It was close to two in the morning when I arrived at the airport. I drove to LaToya's house and knocked on the door. LaToya opened the door and rubbed her eyes. She looked at me and her eyes widened.

LaToya: Suzanne?

Suesie: Yes.. I missed you. Next time, you're coming with me.

I said embracing her in a hug.

LaToya: I missed you too. How was it?

Suesie: Not long enough but I had to come back.

LaToya: Why?

Suesie: Court..

LaToya nodded.

LaToya: Oh, why aren't you going home?

Suesie: You mean to Michael's house? I can't stand cheaters..

LaToya shook her head.

LaToya: He really misses you Sue. He's gone crazy over you.

Suesie: How crazy?

LaToya gave me a look and I got the message. I wanted to say 'Oh my baby! I'm going home!' And run to him but instead, I shrugged and looked down.

Suesie: Oh well, at least I taught his ass a lesson.

LaToya: What is wrong with you?

Suesie: Nothing LaToya. Nothing at all.

LaToya: You say nothing is wrong, but I see it all over your face.

Suesie: What do you see?

LaToya: You miss him.

Suesie: I MOST CERTAINLY DO NOT!

I said crossing my arms and turning away from her.

LaToya: You can't lie to me. I see it.

Suesie: What do you know?

LaToya: Let me take you home.. Okay Sue?

Suesie: No.. I wanna stay here.

LaToya: But you need to go home.

Suesie: It is not my home, so stop calling it that!

It was silent between us for a while and then she grabbed my wrist. She lead me to her car and put me in the back seat. She got in and began to drive.

Suesie: Where are you taking me?

LaToya: Home. You're going home.

Suesie: Oh hell no.

I tried to get out of the car but as you can see, I was unable to..

LaToya: You can keep trying but as you can see, I put the child lock on.

I groaned and crossed my arms.

Suesie: Son of a bitch..

I mumbled.

LaToya: I Love You too.

We got there and my door was opened.

LaToya: You're free to go.

Suesie: No, you're throwing me into prison.

I looked around.

Suesie: I knew I should have went to Rebbie's..

LaToya: Well little sister, it's either the house or you're sleeping outside.

Suesie: I love nature anyway.

LaToya: Get your ass in that house.

She said crossing her arms. We had a silent stare down and then I sighed.

Suesie: Alright Mother.

I walked up to the door and looked back pleadingly. She gave me a stern look and I gave her a 'Pray for me!' look before I went in. I closed the door as quietly as I could before I tiptoed up the stairs.. The very messy house was covered with Michael's stuff. I looked down at the living room and saw everything laid out on the floor. 'Lord have mercy.' I thought as I shook my head. I slowly made my way into the bedroom where I heard heavy breathing and soft moans every so often.

I wanted to laugh but I needed to stay quiet. I saw him laying there and the blanket was up a little. I covered my mouth and went back downstairs to our patio. I let my laughs go free and I wiped my eyes before I went back in. I don't know what happened to me but I just felt so glad again, like I was back home. I thought about where I was going to sleep and then I thought 'Why not sleep outside?' It seemed like a good idea at the time, but when I remembered that it was almost winter..

Well, let's just say that I stayed inside the house. I walked to the guest room and locked the door behind me. I got undressed and climbed in bed. I was so tired.. But the funny thing was that I couldn't fall asleep. 'Why can't I sleep? I'm in a nice comfortable bed, I traveled a long way to get here, and I'm dog tired.' I thought about it and then I shook my head. 'No, I don't need him. I don't. I can sleep all by myself.' But of course, that was yet another lie to try and comfort myself. I laid back down and put my face into the pillow. I sighed.

Suesie: Oh Lord..

I don't know what happened but I fell asleep sooner than I thought. I dreamed about court and then Michael. I quickly shook him out of my head and dreamed about the baby. If it was a girl, I would dress her up in pretty clothes, I'd hold her, and sing to her. She'd be a mommy's girl just like I was. If it were a boy, I'd teach him how to dress and how to treat a girl. I'd hold him and sing to him too. I'd do a lot of things with my child.

I woke up and looked at the clock. 2:05 at night.. I saw the doorknob moving and then a knock on the door.

Michael: Suzanne, is that you?

Surely if I answer he will ask to come in but if I don't he'll let himself in. I sighed but answered.

Michael: Suzanne?

Suesie: What?

I said lowly but he still heard me.

