I couldn't breathe. I couldn't breathe! How could Lisa keep this from him? How could he get her pregnant and not me? I don't understand this! Why God? Why me? Why don't you just kill me already? I already know that I have nothing to live for! Why torture me and make me live my horrible life? Blasphemy will get me nowhere and I shouldn't be doing it anyhow.. That's it! I need to pray more and go to church! Thank you Lord!

I'm cooking up an idea that'll make everything alright. I'm so messed up..

I arose early on Sunday and I picked out a church appropriate attire. I got dressed in a blue dress that covered everything on me, but it was still beautiful. I put on a white and blue hat and white heals, then I walked out of the room. Michael had sat up as I was putting on my lip stick in the bathroom and he stood there scratching his head.

Michael: Babe.. What are you doing up so early? Why are you all dressed up?.. You look good..

Suesie: I'm going to church today.

Michael's eyes widened and he became awake.. Fully awake.

Michael: W-What?

Suesie: You heard me. I'm going to church.

Michael smiled and then he held up one finger.

Michael: One second honey.

He went out into the hall and did a backflip as he yelled happily.

Suesie: Dang.. Do I really need Jesus that bad?

Michael came over to me and held me close from behind.

Michael: I Love You so much Suzanne. I'm so happy about your decision.

Alright.. I'll admit it. Michael has been trying to get me to go to church for the longest.. The only time I've ever stepped inside of a church was for a funeral.. And I've been to quite a few..

Suesie: Michael.. I can't get ready in time with you hugged all up on me! No offence baby..

Michael kissed my cheek.

Michael: None taken.. Not today.

Michael kissed my lips tenderly for a long time..

Suesie: You've never kissed me like that..

Michael: Mm.. Not since high school baby.

Michael said looking me up and down. Then he left.

Suesie: And where are you going?

Michael: To get dressed!

Suesie: For what?

Michael: I'm going to church!

I smiled and waited downstairs. Michael was wearing a blue and white suit when he came down those steps.

Suesie: You look handsome..

I said as I adjusted his suit jacket and put on his cuffs.

Michael: Thank you baby.. You look extraordinarily beautiful today.

Suesie: Don't I always?

I said a little hurt.

Michael: Baby.. You always look sexy.. But right now, I just wanna tear this Angel up! You look like an angel!

Suesie: Oh, stop it Mike..

Michael looked down at me and smiled.

Michael: I Love You so much.. You know that?

Suesie: Of course I do.

Michael: You know I Love You, but do you know how much I Love You?

Suesie: Yes..

Michael: No you don't..

Suesie: Michael, yes I do.

Michael: No you don't. You know why you don't know?

Suesie: Tell me.. Since I supposedly, 'Don't Know.'

Michael rubbed my shoulders.

Michael: Baby, calm down.. You don't know how much because I Love You more than you will ever know.

I wanted to cry, I don't know why.. And I did. I'm petty..

Suesie: Michael, that is the sweetest thing that you've ever said to me!

Michael: I've said it before.. And I mean it.. Don't cry baby..

Suesie: I.. I'm trying not to.. I don't know why I'm crying.

Michael smiled and kissed my tears away.

Michael: Are you better?

Suesie: Yes..

Michael: Good. Now let's go. Church starts at nine.

Suesie: Okay. I need it.

Michael ran to the garage and I laughed at his speed. I got in and we drove there faster than you could say Amen 25 times fast without getting tongue tied and/or running out of air..

Don't try that.. Just.. Don't..

Michael: I'm so glad that you're coming to church today.

Suesie: I need to.. I need God.. I need Jesus..

Michael smiled at took my hand.

Michael: Lets go.

Suesie: Lord help me..

Then we stepped through the church doors and into the sanctuary.. I'm sweating.. Michael looked at me at told me I'd be fine.

Michael: Baby, you're shaking.. Don't be afraid. We're in the house of God now, you're alright.

