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Chapter 10- break down

Our English teacher agreed with having class outside, because school was almost over, and we didn’t have much to do. Everyone was just fooling around. I wonder how Creg lives with all these lies. Looking at him now, he looks like a normal teenager having fun with his friends.

“Mom wants to say she’s glad you’re doing great in this mission, but you need a plan of action soon,” Sorrow mumbled to me.

A couple weeks of magic and amazing dates ruined when reality hit. It was a great sunny day with a nice cold breeze. It was like the weather was so contradicting to my thoughts that it was taunting me. I glared at the sky.

“Erm, you ok?” Sorrow asked waving a hand in front of my face.

“Yeah, um, I’m fine,” I said clearing my throat. Suddenly, I was so pissed off. At what for sure I did not know. Maybe I was mad at fate, the fact that I was starting to really like Creg for no logical reason, or that I needed to betray Creg. Whoop de do.

“Miss, can I go to the bathroom?” I asked standing up before Sorrow could get too suspicious. The teacher nodded.

“Get yourself together, Emine,” I whispered while touching the bathroom mirror with my trembling hands. I felt sick.

You can’t get it together.

You’ve never been good enough, anyways.

That’s why your mom left you.

That’s why your dad left you.

And now Creg will leave you too.

“Stop it!” I yelled holding my head while the tears fled my eyes. I hate when I get like this. I forgot to take my medication this morning…

“Kate! You ok?” Sorrow asked. When did she get here?

“I’m not Kate,” I whispered and fell to my knees. I will not pass out. I’m not weak.

Yes, you are

NO!

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“The princess has awoken,” Sorrow said with a small smile.

“Ugh, my head,” I groaned and realized I was at the hospital.

“Yeah, you kind of hit the bathroom floor when you passed out. You had a concussion; sorry I couldn’t catch you,” Sorrow said shrugging.

“You know, telling me you had panic disorder would’ve been useful information,” she said now serious.

“The agency knows; why do you care?” I mumbled.

 “Creg was here earlier when you were sleeping,” she mentioned ignoring my comment. Even his name made me groan.

“You love him, don’t you?” Sorrow said quietly. My eyes got wide.

“That’s preposterous,” I said.

“Cut out the bull. I’ve been there, done that; that won’t fool me,” Sorrow said shrugging.

“I don’t even know what love is,” I said. For the first time in my life, I actually felt like a teenager. I’m barely a kid! I need to stop growing up so fast. Sorrow’s expression softened a bit.

“There was a reason I got kicked out of the agency,” Sorrow muttered. Curiosity had me responding.

“What happened?”

Sorrow sighed before answering, “It happened two years ago. His name was Elliot. He was a good guy, but his dad wasn’t,” she started smiling sadly. She looked at me to see if I was listening. I motioned for her to continue.

“There was this guy called Elliot. His dad was a gang leader, and the police were after him. He shot a cop, so he was now wanted more. He went on the run. The police questioned Elliot, but he claimed he knew nothing. The agency thought otherwise. I was an agent, and coincidently, I went to the same school as Elliot, so a similar mission arose, which caused a similar problem you’ve been having.  They wanted me to get close to Elliot. At first, I hated it, but then I started loving him. I don’t even know when my feelings started. Then, I started feeling guilty, because I was using him. He actually loved me, and I was I was repaying him by using him for information. One day, he actually gave me the information I needed. I then broke down, because he trusted me! I told him everything, and obviously he didn’t take it well. I was so sorry. He yelled at me, and told me to leave his house. The next day he wasn’t at school, so I went over to his house and on his door was a note, and,” Sorrow choked up. I was just listening with my eyes wide.

“The note said ‘I forgive you. If only we could be as free as birds, and fly away from our problems. However, I need to face my problems.’ I knew where he went. I had to get to him before he did something stupid. I told the agency the information, which was so stupid of me. We went to the warehouse, where his dad was located. It ended up in a fight. It was the gang against the agency, and Elliot was not on our side. He actually injured an agent, and I could’ve shot him there. I had an opening, but I couldn’t shoot. He stared while I stared back, and then boom. Someone else shot him, and he… died. Elliot was gone, so I kind of… lost it. I attacked the agent who shot him. I was in a clinic for a year. I didn’t go to jail, because of my mom’s authority. I changed schools, and decided I wasn’t Sally anymore. I would be Sorrow, because that’s all I had felt for a while,” Sorrow finished up.

She was hiding her face, so I couldn’t see her expression. However, I knew my expression was horrid. Tears were streaming down my face, and I just couldn’t stop.

“I-um,” I started not knowing what to say. Sorrow put a hand on my mouth.

