Like usual, I woke up a little sore and ran to the bathroom to throw up.. Great way to start the day.. A reminder of what I long for that is never meant to be.. But we all know that story.. Michael came rushing after me and did his usual, whispering sweet nothings in my ear as he held my hair back into a ponytail. I was beyond tired and Michael held me close after I was done.

Michael: Its alright sweetheart.. It's okay.

He said as he stoked my hair. I looked up at his angelic face.

Suesie: It's useless.. You and I both know that it's never going to happen..

Michael shushed me right then and there.

Michael: Don't say that..

Suesie: But it's true..

Michael was quiet for a while.

Michael: I have a feeling that this time will be different.. I Love You..

Michael kissed the top of my head and I fell asleep dreaming.. And as I dreamed, I began to fill myself up with rage and depression.. I woke up in a pool of sweat and a kiss on my cheek. I looked to my right and Michael looked down at me smiling.

Michael: Thank God you're up baby.. You were asleep for two whole days. I was starting to worry about you.

Suesie: Its cold..

Michael felt my skin.

Michael: Baby, you're burning up!

Suesie: But I'm so cold!

Michael looked at my pajamas and the bed. He felt around it and looked at me.

Michael: Baby.. You're covered in sweat.

Suesie: That explains a lot.

Michael: I'm going to go make you something to eat.

My stomach growled and Michael laughed.

Suesie: Thank you.

Michael kissed my lips before I could stop him.

Suesie: You must want to get sick.

Michael grinned and walked out of the room. I stripped out of my clothes and fell back asleep. I woke up again cold to someone shaking me.

Michael: Baby, I got your food.. You need to eat this.

Suesie: I'm not hungry..

Michael: Baby..

Suesie: Michael.. Please! I'm tired!

Michael shook his head.

Michael: Eat this, and then you can go to bed.

Suesie: Deal.

I ate the food and turned over. Michael picked me up and carried me to the bathroom.

Michael: You need a bath too.

Suesie: Mike.. Let me be!

Michael didn't listen to me. He just sat me down and ran my bath water as I began to dose off on his shoulder. Michael kept me awake by talking to me once he got me in the tub. At one point, he had to wash me because I was too tired to hold the wash cloth. Michael wrapped me in a dry towel and sat me down in a chair in our room. I watch his change the bed sheets and then he dressed me in new pajamas. Gold pajamas like his. Michael laid me down and tucked me in. I began to fall asleep again and then I felt a little pressure. Michael had crawled in bed next to me and was keeping guard over me.. At least that's what it felt like.. Michael's lips met mine again but I was too tired to do anything about it. I just fell asleep.

-~-~-~-~-~Michael~-~-~-~-~-

Michael adored Suzanne's body. The way her head tilted to the side as she slept. The way her hand rested onto her chest. The way her hair stayed behind her as if it were flowing in the wind. Michael laid there next to her and watched her sleep. Her light snores let him know that she was sick and sleeping peacefully. He looked down at her hand and admired her ring. After everything they've been through, she's never taken the ring off. She's threatened their marriage with a divorce, but never has she ever taken off her ring.

Michael knew what she wanted. He knew what she thought about it. Negativity.. Michael never gave up about this. He was going to get Suzanne pregnant, even if he knew for sure that he couldn't. He wanted Suzanne to have his first child. Now a mistake has turned into hell.. He never wanted his first baby to come like this.. How will he explain in the future how they were a mistake and that he never loved their mother? This was horrible..

Michael sat up and sighed. He started to daydream about Lisa and him in her office.. He started crying silently and pictured his future.. The fights, Suzanne crying, the loneliness and the misunderstanding.. But the one that stood out the most was when he saw Suzanne leave him.. Michael couldn't take it. He woke Suzanne up and instantly smiled at her reaction.

-~-~-~-~-~Suzanne~-~-~-~-~-

Michael: Suzanne.. Baby wake up!

Suesie: Fuck the what?

I moaned then opened my eyes. I looked around and then looked down.

Suesie: What the fuck, Mike?

Michael looked at me in my eyes with a serious expression.

Michael: Suzanne, sweetheart.. Promise me that you'll never leave me. Just promise me..

Suesie: Is that all?

Michael: Baby please..

Suesie: If push comes to shove, I won't leave unless you give me a good reason to.

Michael: No baby, that's not good enough! Promise me.. This love is forever.. Promise me.