Suesie: I'm a sinner Michael.. Sinners don't go to church.. I change my mind..

I started crying silently and Michael had us sit down in the fourth pew. Michael wiped my tears away and rubbed my shoulder that was farthest from him.

Michael: It's okay Suzanne.. You'll be alright. Trust me.

Suesie: O-Okay..

I said sniffling. Why am I crying so much?

Michael: Lets pray together.

Suesie: I don't know how to pray..

I said embarrassed. Michael looked at me lovingly and smiled warmly.

Michael: I'll pray with you.

Suesie: Okay..

Michael: Heavenly Father, we come before you this day knowing that we are your children and that you love each and every one of us. We pray that you heal our souls and heal our hearts. For you know our struggles and our pain and you know what we need to do. Bring our hearts closer to you God and shut out the evilness in the world and within us. I pray that you use our bodies and minds as a way to represent you Lord. In Jesus name. Amen.

Suesie: Amen..

Michael sure can pray. They started off with praise and worship songs. They did I Love To Praise Him, Bless The Lord, Amazing Grace, and they did Blessed Thou Art The Lord. I felt like I was at home when the pastor came up and started preaching the sermon. He preached on forgiveness and love. One verse I'll always remember is Psalms 139:23-24 & 1 Corinthians 13:7-8

They are verses that stick close to my heart. In the end, Michael tried to get me to join the church and give my life to God. I felt something pulling me towards that altar.. So I went and got saved. It wasn't Michael who was pulling me towards that altar either.. No.. It was something more. Deeper.. More powerful.. I do but I don't understand it. If I'm making any sense.. When Church was over, I got a truck load of hugs and kisses from everybody in the church. I fell in love and for the first time ever.. I felt like I was loved and welcomed somewhere. Next Sunday.. I just might join this Church.

Michael grinned at me and held me close in an innocent manner. But we all know that Michael is far from innocent. Now, am I right, or am I right? There's really no choice here because we all know that I'm right about Michael. Look at me.. Now I'm grinning..

Michael: Did you have a good time at church today?

He crooned to me on our way out.

Suesie: Are you kidding? I absolutely love it here!

Michael smiled and held me from behind.

Michael: Good. That's nice to here something good from my Princess.

Suesie: Princess?

Michael: Yes.. You're my Beautiful Princess. By the way.. I have a question..

Suesie: Ask away!

Michael: If you don't mind.. What did you pray for up at the altar?

I gulped.. And I started crying. He started the engine and tried to calm me down.

Michael: Suzanne! Sweetheart, please don't cry. It's fine if you don't want to tell me.

Suesie: No.. It's not that..

Michael: What is it babe?

Suesie: I prayed that God would forgive me of my sins, that he'd let me have at least one child and to open up your mind..

Michael: My mind? To what?

Suesie: I prayed for Her..

Michael: For who? Baby please tell what you are talking about.

Suesie: Lisa's baby.. It's yours Michael.. I know it is.. Just go and take care of it.. It's obvious that I won't be able to have one..

Michael looked at me and his face turned red.. Tears streamed down. He covered his face.

Michael: I never wanted to hurt you.. I didn't want you to find out this way.. I never wanted any other this to happen.. I'm so sorry baby..

Suesie: It's your baby.. Take care of it. That's what you've always wanted.

Michael: With you! I only want that with you!

Suesie: Don't argue with me! Now you're going to call Lisa when we get home and apologize! You are going to invite her over!

Michael: What makes you think I will?

Suesie: If you don't, I will!

Michael sat back frustrated.

Michael: Okay..

Michael sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.

Suesie: Okay..?

Michael: I'll do it.. If it makes you happy, I'll do it.

Suesie: It doesn't exactly make me happy.. But it's the right thing to do.

Michael grinned at me.

Michael: Look at you.. Miss Righteous.

He teased.

Suesie: Um.. You're far from innocent as far as I know, so don't play..

I smiled.

