Mew POV

I was beyond happy upon seeing Gulf finally waking up. My heart is beating so fast because of nervousness that something has severely gone wrong with him. I'm still so lucky that he is now okay

"Baby!! You're awake!! Thank god!!" I can't help but exclaim upon seeing him slowly open his eyes and move his body.

"Boo?? What happen!! Why am I here??" He said confusedly, it seems that he doesn't remember yet what happens which makes me more anxious but at the same time relieved because he is not showing any angry feelings on me. Please let him understand my reason. Please make him stay!

But my relief does not last long when his confused face suddenly changes and became displeased!! He looked at me angrily and suddenly push me which made me caught off guard. I saw my father tried to go to me but I extend my hand to show him that I'm okay

"I HATE YOU!!! YOU LIAR!! I HATE YOU!!! YOU LIED TO!! YOU BETRAYED ME!!! YOU LIED TO ME!!! I HATE YOU!!!" Gulf angrily said to me, I quickly moved and went near him but he quickly stands up from our bed.

He was wiggling when he stands because maybe he is still not okay.

"Baby!!" I tried holding him but he just pushed me away again

"I HATE YOU!!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!! YOU BETRAYED ME!! YOU LIED!! YOU LIED!!!" Gulf started to cry while saying this. Looking at him to become like this made me feels so guilty and angry to myself. I shouldn't have hidden things with him. I should have been honest from the very start!! I'm such a coward!! COWARD!!

"I HATE YOU!!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!! YOU BETRAYED ME!! YOU LIED!! YOU LIED!!!" Gulf just keeps on yelling at me at the same time crying so much. I went near him and tried my best to hold him, I don't care if he keeps on pushing me away!! I will not let him go!! Never!!

"I'm sorry baby!! I'm sorry!! I didn't mean to hide this thing from you!! Please listen to me!! I need to explain!! Please baby!!" I'm begging him to listen to me but he just keeps on pushing me so I just keep my hold on him tighter

"I will let you talk things out, Just call me if you need something" My dad told us then proceed on going out of our room

I let go of our hug and tried to look at him. He is just crying so much!! I hate myself for making him like this!! I swear to protect and never let him cry again but now?? I did it again!! I did it again!!

"I HATE YOU!!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!! I HATE YOU!!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!! I HATE YOU!!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!! I HATE YOU!!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!! I HATE YOU!!! I THOUGHT YOU LOVE ME!! " He repeatedly said to me while I'm trying my best to calm him down by holding him tight and repeatedly said how much sorry I am right now to him. How much I didn't mean to hurt him!!

"I love you baby!! I love you so much!! I can explain please listen to me!! You have to listen to me, baby!!"

He suddenly stops crying and stands in front of me. He looked at me angrily!! I can feel how much he hated me right now. I can see it in his eyes!! He never looked at me this way before.

"YOU LOVE ME?? ARE YOU SERIOUSLY SAYING THAT TO ME!! NO ONE BETRAY AND HID SOMETHING LIKE THIS TO SOMEONE THEY LOVE!! YOU HIDE TO ME THAT YOU ARE ALREADY HAVE YOUR FIANCE WHEN HERE I AM THE MOST IDIOTIC PERSON IN THIS SETUP THOUGHT THAT YOU AND ME ARE GONNA BE MARRIED SOMEDAY!! SO WHO AM I REALLY IN THIS?? THE ONE WHO WILL JUST GIVE BIRTH TO YOUR CHILDREN, ACT LIKE WE ARE A FAMILY, ACT LIKE YOU LOVE ME BUT IN THE END YOU WILL JUST ABANDON ME AND BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE!! IS THAT IT?? IS THAT IT?? AM I GETTING NEAR YOUR PLAN??" He angrily said to me

I can't believe I'm hearing this from him. Is my love that dense to him? Am I that kind person to him?

"Are you thinking of me as that kind of person!!! Is my love for you seem like nothing now?? Is it Bii?" I asked him, I know I'm not in the right position now to question him but I just can't help myself to ask him. I know for myself how deep my love for him. I can do everything for myself. I can give up everything just for him!! He is the only person I let in. Only him

He seems to take back my question on him but his face became full of anger again

"I don't know Mew!! You're making me feel this way!! I don't know!!" He started to cry again

"I gave my everything to you!! You are my first love, Mew. I gave you everything and this is what you will give back to me?? You say that you love me but why are you hurting me this way, Mew!! Why!! I don't know if I look easy on you or you saw me as someone you can betray and belied anytime you won't cause me?? After everything, I can never do this to you!! I can't!! So tell me why Mew!! Please tell me why!! Make me understand cause I'm about to go crazy already!! Please tell me!!" He is crying so hard right now. He looks so hurt and devastated. I didn't mean all of this.

I'm crying so hard not just because of the pain that I'm feeling right now but because I saw how much pain Gulf is right now!! I gradually walk near him and did the thing that I thought I will never do my whole life.

I went on my knees.

I kneel in front of him.

He looked so shocked upon seeing me kneeling in front of him. I don't care about anything right now!! My pride?? I don't care about that anymore. I will do everything for him to stay with me. I will do everything to get him back!

