"Are you okay?" Zayn asked with obvious worry but also compassion in the way he looked at me. We knew each other for a while now and shared a lot, so I didn't take it bad that he was the first one tonight to ask, and talk about my situation.

Zayn was the very first person beside my french friends that i told my past. Somehow, i'd always felt that i could trust him, above anyone else, even Harry. I couldn't explain the feeling of trust that i had for him. He actually knew even more than him at the moment. Heretofore, he was very present and supportive, while we were hanging out we used to talk a lot and i trusted him, even when things became gloomy and complicated.

"To be honest and according to the circumstances I don't know " I sighed of sadness and looked at my drink. I'd drank a bit too much already, and the party won't end soon.

"Did you know?" I had to ask him. I didn't know when it began between Harry and that girl but I wanted to know if Zayn knew. Of course, I was hoping that if he had known, he would have told me. But now that I think about it, he was trying so hard to warn me about Harry, that I no longer knew what to expect, from anyone, even him.

"No, I would have told you". Zayn looked at me furrowing his eyebrows, he seemed a bit annoyed by the fact that i could think that he was hiding this from me. To comfort me, he pulled his right hand to carress my cheek softly and his eyes were showing care.

"Okay" I mumbled. "I look ridiculous. Everyone sees me as the numb girlfriend who's been cheating on". Pearls of tear were showing again, I knew I wouldn't last long, I was close to break and coldn't hide the scowl on my face.

"That's not what I see when i look at you, or think about you". Zayn's brown eyes were focused on me, while he's calm and soft voice warmth my heart, and it helped me a lot to keep the tears away.

He's so nice, and I felt grateful to have him around right now, by my side. However, I felt guilty for not being friends with him for a while because of Harry. This is so messed up. I agreed to stay away from him for the sake of my relationship with Harry... I was wrong to do this.

Zayn was doing his best to comfort me and it was working. He had always known how to make me laugh and think about something else when I felt bad.

"You look pretty hammered" Zayn laughed at my amount of alcohol. The worst thing was that he was right, I definitely drunk too much and I was afraid that I couldn't contain or control myself anymore. There were so many feelings in my mind, and heart, that i didn't know which one would show first and what i could do. Disappointment? Sadness? Anger?

Seeing that I'm not even able to respond something coherent, Zayn took my wrist and lead me outside. "Come with me". I followed him without hesitation, I needed to get out of here anyway, getting some air would be helfpful.

We headed to the parking lot where Zayn's car was parked. He opened the door and helped me to climb in before closing the door behind him. On our way i didn't forget to grab a bottle of champagne with me.

I was drinking my bottle of champagne while Zayn remained silent for a little while. He hadn't drink at all tonight.

We were both sitting in the backseat while i decided to speak up. "You want to know the fun part?" I asked Zayn smiling sillily as the alcohol was making its effect on my mood.

He frowned his eyebrows and smiled back at me, curious. "Tell me". The way he looked at me made me lost some of my confidence. Zayn's dark eyes and long eyelashes had always made me speechless. His glance is so intense.

"I didn't fucking sleep with you because of him."

i noticed how Zayn was interesting in what i was saying, and it made me laugh, while he was raising an eyebrow.

"Each time I had the chance, I put the urge, the need away, because I didn't want to cheat on him" I laughed drunkily.

"I respected him too much to do such a thing to him. And he was screwing that bitch. I know that girl, i talked to her and laughed with her. You warned me, even Gigi and Kendall warned me." Zayn was confused by the Gigi part but didn't ask for more details, at least for now.

I added "I thought i was better than them, that i knew that he had feelings for me deep down. But i was a fool this whole time. Can you believe it? He was making me feel bad for hanging out with you. I put space between us. Maybe he was having the same alchemy as we had with her and he couldn't resist. But I resisted! Why couldn't he resist? Maybe he had slept with other girls than her."

my head was completely messed up, i was overthinking and not being even coherent anymore,so many questions were rushing in my mind. It was just a matter of time between me and Harry, now i knew it.

"Who says I would have said yes?" Zayn teased, smiling like an idiot, he's trying to make me smile and it worked.

"From everything i just said you reacted only on the attraction part."

We both chuckled.

"Oh, come on, don't pretend you didn't want to have sex with me" I laughed and took a sip of my champagne again, and Zayn was looking at me with cocky eyes. I pushed his arm with my hand jokingly.

"I think you have had enough of this" He took the bottle from my hand and pulled it out away from me, making me groan childishly.

"I don't want to resist anymore" I said, firmly. Zayn turned his head and looked at me confused, furrowing his eyebrows, but a soft smile appeared on his face, and i knew that my statement made sparks showing into his eyes.

He didn't have the time to add anything that my lips were crashing on his, and it felt amazing.

Like my lips belong to his.

Feeling Zayn's full lips on mine made me feel shivers running from the bottom of my spine to my whole body.

His lips were soft, and he kissed me back gently, his hands grabbing my head and my hair tightly.

We deepened the kiss and our tongues started to swirl around each others at the perfect pace.

Our breath were getting heavier as the kiss kept lasting, we were both turned on, for sure.

I was melting.

Without separating my lips from Zayn's, I pulled him back and straddled him, as he sat on the back seat, his hands were now on my waist. In that position, I could feel the bulge in his pants, getting bigger, making me moan of the intense desire i had for him.

We kept kissing and Zayn's hands were running over my body.

Starting to unbutton his shirt, i felt Zayn's hands pulling me away, pretty harshly and shut the infatuation down.

"We can do this while you're in that state" Zayn's pupils were delited because he was so turned on, he looked like he was trying to think straight from a dizzy state.

It took me a few seconds to realize what he did. I was so ready for this, and the amount of alcohol in my blood wasn't the reason. i wanted this for a while.

"I don't care" and I was getting closer to him again, teasing. I was about to kiss him when he spoke again.

"I do" zayn said, avoiding the kiss, looking at me in the eyes, it was like he was trying to convince me that it wasn't the best moment to do that, and he was kind of trying to apologize for rejecting me.

"I can't believe this" i stormed out of the car, adjusting my hair and my outfit, even if my eyes were bloodshot and I looked like hell. Zayn was running after me pretty quickly, yelling my name in the parking lot.

"Jenna, wait!" he screamed my name.

"I can't believe you rejected me" I kept walking fast to go back to the party, now it was better than being here, how hilarious was that?

Zayn grabbed my arm firmly making me stop immediately under his strengh. I turned around and faced him "So, I'm not that interesting that I'm not with Harry anymore?" I snapped.

"You're being unfair, I want to do this, and you know it, just not while you're drunk, the timing isn't right" He begged for forgiveness, and i just blinked my eyes and sighed.

He's right, and I nodded of agreement, it's all I could do.

We both went back to the party, and tried to wipe away the awkwardness from what happened between us, trying to hide that we were both ready to have sex and had to push away the urge.

But my mood would be switched for the hundredth time tonight when GIGI and Harry came into sight, pretty annoyed by seeing Zayn and I together.

We're close to the end for the story. i don't know yet it it will be a summer break or if i'll write a sequel, or keep writing this one, but there will be an end soon, and it'll kind of open :)

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