If I want to inform someone about my death, I'd probably choose Neil of all people.

I don't really know why, probably because I trusted her and told her I intended to kill myself before.

And then she was the only one who actively did something to cheer me up.

Ah, no, there was another person too.

To both of you:

Love you babe, even though I might be a bitch to you sometimes. On the off chance that I died, don't blame yourself that you knew but could not do anything (in case you do). 

JN1522
247CH

Right before The Whale fall.