I'm six months pregnant and I just found out that Christopher gets out today. Michael is trying to catch me down.. I just got a call from him yesterday saying that he'll see me soon. How in the hell can I calm down about that? But stress does hurt the baby.. I'm trying. I really am. Leona is a big help too.. She cuddles with me when Michael is at work, she reads me stories when it's her bedtime and she makes sure I stay in bed. I Love Her so much and I couldn't ask for a better daughter. Her first day of school, which was when she was four, was a big moment for me.

She got me up early in the morning and jumped on the bed. Michael wasn't there, he was at work already. Leona yelled happily at me to get up. I smiled at her and tackled her in kisses. I got dressed and lead her to the door. The bus came and I kissed her goodbye.. Gosh, she's growing up so fast. Too fast.. It seems like yesterday it was Michael's birthday and I held her little body for the first time. I can't believe my baby's already in the fist grade! She's matured so much in a few years.. Gosh..

But back to what I was saying.. She's such a big help. She does what she can and I'm starting to teach her how to cook. She's a good student. She made straight O's on her report card first quarter. O is for outstanding! She struggles in math a little though. But it's fine. Anyway! I'm proud of her, but I'm also scared for her.. Everyday she goes to school and I pray that nothing happens to her. I mean.. The danger was always there but the fact that they're after me makes me fear for her life. Lisa is threatening me and Chris just got out of jail today.. God why?

It would be smart of them to get to me by taking my only child.. My precious daughter from me. They'd have me big time. But I wouldn't care because that's my baby you have. I'd die for her if that's what it took. You can manipulate me, you can rape me, you can even kill me.. But nobody takes my baby from me. Nobody. She went on the bus and kissed me goodbye. I waved and watched the bus leave. I prayed right there and cried as I went into the house. I prayed that God would protect me and her. Especially her. I told her where the extra house key was and her daddy's number if I was missing one day when she came home. I was sitting at home and I began to talk to the baby.

Suesie: Hey baby. Are you doing okay in there? I.. I can't wait to see you and your big sister can't wait either.

I heard something move in the house.. Like something fell off a table or something. I got up as fast as I could and clutched the phone as I frantically failed LaToya's number.

LaToya: Hello?

I felt a presence behind me and the walls closing in on me.

Suesie: LaToya, come over.. Now. Right now!

She heard the fear in my voice and hung up. I heard a long beep on the other line. I dialed Rebbie's number and she  went straight to voicemail. I tried to leave a voicemail but then.. The line went dead. I turned around and I looked around frantically. I tried to control my breathing.

Suesie: Its just the phone company.. Surly Michael forgot to pay the bill.

The lights started to flicker a little and then they went out. I sank down to the floor and huddled in the corner. The tears started to fall down my face.

Suesie: The light bill wasn't paid. Dang it Michael, I really hope you forgot to pay it!

I heard footsteps and I covered my eyes. They bent down in front of me and I began to cry harder. They kissed me and tried to pick me up. I fought them and also since I was too heavy now, they groaned. This was not Michael.

Suesie: Where's Michael? Who are you? Where's my husband?

They leaned close to my ear and laughed lightly before answering.

Chris: I'm back baby.

I held my stomach prospectively as I began to pant uncontrollably and stand.

Suesie: Listen, don't hurt us. I swear, I'll give you whatever you want that has to do with me but don't mess with my family and don't kill me. Please.

His finger traced the side of my face.

Chris: Oh Suzanne.. You're too pretty to kill.. Yet. I Love You.

Suesie: What do you want from me?

Chris: Nothing better than the goddess herself.

Suesie: I'm no goddess.

Chris: Isn't it obvious? Sitting on a pedestal, married to an overly hardworking man and spreads her legs for two reasons. One, to give birth and two, to let the baby maker enter her little tight-.

I slipped him.

Chris: Tell me.. Would you like to make a baby with me?

Suesie: Never.

Chris: Well.. Not the right answer, but it's the answer I expected.. Well baby, let's go.

He said grabbing my arm. I snatched it back.

Suesie: I'm not going anywhere with you!

Chris: Okay. Then I'll just have to cut your pretty little face into a bloody mess..

He said in a sinister tone into my ear as he pushed me against the wall and choked me.

Chris: You agree to my terms? Good. Now let's go.

Suesie: You may as well kill me because I'd rather die than be with you.