Suesie: The love I have for you is forever..

Michael: So stay with me forever, okay? Promise me you'll stay.

Suesie: If you hit me, I'm gone.

Michael: No no, baby no. I'll never hit you. I just wanna love you.

Suesie: I'll stay.. Until I die.

Michael: Promise?

I looked to the right side of me and slowly nodded.

Suesie: I promise..

Michael: Okay..

Suesie: Okay.

Michael: Lay down.. I'm going to give you some medicine that will have you healed by tomorrow.

Suesie: Michael.. Your dick ain't gonna help me at all..

Michael: Please stop cursing.. And no, I'm not making love to you until you get better.

Suesie: My sickness didn't stop you from loving me in high school..

I mumbled but Michael heard me anyway. He looked down and smiled at me.

Michael: That was then, this is now.

Suesie: Yeah, okay..

Michael: Are you saying that you want to?

Michael grinned.

Suesie: For the third time in a row? Hell no..

Michael: Suzanne.. Stop cussing!

Suesie: I'm sick, so I'm gonna cuss. All I want is so sleep. Not for you to bang my legs up again.

Michael chuckled lightly.

Michael: Man.. I want you..

Suesie: You can want me all you want, but you ain't gonna have me.

Michael: Yes I will.. I'm gonna have you pregnant in no time.

Suesie: Michael, no.. Just, no. You know I hate that subject..

Michael: No you don't, you're just mad because a mindless doctor said that you can't have children. But it's not true and I know it!

Suesie: Believe what you want to believe.. But I'm going to sleep..

Michael: What were you dreaming about?

Suesie: Why?

Michael: You woke up moaning.. You only do that when you have a special dream.

Suesie: So what? I'm sick, I'll wake up moaning..

Michael grinned.

Michael: You want me, don't you?

Suesie: What? Michael.. No..

Michael: Oh come on, the signs are all there..

Suesie: I don't want sex from you, I just want to sleep.

Michael: I make love to you.. I never have sex..

Suesie: You did that one time! Or did you make love to her?

Michael got silent..

Michael: You did not have to bring that up..

Suesie: Answer my question..

Michael: What question is that?

Suesie: Do you love her?

Michael: I Love everybody, why does it matter?

Suesie: No Michael, do you love her like you love me?

Michael looked at me with death engraved in his eyes.

Michael: No..

Suesie: That's all I wanted to know.

I turned back over and closer my eyes.

Michael: But the signs are there for you.

Suesie: Michael quit!

Michael: Why dream about it when you can have the experience?

Suesie: I don't want you. You might want me, but I don't want you.

Michael lowered his head to my neck and made me shudder when he started breathing on it.

Michael: Are you sure?

Suesie: Mike.. Stop. I'm not in the mood.

Michael licked my neck and I made my shoulders cover my neck.

Michael: Am I teasing you?

Suesie: Michael, let me sleep!

Michael started kissing my neck and moved up towards my ear.

Suesie: Stop.. No..

Michael: Why can't you ever say yes?

Suesie: I would, but I just don't want to right now.

Michael: Maybe later then..

Suesie: Maybe..

Michael looked down.

Michael: Look what you did to me baby..

I looked and then rolled back over.

Suesie: Go take a cold shower.

Michael: But what will I do when I come out and into the room? Dripping wet and nothing but a towel around my waist.

Michael said seductively.

Suesie: Deal with it.

Michael: That would mean another cold shower.

Suesie: So what?

Michael: The water bill is going up babe..

Suesie: That's on you. You don't want me to have a job so..

Michael shrugged.

Michael: Can I get a small round?

Suesie: What are you babbling about?

Michael touched my leg and started rubbing it in a small circular motion.

Michael: Baby..

Suesie: Mike.. I'm sleepy..

I pouted.

Michael: Can I put you to bed?

Suesie: Stop being nasty..

Michael: I ain't say nothing nasty yet baby..

Suesie: Oh my gosh.. I'm married to a freak..

Michael: A big one..

Suesie: Stop it!

Michael: Last time..

Suesie: No. I don't want it. I don't want you. I don't want sex. I don't want to make love. I don't want to do anything but go to bed! And by bed I mean roll over, close my eyes and go to sleep! Now, I'm going to sleep. I'm not leaving and don't wake me up again.

Michael nodded.

Michael: I Love You..

