"You're such an idiot" Niall said furrowing his eyebrows, Liam agreed, nodding. Then they go back to their phones.

They're not wrong.
The way she let go of me, leaving me alone in the middle of the dance floor, seeming so disappointed and sad. I feel like crap right now, she's obviously hurt by what I said to the journalists about us. The sadness in her eyes made me hold my breath.

I don't commit to girls, I don't like when things get too serious. This is how I react, when they just kept asking me questions about us, not even a single question about the new album on the way, made me say stupid things. Deep down, I feel something for her, I think. She's not like the other girls, she's been with me for who I am, not for the wrong reasons of who I am, if that makes any sense.

Taylor was a bad decision to make, I shouldn't have dated her. I keep hearing from her and her songs about me and how she's been so successesful thanks to me.

I know what the people think and say about me that I'm just a player and a cheater because of her for the most part.

But Jenna, she's different. She's not shallow and doesnt care that I'm a celebrity. She's put her life on hold to be with me this summer and I liked spending it with her.

What helps a lot is that she's not part of the business.

But still, I can't commit, I can't do the relationship thing. I'd rather thing keep as simple as possible. And I hope she'll agree with all of this.

"I should go find her" i tell the guys still focused on their phones. It's been a while since she left now, I have to go looking for her.

I've been through all over the place she' nowhere to be found. Of course, Zayn's not around too. It's pissing me off, they're obviously together, hidden somewhere. Why does she even spend time with him? Why does he have to pose that much problems lately.

Where the hell is she, she's gone for an hour now.

Since she's not in the premises, I decide to go outside.

"What the fuck, Zayn!" I shout, rushing down the stairs, my blood boils. Is he seriously trying to kiss Jenna? He's my fucking bandmate. Does he have any limits? First he gave her cocaïne and no he's getting her drunk and kissing her. My fists teightened.

"Harry, please" Jenna says, eyes opened wide. Her voice is hesitant.

I take Zayn by the collar of his shirt "You, stay away from her"

"Then, treat her better, you're a jerk" he says back. He's kidding me right?

"Don't do that shit, you turn toward her just to piss me off, I'll say it one last time Zayn, I warn you, stay away" I let go of him, my breath slows down. Zayn adjusts his shirt and steps back. "Fine" he says, looking back and forth between Jenna and me. I don't like the way he looks at her.

"Harry, I'm sorry" She tries to mumble.

"What the fuck Jenna, making out with my bandmate?" I'm so mad at her right now, I could yell at her. she's lucky we're in public and I can't make a scene. Those damn journalists would be to happy to publish trash about me again.

"Harry, please" her eyes are bloodshot and watering.

"Let's just go home" she tries to take my arm but I avoid her, climbing the stairs she follows me.

With all my luck, we're on our way to get back our stuff, when I run into Kendall and her sister Khloe. "Well, well, well, Look who's here"

"Hi" rolling my eyes. Now is definitely not the good time.

« I can't believe you dumped my sister for her » she said lookind down at Jenna. What the hell? This is such a crappy night.

« Just move, Khloe » i snap. Without adding anything I won't control myself of I start to speak.

We remained quiet during the whole ride home. I'm not in the mood to talk, she has disappointed me deeply. What's wrong with her and Zayn?!

"Going to the shower" i say when i close the maindoor behind me.

She doesn't say anything and I go upstairs.

The hot water will help me to calm my nerves and to clear my head.

I'm shampooing my hair when I hear the bathroom door opening.

"Harry" Jenna's voice says behind the shower curtain.

"Please don't open the curtain."

"Ok" . I answer, staying under the hot water running down my naked body.

"I have to talk to you...." she hesitates then adds, " I'm sorry for all of this.
I fucked up and i'm sorry. But you have to understand. I'm not expecting something too serious from you, because i' m not able to commit myself to you, being in a relationship freaks me out and i just can't. But, hearing the you were just having fun with me is not why i am looking for as well, i don't want to be played, to be fooled"

She sighs. I don't see her but I know that she's struggle with herself to tell me those things. On that way we're not that different. I also have commitment issues. Besides, I can't hide that I am relief that she doesn't want to pressure me.

My heart starts to pound in my chest when I realize what she's just said. Then she adds

"Do you even like me?"

So, Zayn album is out, have you listened to it? Do you like it? I love the song 'It's you'. Love XXxx