Michael: uninnocent how?

Suesie: You know how..

Michael: Oh, you mean like this?

Michael tackled me and dragged me to the back seat.. Boy oh boy did we sin.. My hat was somewhere and my dress was up.. Michael was on me and we.. Like I said.. Sinned.

Suesie: Michael.. Michael.. Oh My Gosh.. Oh my gosh..

Michael: What?

Suesie: I.. Can't.. Believe that.. We just.. Did that..

Michael laughed and looked at me.

Michael: I'm sorry.. I couldn't hold.. Back.. I wanted.. You.

Suesie: In the.. Church parking.. lot? You're Crazy..

Michael: I'm.. Sorry.. Goodness.. I'm tired.. I'm ti.. I'm tired baby..

Suesie: We can't sleep.. Here too!

Michael: Alright.. Just give me.. a few.. minutes..

Suesie: Michael..

Michael sighed and sat up.

Michael: Okay okay.. I'm up..

Suesie: Thank you.

I said putting on and adjusting my things. Michael looked back at me and smiled.

Suesie: What?

Michael: Nothing.. I'm just watching my sexy Angel get dressed.

Suesie: Michael!

Michael: I told you I wanted to tear you up..

Suesie: And you did, so let's go home now.. I've had enough sinning for one day.. On a Sunday..

Michael laughed and we drove off.. Boy oh boy did I feel dirty. I took a nice long shower and Michael decided to join me.

Michael: You know, that was nothing compared to what I wanted o do, you know that right?

Suesie: What?

Michael: Remember? The parking lot?

Suesie: Oh my goodness.. Don't remind me..

Michael: I just want to do what I really felt like doing..

Suesie: In the shower?

Michael nodded as he bit his lip.

Michael: Yes.

Suesie: Michael No.. It's too dangerous.. And also, I don't want to sin anymore today.

Michael: I promise that nobody'll get hurt.

Suesie: Mike..

Michael: Baby please..

Suesie: Just this once.. And then, we play my game.

Michael: If it's the one I don't like, don't even bother.

Suesie: Oh no, you'll love this game.

Michael: Come over here then.

Suesie: You better come to me if you want me.

Michael looked at me.

Michael: If I come over there, don't expect me to be nice and show mercy.

Suesie: You better show me some mercy! I'm an angel, remember?

Michael looked down and laughed. Gosh I adore his laugh.

Michael: Come here Angel.

Suesie: You come to me Mike.

Michael: Angel stop playing.

Suesie: Mike, do you want me or not?

Michael: Oh I want you baby..

Suesie: How bad?

Michael: Last chance..

Suesie: Same here.

Michael grabbed me by me arm and pulled me towards him. He roughly kissed me as his hands made their way down low.. To my butt. Michael picked me up and.. I'm stopping right there.. I know y'all mad that I didn't say everything that happened, but I just can't right now.. Oh no.. Here comes that part.. And it happened.. What? You wanna know? Fine..

Suesie: Mike! Michael! Oh shit! MICHAEL!

Yep.. That's pretty much the worst part.. For me.. You'll understand later. Michael turned off the water and laid me down. He kept going and going. He went until he got tired.. I felt him in my stomach when he got done.. I leaked too.. Okay okay.. Enough dirty talk.. We fell asleep and I woke up in bed.

Michael: I'm so mad right now.

Suesie: Why?

Michael: I didn't get to do everything that I wanted to do.

Suesie: Michael, give my legs a break.. And my back too. Twice in one day is good enough.. Go to sleep.

Michael nodded.. Then a grin appeared on his face.

Michael: I bet that you can't close your legs..

Suesie: Get your mind out of the gutter!

Michael laughed.

Michael: I Love making love! Okay? Especially, to you.

Suesie: I Love You too.

Michael grabbed my hand and kissed it. I fell asleep on the cartoon Kim Possible. I love that show, but I couldn't stay awake.. Boy oh boy do we need Jesus.