroom and began to cry. I couldn't control it. Everything that I ever felt was all being exposed to Michael at this very second.

Michael: Sue? Where are you? I was just playing with you, I never looked at you things. I'm sorry.

Michael said on the other side of the door. He heard my sniffles and opened the door. I sat there hugging my knees as I cried. I couldn't do anything at this point. Michael gave me back my book and I threw it at him. Michael understood my anger and held me. I hit his chest and began to scream at him and all he did was take it.

Suesie: You jerk! Why would you hurt me? Why? Why can't you love me? Why can't you make me happy in my darkest hour? What's wrong with you? You are such a jerk! I big old jerk!

Michael: Do you love this jerk?

I began to cry harder.

Suesie: I hate it! I hate how much I Love You! I Love You more than anything and I hate it! Why can't I hate you? Why can't I betray you? Why can't I unlove you?

Michael: The same reason as I.. We are one soul and I Love You just as you Love me.

Suesie: Cheaters don't love! You're cold! You're a criminal! You hurt me worst than any other person! You invaded my privacy!

Michael: Can I still be the criminal of your heart and still be your lover?

I was quiet for a while and then I screamed the first words that came out of my mouth.

Suesie: Fuck you!

Michael quickly pinned me to the floor and hovered over me.

Michael: Suzanne, you are angry and I understand that I crossed a line. But your language is so inappropriate and I can't put up with it. I'm making you not cuss and if you don't cuss, I'll do what you say. I Love You Suzanne.. Nothing in this world will ever change that, not even you. Not Lisa, not my job, not my family, not your family, or even our fights. I want our baby to be happy and healthy when it comes. But I refuse to raise a baby in a household full of constant cussing and fighting. Okay?

Michael looked me into my eyes and I nodded as I let that sink in. Michael got closer to my face and got in kissing distance before he said something.

Michael: Forgive me?

I nodded and touched his cheek before he kissed me passionately. It was a kiss that signified us starting over again from the beginning and forgiving each other for everything. It was the type of kiss that took your breath away but yet you never wanted it to end and still it left your body aching for more but yet satisfied. My eyes had tears fall down and take away my hate. I cried away my hate that night and Michael? His sorrow will never be seen again.. Not even tomorrow.