Have I made a mistake

My smile may be fake

Is the truth hiding

I feel like dieing

I'm losing all that I know

I'm just letting it go

I can't change the past

This happy day may be my last

To those who are reading

I feel more like I'm pleading

I've been yelled at and misunderstood

I'm afraid that my mom is going to leave us for good

She says she's had enough

I'm not sure if it's a bluff

She has said this many times before

And has slammed and locked her door

Can you help me

for i'm slowly dieing but no one can see

I put up a face

I need someone to hug and embrace

I'm afraid of what i truly think

I feel like I'm on the brink

I've promised myself that I would stay living

but the world is never so forgiving

again and again I'm tested

but i will never be bested

for I have my family and friends

and i hope i can make amends

for what i've said

I'm now afraid and full of dread

I cry and weep for the wounds that have been caused are deep

The wounds are not easily seen

They are upon the heart and they have broken me even though I'm only thirteen

I'm afraid of what others will say

Please don't tell anyone about this I pray

I've told only one other soul

and she has helped me to stay whole

now i just ned to tell another what's happening

This is not me going around rambling

If you can't tell this is serious

Now I know some of you are curious

My mom and dad are living apart

they are divorced and that is just the start

My mom is sick and can die at any moment

and knowing this is just torment

I can't help her

and she won't get help from another

For she needs surgery on her heart

And this is slowly tearing me apart

I don't know what to do

but i know that i can get through this with the help of you

So please don't disregard this

this is not something that i want you to miss

 I think that soon I'll fall and fade

and I'm completely afraid