First off, I want to start out by saying Happy Halloween to everyone! Secondly, this is where the real deal of hell begins.. You see, Michael & I were outside decorating the house after I convinced him.. Trust me, it took a lot of convincing to get him to do it.. Here's how everything got started.. I woke up on the couch laying on Michael's chest and just admired his features thinking 'I am blessed to have a man like you.' Then I kissed his lips and Michael kissed me back. My eyes widened as Michael pulled me closer until he couldn't pull me any closer. When we pulled away, I sat up breathing hard and Michael was grinning at me.

Suesie: Oh God..

I said heavily. Michael chuckled.

Michael: Good morning.

Suesie: Good morning..

I said calming myself down.

Michael: I was just waiting for you to wake up so that I could do that.

Suesie: I can see that.

I laughed. I stood up and turned the television to my favorite show of all time.. CatDog! I spread out on the other couch and watched the show. Michael sat up and admired me from afar. Michael got up and kissed me on my forehead.

Michael: I'll be back, alright?

Suesie: Okay.. Wait, where are you going?

Michael: To pick up a few things from the store before I gotta go to work.

Suesie: It is Friday..

Suddenly my eyes lit up and I jumped onto his back.

Suesie: Mikey! Oh Michael, please!

Michael began to laugh.

Michael: What are you talking about?

Suesie: You know what day it is..

I said in his ear.. Michael bit his lip and gave a convoluted expression as he tried to remember.

Michael: No baby, I don't. What day is it?

Suesie: Baby..

I whined. Michael laughed again as he put me down.

Michael: Tell me what's going on today, please.

Suesie: It Halloween!

Michael's smile soon faded and he rubbed his chin. He looked down and began.

Michael: You know baby.. I-. I can't.

Suesie: You can't what? What's wrong?

Michael: I just can't..

Suesie: Michael, tell me what is wrong.

I demanded. Michael wouldn't look at me, so I made him look at me.

Michael: I don't celebrate Halloween..

Suesie: Why not baby?

Michael sighed.

Michael: I think it's the devil's holiday.

I gaped at him.

Suesie: Are you kidding me? Michael, have you ever been trick-or-treating at all?

Michael shook his head and I frowned.

Michael: No, my religion doesn't permit me to do such things. I've never heard of it either.

Suesie: Michael..

I said hugging him. Michael was truly confused.

Michael: Baby, why are you so worked up over this?

Suesie: Because I want to show you how fun Halloween can be.. Not only that, but you get celebrate your very first Halloween with me.

I said smiling. Michael caressed my cheek and went upstairs.

Michael: Baby.. I just can't.

I ran after him but he shut the door on me and locked it.

Suesie: Michael! Please, this would mean the world to me to have the honors of spending your very first Halloween together.. As a family.

I said looking down at my stomach. I rubbed it a little bit and slid down the door.

Michael: No Suzanne.

There was a long pause after I sighed. Then I spoke.

Suesie: The tradition is we dress up as whatever we want and go around the neighborhood collecting candy from other neighbors. Sometimes people carve beautiful designs into pumpkins, put candles inside of them, and place them outside for all to see when the night is near. We also have a party and dance.. Well, some people dance at the parties. And if we're lucky, we may be able to get a full moon.. Some people kiss under the moon. Lots of children love it because of the candy and the chance to play dress up.. I love it because of the candy and I think that it would be a great social experience for our child.

I stood up after a while and walked down the stairs into kitchen. I sat at the table and thought about how many years it has been since I have celebrated Halloween. The last time I celebrated Halloween was two years before I Michael. I put my head down and closed my eyes remembering that last Halloween night.. I hated it because that was the first time I humiliated in front of everyone.. It was caught on tape but it mysteriously disappeared. Maybe it got destroyed in a fire hopefully.. Wherever it is, I pray that nobody ever sees it.

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I was walking down the street a bag of candy in one hand and my mothers' hand in the other. A car soon began to follow us and I began to get afraid. I griped my mothers' hand tighter. She pulled closer to her and then a man began shouting at us.

Man: Baby I know you hear me talkin' to you!

I looked at her and let a tear fall.

Suesie: Mommy, I wanna go home..

She wiped my tear and kissed my cheek. Then she nodded. The car stopped following us and the man got out. He started to walk with us and my mother quickly told me to go stand by the car. They argued for a long time and then I heard crying. I looked around me and decided to open the door. There, in the car, was a boy who had tears streaming down his face. He stopped crying once he saw me and my and just stared at me.

Suesie: Who are you?

I questioned. He didn't answer me so I kept on talking.

Suesie: Do you have a voice?

He nodded.

Suesie: Why don't you use it?

He shrugged and looked down.

Suesie: Is that your dad?

He hesitated but then nodded slowly.

Suesie: That's my mommy. I'm Suz-.

Mother: Suzanne! Get your narrow tail out that man's car!

She shouted cutting me off. The boy smiled at me before I closed the door but then my mind froze on his smile.. I started to see an older version of him and it came towards me.

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I lifted my head off of the table breathing fast.. That couldn't have been.. No, I'm just dreaming. Michael put his hands on my shoulders and I jumped.

Michael: Baby, what's wrong?

I looked around and tried to calm myself down.

Suesie: N-nothing..

I said shaking my head.