Chris: Oh I see you haven't learned your lesson.. Well let me tell you something Princess.. I know all about you.

Suesie: You don't even know me.

He grinned.

Chris: Don't I?

Suddenly, I was very uneasy about what he was about to say next.

Chris: Think about it.. I've loved you since I was six years old.

Suesie: You didn't have a clue as to what I looked like.

Chris: Oh but my father did..

I paused.

Chris: And he knew your mother too.

Suesie: Fuck off.

He grabbed my arm and took off his glasses. The grip he had was hurting me. He stared at me intensely into my eyes.

Chris: You don't recognize me? Think back to Halloween. When you were at least four or five.. My father hollering at your mother. You came to the car and began speaking to the quiet boy in the car.

Suesie: It was you..

Chris: Didn't your mother ever teach you not to talk to strangers?

Suesie: Don't you dare speak about my mother like that!

Chris: Don't yell at me!

His grip tightened and I moaned before he loosened his grip.

Suesie: You father was a drunk and a drug addict.

Chris: It was because of your mother! She caused all his pain!

Suesie: One break up won't do all that damage!

Chris: It will if you have a child!

Suesie: The fuck are you talking about?

He grinned once more and then the door began to move. He quickly dragged me to a room and put tape over my mouth.

Chris: You say a word or move at all, I'll personally kill you. Pretty or not. I'll mess you up with a flick of my wrist.

LaToya looked around the house for me and I wanted to scream for her but what can you do when there's a blade to your throat? Since the house was dark, he slowly pulled me out of the room when she went upstairs. He dragged me to his car and drove off. LaToya heard the car speed off and raced downstairs. She almost made it out the house in time but he was already gone by then. LaToya looked outside and raced back home. She called Michael and Michael rushed to her house. Meanwhile, I was stick in the car with the maniac. My hands were tied behind my back and he just kept looking at me.

Chris: What's on your mind baby? You have a voice don't you? Why don't you use it? Oh that's right, you have tape on your mouth!

He said, quoting what I said to him years ago on one Halloween night.. I was only four and a half!

Chris: When we get there.. To our destination, I have a surprise for you.

I kicked him and he pushed me down onto the seat.

Chris: Seems like I have to give it to you now.

He said, unbuckling his belt to his pants. I started screaming and shaking my head.

Chris: No? No what?

He had his hands on my knees and were about to open them but then he looked into my eyes.

Chris: Promise to be good?

I nodded frantically and sat still with my heart beating fast. He leaned over and kissed my cheek.

Chris: That's a good girl. Driver, pick up the speed.

The driver looked back and they looked very familiar. We arrived at a dark place in the middle of nowhere and he took me to a dark room. He locked us in there and sat down on a bed after ripping off the tape from my mouth.

Suesie: You're sick.

Chris: Really? Because I'm not the coughing.

Suesie: Smart ass.

Chris: And you, my dear, have a sweet ass.. Nice and big. Round and luscious.

He said as he tried to touch me. I move back.

Suesie: Don't touch me.

Chris: Oh come on baby, don't be like that. Behave.

He said as he tried to touch me again but I moved to the side.

Suesie: I said don't touch me!

Chris: Listen, Princess. I believe I haven't finished my talk with you yet. What to know how your mother died?

I stopped and looked at him.

Suesie: She was shot! I told you when you helped me move into my dorm!

Chris: It was a test to see if it was really you. You passed.

Suesie: Answer me and answer me now. Who killed my mother?

Chris: That drunkard who loved your mother. The mother that broken my father's heart.

I sank down to the ground and began to cry.

Chris: She betrayed him. She took you away from him. Away from me..

Suesie: What are you talking about?

Chris: Have you seen yourself in the mirror lately?

Suesie: Every Single Day.

Chris: Then you haven't looked hard enough.

Suesie: What is there to see?

Chris: Lets go take a look.

He lead me to another room. We looked in the mirror together and at first I as nothing.

Suesie: I see nothing.

Chris: Oh really? Look harder.

He pointed to our noses.. Wait a minute.. Our eyes, our lips.. Oh my gosh!

Suesie: No, it can't be!

Chris: You see it!

Suesie: You're my b-b-.

Chris: B-b-b-brother? How smart of you to figure that out.

Suesie: You raped me!

Chris: No, I showed how much I love you.

Suesie: You're so sick!

Chris: I know it's wrong to love your sister but when you've never known her or even met her.. How could you know? Suzanne.. I love you.. I've never loved anyone else in my life.