Michael: Suzanne! I missed you so much baby, I Love You so much. I quit my job so that I wouldn't have to deal with Lisa ever again.

Suesie: Are you crazy?

I yelled.

Michael: No.. Well.. Maybe a little, but still. I've been looking for other jobs. I can work at the store or something, there's always work to be done somewhere.

Suesie: There's no use in trying to butter me up with your

smooth talking words because they don't work.

Michael: May I come in?

Suesie: If you can let yourself in because I'm not moving.

Michael didn't hesitate to start fiddling with the door and it wasn't long before it opened either. I sat there with my arms crossed as he made his way over to me. Michael laid down beside me and looked at me. It was silent between us for a while before I got irritated.

Suesie: What did you want?

Michael touched my face lightly and I moved my face away.

Michael: I-I want..

Michael sighed and shook his head. He got up and locked the door but I didn't know that he had locked it.

Suesie: Well?

Michael came back and sat beside me. He bit his bottom lip and looked down. Michael spoke softly and lowly in the voice that he knows I love.

Michael: I wanna love you.

Suesie: I thought you already did.

Michael shook his head.

Michael: No no..

Suesie: No?

Michael sighed and came close to my ear.

Michael: I wanna love you.

My stomach got a weird feeling and it felt like it was caving in.

Suesie: Like I said, I thought that you already did.

I stood up and walked backwards towards the door. I opened it and quickly walked to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and hovered over the toilet. I threw up every time I thought about what Michael said. It was a lot.. So now I laugh about this because I can say that Michael literally sickens me. Michael banged his head against the wall and sighed. Am I cruel to act like this? Am I cruel to treat him this way? Trust me, my body is aching for his touch but I can't let my desires win. I heard Michael groan and another bang. I started to feel bad. I cleaned myself up and walked out of the bathroom. I went back to the guest room and poked my head in. Michael had his head against the wall and had his eyes closed.

Suesie: Michael?

Michael instantly looked up at me and smiled.

Michael: Yes?

Suesie: Why were you hitting your head against the wall?

Michael sucked in his lips and looked down.

Michael: I was thinking..

Suesie: About?

Michael: It's personal..

Suesie: Alright.

I went to the bedroom and opened the door..

Suesie: What a mess..

Michael: Yeah. I guess you could say that I went a little on the crazy side.

Suesie: I can see that..

Michael looked fondly at me and touched my shoulder. I quickly turned around and backed away with an awkward grin on my face. Michael snapped out of his trance and chuckled nervously with his hand on the back of his neck as he backed away. I shut the door and went to the bathroom. I took a shower and wrapped a towel around myself. I stepped out and went to the guest room. I grabbed my stuff and began to get dressed. Michael came in when I had on my under garments and was putting on my shorts.

Michael: Wow..

Suesie: What?

Michael: Nothing..

Michael said looking away.

Suesie: Like what you see?

Michael: No.

Suesie: No?

I said standing up and crossing my arms.

Michael: I Love who I see.

Suesie: Nice one.

Michael: I mean it too.

Suesie: That's nice.

I said plainly. Michael came over to me and hugged me from my side.

Michael: You know I mean what I say right?

Suesie: Sure Mike.

I said blankly. Michael let go of me and closed the door. Once he locked the door, he came back and sat down on the bed right beside me.

Suesie: What do you want Michael?

Michael leaned in towards my ear and spoke with that voice I love.

Michael: I wanna love you.

I covered my mouth and swallowed what was going to come up if I didn't.

Suesie: Must you be so close?

Michael: I could get closer.

Michael said putting his hand on my hip.

Suesie: And you could also g-get out.

I said moving his hand away from me. Michael smiled devilishly and chuckled.

Suesie: What?

Michael: You're cute when you're nervous.

Suesie: And you're not so appealing when you're amorous.

Michael: I bet.

Michael said as he began to get close to my face. Every time he got closer to me, I lowered myself and then I had to start moving backwards.

Suesie: Why are you trying to get so close to me?

Michael: Why are you trying to get away from me?

Suesie: Because if you haven't noticed by now, I like my personal space.

I fell off the bed after the word 'Now' and saw Michael looking down at me with his sly smile. Michael climbed down and kept coming towards me until I couldn't go anywhere else. I was literally cornered because I was sitting in a corner and Michael was in front of me.

Michael: And I like it when you're in mine.

Suesie: But I don't.

Michael: Says the one who's carrying our child.

Suesie: I would do something but I know that you have something up your sleeve for every move that you know I'll try to make.