Michael: Are you sure you don't wanna talk about it?

Suesie: I don't want to talk about it.

I said wiping my face. I realized what day it was again and begged once more.

Suesie: Michael please!

I begged. I want him to have fun with me.

Michael: Baby.. No.

Suesie: Mike.

Michael: No Suzanne. The answer, no matter what you say or do, will always be no.

I got a little idea in my mind that Michael can never resist. I signaled for him to come to me as I thought about how I was going to say this..

Michael: Yes?

Suesie: What if I....

I told him and he loved the idea but was it really worth this? Celebrating Halloween? Michael looked down and bit his lip as he thought about it.

Michael: That is very tempting..

Suesie: Can we do it now? Please?

Michael's eyes widened and he started to grin. He shook his head in disbelief and held out his hand.

Michael: Wait a minute..

Suesie: What?

Michael: Right here? Right now?

I looked around the room and returned my eyes onto him.

Suesie: Well I don't see any decorations so..

Michael slightly frowned.

Michael: Oh.. I thought that you were talking about-.

Suesie: No! We have too much to do! Let's go!

I said pulling him out of the house and into our vehicle. Michael laughed lightly as we pulled out of the driveway. We arrived at the store then I went crazy with decorations and candy. Michael looked at our basket and then looked at me.

Michael: Don't you think that this is a little bit too much?

Suesie: What? No, where's your spirit Michael?

Michael: Making plans for getting into heaven.

I gave him an unamused look.

Suesie: Really?

Michael: Baby.. I just don't feel that this is right..

Suesie: Michael please, this is my enjoyment now and you'll get yours later.

Michael blushed and I pinched his cheeks making him blush harder.

Michael: I look forward to that..

Suesie: I bet you do.

Michael pulled me close and kissed my lips tenderly leaving my lips with a tickle when we parted.

Michael: I Love You..

Suesie: I Love You too.. Now, let's check out!

I said pulling Michael to the cash register. Michael rolled his eyes and sighed.

Michael: Can we go home now?

Suesie: Of course! Let's go!

We drove home and I jumped out before Michael could even park. I ran inside of the house and began decorating. When Michael came inside, I was already halfway done.

Michael: Oh my Lord..

He said under his breath.. He was not happy about this at all.

Suesie: Michael, where were you? I'm almost done here but will you hand me that streamer?

Michael plopped down onto the couch and put his head in his hands. I stopped working and climbed down. I heard light sobs and immediately felt bad. I lightly touched his back and began to rub it.

Michael: I-I can't do this Suzanne. I feel like I'm inviting the devil in for a place to stay with us. No amount of candy, kisses, hugs, or sex can make it any better either. I'm so sorry baby but I just can't!

Michael said standing up at the last part and then he ran away upstairs.

Suesie: Michael! Baby, I'm sorry!

I sat down there and thought about how much pain I've caused him. I looked up and my eyes were opened to how Michael saw this holiday. I instantly started crying. I reached up and started taking down the decorations and put them inside of a box. I put the box into the garage and put the words NEVER AGAIN on it. I did it so I knew to never to pull them out again. I went upstairs and I didn't see Michael anywhere. I looked everywhere and then I heard him in the bathroom.

Suesie: Michael.. Michael I'm sorry. I put the decorations away and I promise not to upset you with them again.. I promise I'll never bring them out again.

Michael sighed and began to think.

Suesie: If you want, we can still watch that Disney movie that you love so much. I'll go put it in.. If you decide to come out, all you have to do is press play.

I let my head hit the door as I sighed. The door opened which made me fall into Michael's arms. I almost died when I saw his face. His red nose, big puffy cheeks, and watery eyes.. Michael lightly smiled at me and I let a tear fall at the sight of Michael. Michael wiped away my tear and laid down on the bed. I put in the movie and turned around. Michael had his arms stretched out towards me signaling for me to come. I hesitantly went and Michael held me close as he kissed me a few times. The movie came on and Michael started to smile.

Michael: Neverland, here we come..

I thought about what he just said and slightly smiled.

Suesie: Yeah.. You ready?

Michael: For Neverland or the baby?

Suesie: For November.

Michael looked at me and smiled.

Michael: As long as I have you and you too, I will always be prepared for anything.. Are you ready?

Michael said rubbing my stomach.

Suesie: I don't know.. I'm just afraid.

Michael: Afraid of what?

Suesie: Afraid of losing you..

Michael gave me a convoluted expression.

Michael: How could you ever lose me?

Suesie: By you losing me..

Michael: Baby, what are you talking about?

Suesie: I had a dream a few years ago and it was about you and a few others at my funeral.

Michael: Whoah wait, what? Your funeral?

Michael said pausing the movie.

Suesie: Chris was there but he was wearing white and you both started to argue.

Michael: Wait a minute baby, who's Chris?

Suesie: I looked at the casket and I just saw a mirror at first. Chris pulled out a knife and our fathers tried to ran over to break up the fight.. But he stabbed you and you looked at me in shock.. I looked at the casket again and saw my body..

Michael kissed my cheeks and held me close.

Michael: You'll never lose me and I pray that I'll never lose you.

Suesie: You'll never lose me, Michael.

We watched the movie and in the middle, as always, Michael began quoting it. I just laughed.