Suesie: What about Helen? Or Lisa?

Chris: Helen cheated on me.. I caught her with Michael in the library. They were kissing.

I shook my head.

Suesie: That's not true.

Chris: Oh it's not? What about Lisa? I found him on top of her in the study room. Those small rooms where two people can study be themselves.. Alone..

Suesie: You're lying!

Chris: My darling Princess, I'd never lie to you. Rather me show you proof?

Suesie: If you can find proof, then I just might believe you.

Chris: Fine. Here.

He gave me love letters and pictures of them together. It can't be true.. This isn't even Michael's handwriting!

Suesie: This is not his handwriting.

Chris: Come with me.

He dragged me back to the room and pushed me onto the bed.

Chris: Stay there until I get back.

He returned with nothing but himself. Shirtless and with his shades on. He locked the door behind him and looked at me as he sat down in a chair near the bed. He unbuckled his pants and pulled them down. Then he reached into his boxers, I had turned away from him by then.

Chris: Look at me Suzanne. Do you not want me? Do you not want this instead of Michael's?

Suesie: You're a sick bastard and I'd never have sex with you!

Chris: Then you'll just have to watch and listen.

Suesie: I won't watch you.

Chris: If I cut you up, you would and if I sat on your stomach.

I looked down at my stomach and rubbed it. I was this baby to survive more than anything. I cringed but turned around..

Chris: Good girl.. Now I just need you to look at me. Look at me! LOOK AT ME DAMMIT!

I hesitantly looked at him and I hated what I saw.. Better yet, who. Michael couldn't come fast enough.. I thought he was going to rape me again like last time. Instead he made me watch him moan and groan.. He did this to me everyday for about a week or so. Meanwhile, Michael was going crazy at LaToya's.

LaToya: I don't know what happened! She called me, scared, and then when I came, the house was dark, the phone wasn't working and there was no sign of her until I heard a car racing away from the house and by the time I got outside, there was no trace of anything.

Michael: I know what to do. Take care of Leona for me, I'm going back.

LaToya: Back? Back where?

Michael: To my house.

Michael went and searched the house, inside and out. He found where Chris had cut the light off and saw how he messed up everything having to do with electricity. The box was messed up. From the buttons, to the cords. Everything was destroyed.

Michael: I'll kill him! I swear! I'll find you Suzanne! And when I do, I'll kill him!

Lisa: Kill who baby?

Michael: You.. How did you get in here?

Lisa: You left the door wide open.

Michael: No I didn't..

Lisa: Yes, you did.

Michael crossed his arms.

Michael: Which door did I not close?

Lisa: The one I closed.

Michael: What part of the house did you come from?

Lisa: The back.

Michael: Ha! I came from the front!

Michael raced downstairs and into the backyard. Tire tracks. He's been here..

Michael: Ugh! I'M GONNA KILL YOU!

Michael shouted. Lisa came up from behind him and touch his shoulder.

Lisa: Michael.. It's okay, calm down. You want to sit down and talk about it?

Michael gave her a look and then rolled his eyes.

Lisa: Michael come on, talk to me.

Michael: To you? The woman who almost ruined my marriage? I don't think so.

Lisa: I can help you.

Michael: What the hell do you know?

Lisa: I can help you find what you're looking for.

Michael: What?

Lisa: Better yet, who.

Michael: How did you know-?

Lisa: Michael, I know you. Suzanne always disappears this time of year. I think it's time you've settled this once and for all.

Michael: Where is she?

Lisa: Come on..You don't need her.. She's a waste of time.

Michael: She's the mother of my daughter and unborn child!

Lisa: I would've been too if she hadn't fucked everything up!

She cleared her throat and looked down.

Lisa: I'm sorry.. I should go.

Michael: What did you just say?

Lisa: Goodbye Michael.

Michael: Lisa get back here!

Lisa stopped because Michael had her by the arm and stood in front of her.

Michael: Tell me what I want to know. Now!

Lisa: She's somewhere in the middle of nowhere..

Michael: Speak! Tell me! Who is she with?

Lisa: I don't know!

She lied.

Michael: Don't lie to me! Tell me! Who is she with! Tell me everything!

Lisa: No! Let me go!

Michael: Tell me!

Lisa: Alright! Alright!

Michael let her go.

Lisa: I'll tell you..

Michael: Speak.