“Nope, don’t want to hear it! The only reason I told you that story was to teach you a lesson. Don’t do anything stupid, or you’ll get both yourself and Creg killed,” Sorrow said. My eyes widened at her words. Sorrow got up and walked towards the door.

“Feel better,” she said right as she slipped out. Great, now I’m even more confused on what to do.

******

“You made me tea. Creg made someone tea. Tea?” I babbled still confused.

“Oh, shut up. I can be nice too, you know? Now accept the goddamn tea,” Creg said huffing. I chuckled and grabbed the mug of tea.

“You don’t have to stay with me tonight,” I mumbled sipping the tea on the couch.

“If you don’t want me, just say so,” Creg teased.

“Ok, I don’t want you,” I replied casually. Creg gasped. His expression was hilarious. I laughed.

“Kidding,” I said rolling my eyes.

“Naughty,” Creg said plopping down right next to me. I cuddled next to him.

“All jokes aside, are you sure you’re alright?” he asked his mouth now a straight line. I shrugged and looked down.

“Kate, look at me.”

“Wow, have you noticed that my rug is a beige color. I always thought it looked darker-,” I started but stopped talking when Creg lifted my head up. My eyes met his amazing blue, and my spirits went down again.  Why did I have to fall for him?

“Want to tell me what happened back in school?” he said still not letting go of my gaze. Stay strong, Emine, don’t fall for those eyes.

“Don’t try to seduce me into telling,” I mumbled. Creg chuckled.

“You know it is working. It would be weird if it didn’t, right? I am sexy after all,” he said sighing.

“You’re also very modest,” I said sarcastically.

“That’s why you love me, eh?” Creg said winking.

Love

Why does everyone throw around that word so carelessly? I knew Creg was teasing, but I was scared.

“What if I go crazy?” I said thoughtfully. Creg studied my face and then laughed. I glared at him.

“You don’t have to be an arse about it!” I exclaimed.

“You’re cute when you’re angry. I laughed, because you sounded ridiculous!” Creg exclaimed. I raised an eyebrow, confused. Creg rolled his eyes.

“You won’t go crazy. Everyone has flaws, trust me. We all do things we regret, but that’s what makes us who we are. I would be scared if you didn’t have a panic attack, because then you would be too good to be true. Well, you still are, but it’s nice to know you aren’t perfect,” Creg said. He thought I was perfect? I was too shocked to give a good respond, so a really stupid one came out of my mouth.

“Since when did you become Yoda?” Creg laughed. How did he find that amusing?

“Since I saw you on that hospital bed, and I realized life is too short. I don’t want to waste my life,” Creg said nonchalantly. You’re going to waste your life in jail if you continue being with me. Obviously, I couldn’t say that, but boy I really wanted to. I really wanted to let him in on the fact that the agency was going to get him, and that he should just run and never look back, but I couldn’t. Creg did break the law, and who knows how many people got hurt thanks to him? He wasn’t exactly and ideal human being. However, I wanted to be selfish. I wanted to tell him everything, but Sorrow’s words popped in my head.

Don’t do anything stupid, or you’ll get both yourself and Creg killed.

Jail was better than death, right? Ugh, falling for a criminal is hard.

“Erm, you ok?” he asked after I still hadn’t responded. I shook my head.              

“Tell me what’s wrong,” Creg whispered. I shook my head again, now tears threatening to spill out.

“I can’t,” I managed to choke out. Great, when did I become such a wimp?

“Kate-,” Creg started, but was interrupted when my phone rang. I wiped at my face before answering.

“Hello?” I said surprised to find my voice calm.

“Emine! It’s me, Alec! Are you ok? I’m sorry I couldn’t come to the hospital! I had paperwork to do, and boss was all she’ll be fine, but then I felt guilty and then,” Alec frantically yelled over the phone. Despite the mood, a small chuckle escaped my lips. Creg looked at me curiously. I gave him a reassuring smile.

“Calm down, Alec. I’m fine, and I get it, you needed to get work done,” I said calmly cutting off his blabbering.

“I’m going to make it up to you, Emine,” Alec said confidently.

“Listen, you don’t have to-,” I started but it was useless.

“I think it’s time for a DOUBLE DATE!” Alec exclaimed clearly excited. I could tell I had a horrid expression on my face from the look Creg gave me. 

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Meh. Could you tell I got writer's block halfway through it? lol I'm not too happy with this chapter. Creg seemed too sweet (but I love him eep) and Emine seemed too wimpy (but can you blame her, really?) I think that Sorrow and Elliot's story might have made a better novel, no? LOL Anywaysss, Alec is back yaaayyyy! x) 

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