Suesie: I Love You too..

Michael kissed my lips tenderly and passionately.. I was caught off guard and since I was already about to lay down, I did.. Big mistake.. I ended up moaning and begging Michael to do things that I couldn't control.. It just flew out of my mouth.. Michael enjoyed himself though and I wasn't mad in the end.. I was satisfied and resting. I no longer moaned in my sleep or when I woke up.. And the next day, I woke up feeling back to normal.. But Michael slept longer than usual.. He was supposed to be at work by now..

I shook Michael like I was trying to wake up a dead man and Michael still didn't wake up. By now, I was scared. Started crying silently as I kept shaking him. I called him a bunch of times and he still didn't move. I screamed and cover my mouth. I ran out of the room and into our private bathroom. I started crying harder and harder. I didn't think that he was dead but I didn't think he was alive either.. It's weird.. I heard something. It was faint, but I heard something. Like the movement of the blankets.

I couldn't control my screams and then I finally calmed down. My head was hurting and my face was red. I didn't care about myself because a part of me was gone. I wanted to know for sure though.. So I prayed out loud, practically screaming, and then I had another moment.. I threw up.. Then I cleaned myself and slowly walked out of the bathroom. I approached the bed and tried not to cry. I sat down on the bed and flipped Michael over onto his back. A huge snore escaped from his mouth. I screamed in delight and hugged Michael dearly. His eyes opened and he looked down at me.

Michael: Oh Goodness Suzanne.. You scared me.

Suesie: Michael! Michael I Love You! I Love You So Much! Never EVER leave me! Please! I can't imagine losing you!

Michael sat up.

Michael: Baby, I'd never leave you.. What's going on? What's wrong sweetheart?

I started sniffling as I rubbed my eyes. Michael held me close and looked at me.

Suesie: I thought you were.. D-Dead..

Michael: Dead?

Suesie: Yes..

Michael: Why in the world would you think that?

Suesie: Because when I tried to wake you, you didn't respond or wake up.. You didn't move at all and I couldn't tell if you were alive or dead..

Michael: Oh baby..

Michael held me tighter but I knew that he was weak. His grip wasn't as tight as usual.

Suesie: Michael?

Michael: Yes Sue?

Suesie: Are you sick?

Michael: No.. I'm fine baby..

Suesie: You didn't wake up. You should've been to work by now. You've never overslept before.

Michael's eyes widened.

Michael: What time is it?

Suesie: An hour past the time that you wake up.

Michael: Oh shoot!

Michael scrambled out of bed and began to get ready. I stopped him.

Suesie: Michael, no.. Get back in bed.

Michael took my hands into his and looked at me.

Michael: Baby, look. I really do wish that I could get back in bed, but I can't. I have to work and I can't fool around with you right now.. Okay?

I placed my hand on Michael's cheek.

Suesie: Michael, you're red, you're hot and you're covered in sweat. You're staying home.

Michael shook his head and looked down as he gather some things together.

Michael: No.. No, I have to go to work.

Suesie: Michael, listen to me.

I said as I placed my hand onto his. Michael looked at our hands and looked up and me.

Suesie: You are not going to work today.. You're sick.. You need to stay home. Okay?

Michael looked down and nodded.

Michael: Okay..

Suesie: Now go take a shower and I'll have a nice set of PJ's set out for you and the bed sheets changed when you get back.

Michael: Alright..

Suesie: Thank you..

Michael: I Love You Suzanne.

Suesie: I Love You too Michael.

Michael left and I started making the bed. I stripped it and changed the sheets after I flipped the mattress. Michael came back sooner than I expected and sat down in a chair watching me make the bed. He looked so sleepy.. But then again, he could be wanting me.. I can't tell.

Michael: Why don't you strip?

Yep.. He's not tired.. He just wants me.

Suesie: Because I'm doing something important right now.

Michael: Why not do me?

Suesie: Michael, stop. Seriously.. You're sick and I'm taking care of you today. Not by giving you sex, but by giving you medicine and soup. Got it?

Michael sighed.

Michael: I just wanted to see my wife's beautiful body.

Suesie: Mike. You and I both know how you get just by me walking past you. What makes you think that me standing in front of you naked is going to help you? Or me, for that matter?

Michael: I just wanna see you.

Suesie: No touching?

Michael: Suzanne..

Suesie: Michael..

