November 14, 2015

This is something that happens every weekday.
I'm all happy go lucky. Like, the happiest a depressed person can be.
That happy where you shrug off someone poking you, or someone over your shoulder reading our book or watching what you write or draw.
Then some idiot goes and pops my no-touch bubble.
Most of the time saying something like, "What, did you finally get your mom off your back?" Or "You seem too happy. Someone needs to calm you down." Or, the classic killing one which causes bleeding at home, "You're annoying me! Stop it! Go away!"

Bitches just don't understand that I'm trying to be happy for once in my life.

So if you see me happy in real life, don't burst my fucking bubble. Because I'm really trying. Every day. To not die from insanity or anxiety. Let me go into detail on this one day.

(This isn't from MMS, it's from my old school.)
So, this child, let's call her Olivia the Bitch. Okay, so Olivia the Bitch here, she's talking about some shitty ass math. She said,
"Aviana. That's not how you do this math." After I showed her an easy way through it.

"Olivia, it can be, if you want it to be."

"But I'd fail it this way."

(I actually said this in school. Yelling at her. Didn't get in trouble because nobody heard me over their own chat. A few students did and teased me for having anger issues, but I shut them up real quick.)
"Bitch, you just don't understand it. I fucking DO, and I get straight A's every fucking school year. So shut the fuck up and find another partner. A dumb ass partner, but not the one with ADHD over there. He don't got no friends cuz he too smart, and nobody likes smart people except smart people. I'm a smarty. He a smarty. We might be best friends. But everybody teases him."

"I didn't mean-"

"Shut the fuck up. I am not finished. He's my best friend and you can go suck a dick, for all I care, bitchy ass dumb shit."
I walked off like a fucking bawss I am.

For the rest of the school year, she cowered at the sight of me.
And the reason I brought this ADHD kid up was to protect him from her bullying ass trash mouth. (She literally ate everything that other kids didn't eat. Said it was part of her illness; she had to eat more than most kids. Never called her out on it. But one time I did ask her if she wanted my left over carrots.
She said she only eats leftover sweets.
This dumbass.)