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Harry drove fast to go to Liam's, pulling out to overtake, closed expressions on his face. He's obviously angry, mad, and I can't blame him. He remained silent the whole drive, staring at the windshield, focusing on the road. The only sound in the car was the humming engine of his Range Rover. He must feel betrayed. What could I say to him to make him feel better? It's not really my place, so I don't say anything, I don't want to make things worse for him.

As Harry's driving, I pull out my phone from my purse, to google the thing.

The headlines aren't good. It's true, it's everywhere.

Zayn Malik's leaving One Direction

The Directioners are in shock after Zayn leaving the band

What's next for One Direction?

The end of One Direction?

There're hundreds like them.

There're thousands of tweets, their fans are so worried that they'll just split. Will that happen?

Harry passed Liam's gate and pulled over his car in front of the house. There are three other cars parked in the driveway. We both get out of the car, without talking. Harry presses the closing button and the cars headlights flashed.

He doesn't ring the doorbell or knock, he just opens the door and goes inside, me following his pace, behind him. We're walking straight to Liam's living room. They all stand up as they see us coming in. The expression on their face is the same as Harry's. They seem anxious, mad and confused.

"Hey" I say, awkwardly. I'm not sure it's my place to be here, but since I'm here I'll make myself small. Besides, it looks like a crisis meeting.

Sitting down on the couch, Harry helps himself to some beer, setting on the coffee table in the center of the room. Taking a sip of his drink, he tightens his fists.

"He never mentioned to leave" Louis said.

They all look at each other, their gaze going back and forth, looking for answers. If they weren't informed, Zayn won't probably give them to them.

"Actually, he did" Niall answered.

They weren't expecting this at all? It's surprising that they didn't notice how Zayn was acting towards them? I wasn't there with them before, but the time I'd spend with them he acted like a free electron. I can't compare with how he was before, sure, but I don't know. It surprises me a bit that they didn't see it coming.

"Oh, and when?" Liam questions, scratching his bear, anxious.

"The night, you know" Niall seems embarrassed with what's coming next. "The night he gave Jenna, you know, the cocaine".

I've never felt so ashamed of myself by now. They're problems are not because of me, but him remembering me what I did, made me feel like crap. I know they blame Zayn for making pressure on me to take it, but since we didn't talk about what happened I'd rather keep my addiction to me as long as possible.

"You can say it out loud" faking a smile.

"This is bullshit" Harry snaps, standing on his feet, running his left hand in his hair.

My phone rings and they all look at me, Harry's angry eyes make me feel awkward. The tension in the room is palpable. "Sorry" I mumble. I pull out my phone and unlock the screen, I got a text. Speaking of the devil, Zayn's name appears on the screen. What the hell?

Now you don't have to keep it a secret anymore, Love. Zayn.