Michael sighed and then made an annoyed expression.

Michael: Fine..

Suesie: I'm not touching you either.

Michael: What? This is ridiculous!

Suesie: Michael, I have boundaries. I'm not your sex slave. I'm your wife.

Michael: Oh my gosh.. Sue.. I don't know what to do!

Suesie: Come here.

Michael stood up, forgetting about his towel and I covered my face with my hands.

Suesie: Oh my gosh..

Michael: Sorry..

Michael picked his towel back up but I still refused to look at him.

Michael: Why won't you look at me?

Suesie: I can't right now..

Michael: Why not?

I didn't answer him. I heard his footsteps approaching me and I started to back up. Then I fell onto the bed.

Michael: Sue..

Michael said, removing my hands. He saw my red cheeks and raised his eyebrows.

Michael: Like what you've seen?

Suesie: I don't wanna answer that.

Michael grinned at me with his tired eyes and backed away from me. Michael licked his lips slowly as his eyes gazed down at my body. I was sitting up and I stood up just to be pulled close, kissed passionately and pushed back down onto the bed.

Suesie: Okay, maybe making you stay home was a mistake..

Michael smiled and kissed my neck. I dug my nails into his shoulders and bit my bottom lip. I front realize that I was also pulling myself closer to his body. I guess you could say straight sex every time the other wakes up was how this week was.. But.. Not today.

Michael: I just wanna get a moan out of you..

Suesie: Then what?

I whispered. Michael looked down at me and gave me a serious look.

Michael: I just might leave you alone.

I let my moans fly out and then I felt it.. Or should I say that I felt him.. Michael kissed my cheek and stood back. I quickly stood up, big mistake. I was pushed back down and I started crawling away from him.

Suesie: Are you in one of your moods?

Michael: And what mood would that be?

Michael gently grabbed my legs and I was hanging off the bed. I covered my face with my hands.

Suesie: Oh God, why? The mood that makes you stop at nothing to have me in the way that you want me.

Michael: And what way would that be?

Suesie: Oh God.. I'm married to a freak.. You know.. Your sexual mood.

Michael: Oh.. You mean this?

Michael looked down at his towel and back at me.

Suesie: Don't.. Take it off. Just don't..

Michael: I never said I was.

Suesie: You were about to!

Michael: I might have thought about it but I wasn't about to do it.

Suesie: Oh really?

Michael: Nope.

Suesie: Let my legs go.. I'm starting to get dizzy.

Michael pulled me by my legs onto the bed and laid down next to me.

Michael: I Love You baby..

Suesie: Michael.. Go get dressed.

Michael: Putting on my PJ's..

Suesie: Your work suit..

Michael raised an eyebrow at me.

Michael: I thought you said that I was sick.

Suesie: I thought the same thing. I think I was wrong..

Michael still looked sleepy and his face looked puffy, but if he could do all that, he was feeling somewhat better.

Michael: Tomorrow.. Okay?

Suesie: Fine.. But keep your hands off me.

Michael rolled his eyes, along with his body and made an annoyed sound.

Michael: Baby?

Suesie: Yeah?

Michael: Do you think you're pregnant?

He knows better than this..

Suesie: Fuck you..

Michael: I'm serious Suzanne..

He said in  a warning but serious voice.

Suesie: No. And I don't think that I'll ever be.. You have Lisa. Now take care of that child and be happy, okay?

Michael: I'll never be happy since its not from you.

Suesie: Michael.. Stop complaining. You asked for a child, n ow you've got one so marry her and be happy. Have all the kids that you want with her, I don't care as long as you're happy.

I'm not sure if he knew.. But I had started crying at some point. Michael turned towards me and pulled me close to him.

Michael: I made a promise.. And I'm going to keep it.

Suesie: Was I really your first? Or was that just a lie too?

Michael sat up.

Michael: What?

Suesie: Was I your first?

Michael: First wife, first love. Yes.

Suesie: First person you had sex with.

Michael: Suzanne, I told you already..

Suesie: You may have told me, but did you tell me another lie?

Michael: Suzanne..

Suesie: Michael, I am not playing with you.

Michael stood up and looked at me with tears in his eyes.

Michael: No! I lost it to a friend of mine. It was an accident but it happened! Are you happy now?

Michael left the room and I slammed the door. I locked it, along with a bunch of other doors in the house so that he could spend the day busting doors open looking for me.