Michael: But I'm not wearing sleeves. I'm not even wearing a shirt.

Suesie: Take what you just said for example. You gave me a comeback to what I just said.

Michael smiled devilishly and chuckled lightly.

Michael: Oh sweetheart, you just don't know how utterly irresistible you are to me.

Suesie: Is that another pick up line?

Michael kissed my lips tenderly but I tried to push him away. He moved to my neck and shoulder and I fought off moaning.

Suesie: M-Michael, wait wait!

I said pushing him off of me.

Michael: What?

He said before continuing.

Suesie: We c-can't. N-not in here.

Michael: Why not here?

He mumbled against my neck.

Suesie: B-bec-cause this is the guest r-room.

I bit my lip hard and held my breath.

Michael: So?

Suesie: S-so.. We c-can't.. N-not h-here..

Michael looked at me with an annoyed but loving facial expression. The love was in his eyes and his annoyance was all over his face. I closed my eyes and let out the air that I was holding in. I opened my eyes to a very annoyed Michael.

Michael: Alright..

Suesie: You agree then?

Michael nodded.

Michael: It makes sense.

Suesie: Good.

I said laying back.

Michael: Where can we?

My eyes instantly flew open.

Suesie: Say what?

Michael: Where? You name the place, I show you how sorry I am.

Suesie: Michael, this really isn't necessary.

Michael: The bedroom?

Suesie: It's messy in there. Michael?

Michael: The living room?

Suesie: It's messy in there too. Michael?

Michael: The kitchen?

Suesie: No Mike! We eat there!

Michael: The laundry room?

Suesie: Michael no!

Michael: The hallway?

Suesie: Why are you naming such preposterous places?

Michael: Because I don't care where, I just want to do something new in a new place.

Suesie: But it's a crazy idea! Why on earth would you want to try the kitchen?

Michael: Like I said, I want to try something new with you.

Suesie: What if I said I don't want to?

Michael: Then I'd turn the tables on you.

I laughed.

Suesie: There's no way that you can make me w-want y-you.

I started stuttering because Michael started kissing my neck again.

Suesie: M-Mike.. S-stop.

Michael: Believe me now?

Suesie: Y-yes, j-just s-stop.

Michael sat back with a devilish grin.

Michael: The floor?

Suesie: Of what room?

Michael: Come with me.

Suesie: No..

Michael: Suzanne..

Suesie: I don't want to..

I said crossing my arms. Michael raised his eyebrows and nodded.

Michael: Alright.. Let's see how you like this..

Michael said as he pick me up.

Suesie: MICHAEL!

Michael played around like he was going to drop me and I got mad each time. Michael took me to a door and this time, he warned me first.

Michael: It's dark in here.

Suesie: How dark?

Michael didn't answer me, all he did was grin and walk in.

Suesie: Michael, put me down!

I'm scared as hell and all Michael is doing is increasing my fear.

Michael: I'm gonna put you down in a little bit.

Suesie: Why not now?

Michael: Because now has just became later.

Suesie: You are such an excresence, you know that?

Michael: Is that bad?

Suesie: Take a good guess..

Michael laid me down on what I'm guessing was the floor. Michael went away and then came back. I heard his every move.

Michael: Now, I'm going to say this again..

Suesie: And I know my answer.

Michael: I wanna make love to you.

Suesie: You didn't say that before.

Michael: All I did was add two words.

Suesie: But it made a difference.

Michael: May I do what I want?

Suesie: No..

Michael: Why not?

Suesie: Because I don't want you to.

Michael: I wanna love you.

Suesie: That you can do.

Michael: Alright..

Michael stayed silent for a while and I became aware.

Suesie: Michael? Why are you doing this to me again? Mi-ike..

I felt kisses on my neck and shoulder. His hand traveled down my arms and up them again.

Michael: I Love You baby.

Suesie: M-Michael wait.. Please.

Michael: Too late now, I'm just getting started.

Suesie: I-I can't d-do this.

Michael: Yes you can.

Suesie: N-no I can't..

Michael: Just trust me. I promise that I won't hurt you.

Suesie: Michael please..

Michael: I promise..

Michael held me close and continued to kiss me.

Suesie: My back is going to feel like shit.

Michael: Don't talk like that.

Suesie: It's true!

Michael: But you'll love what caused it.

Suesie: Mike no. We have court tomorrow and I want to be able to move. No.

Michael: But-.

Suesie: I said no and that's final!