"I'm sorry baby!! Please believe me when I say that I love you!! I love you so much that I can't contain it anymore. You are my only love! You are my life! You are my everything! You and our babies!! I'm so sorry that I've caused this much pain!! I didn't mean to do it. Please baby!! Listen to my explanation first. Please, Please baby!! I'm begging you!! Please don't leave me! Please don't leave me! Please baby!! Please"

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Gulf POV

"I'm sorry baby!! Please believe me when I say that I love you!! I love you so much that I can't contain it anymore. You are my only love! You are my life! You are my everything! You and our babies!! I'm so sorry that I've caused this much pain!! I didn't mean to do it. Please baby!! Listen to my explanation first. Please, Please baby!! I'm begging you!! Please don't leave me. Please don't leave me! Please baby!! Please" I was shocked when I saw how Mew kneels in front of me. He looked so desperate. I'm so hurt right now that there is a part of me now that just wants to escape all of this. But there is also a much bigger part of me that still loves that man who is kneeling in front of me right now.

My mind and my heart is fighting so hard in front of me. What should I do! I'm hurt!! I feel betrayed. The man whom I thought will never hurt me is the reason why I'm hurting so much right now.

What should I do! Please tell me what I should do!! My body is started to feel weak again!!

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I know how much my mind hates Mew right now. I hate him for lying to me. I hate him for hiding things on me. I hate him. I hate him so much but my heart.

My heart keeps shouting that this is Mew. This is the man whom I surrendered my whole. I surrendered my body, my soul, and most especially my heart. I gave him my heart and I know sure that aside from him there is no one else who can ever make me do the same.

I love him still!! I still love him so much. I will only love him. so even if my mind is telling

"GO! GET YOURSELF OUT OF HERE!! SAVE YOURSELF FROM THIS MAN!!"

But my heart is not letting me, and what about my children. We are about to have our about to welcome our children. so I did what I think is right. I did what my heart is telling me to do.

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I dropped on my knees and I face him.

I held his face and make him look at me.

He looks like a child who is so lost right now.

He looks so devastated.

I looked at him as he looked at me and started to speak.

"Explain everything to me, Mew!! Explain everything and I will listen" I tried my best to smile at him like I'm not hurt.

"Baby!!" He exclaimed and hug me

"I'm so sorry baby! I didn't mean to hurt you!! My marriage plan with Megan happen before I even met you, you know me already right. I told you how much I'm afraid to love before. Even now!! I'm still new to this. I thought I will never have the courage to break all the walls I created to protect me from Love. I never thought I would meet someone like you!! You made me fall in love with you the minute that I saw you. You made me want to change everything that I plan for my life. I was so afraid before that I decided to just marry Megan as an agreement. We don't love each other baby!! We are just friends, Business partners maybe. Our family is a rival when in this hotel industry. Because I thought before that I will never love somebody, I choose to just marry Megan so that our family can merge someday. But it was just an agreement baby!! Like a contract. No feelings attached. We both thought at that time that it will benefit both our families if we did this. We both don't believe in love before but we still have a responsibility to our family and our legacy. We both are the only child for both families, we need to have our children so that someday they can inherit all of this. Our relationship is just an agreement baby! We are friends, yes but nothing more than that ever. I plan to stop it the moment I met you but at that till now, Megan is in Paris. I have to break off our wedding plan personally as a courtesy to her and her family. I didn't mean to lie and hide anything from you baby!! I don't. I'm just waiting for the right time. I didn't know that she will come back today! I admit that I was a coward that I didn't tell you all about it earlier but I thought I'm protecting you!! I don't want you to think that you have a rival for me because you don't Bii!! You never have. You are the only one for me. I'm too afraid about your reaction that I decided to just wait until I fix everything with Megan!! I know I'm wrong. I'm sorry bii!! Please believe me, baby!! Please! I'm begging you!! I can't lose you!! I can't! Please!"

Mew said to me while still hugging me tightly. I feel overwhelmed right now. I now understand him but there is still part of me that doubts him. I can't blame myself for feeling this. I just love him so much that I'm so afraid that this is just a dream. That everything is destined to happen. I'm just so afraid to lose him.

I let go of myself from our hug and look at him, he is still crying so hard.

"I'm so sorry for not telling you about this early on baby!! Please forgive me. I love you!! I love you so much. Please believe me. Please. I'm begging you! Please!" He looks so desperate and so sad. It breaks my heart more to see him like this more than what I felt earlier.

I know I still feel betrayed and hurt because of what happened but what can I do. I held his face and went closer to me. Our distance from each other faces is just an inch away. We are looking at each other eyes, reading one another taught.

"I love you so much too Boo that it hurts knowing that you hide this big aspect of your life on me but my love for you is greater than anything!! I believe you boo! I believe you! I want to believe you!! I chose to believe you!! You know what, I thought first if I can live without you!! I can survive without you but I chose not too!! I don't want to live without you. but please don't do this again. Don't hide anything from me for whatever reason you may have. I don't care whatever reason you may have in the future but if you do this again. I don't think I can ever forgive you like now. Please boo!!" I sincerely said to me

"I promise bii!! I love you so much!! I will never hide anything from you again!! I promise. I love you so much, my baby!!" He smilingly said to him. I just continue to look at him and try to think but I know for sure what I feel and what I want.

I want him!! I want him still!!

I just pulled him by his nape and started kissing him torridly. I love this man so much. I love him with all my heart.

I let go and looked at him again

"I love you too Boo. I love you so much father of children. I love you!!"

to be continued

A/N

I hope this is okay Mi-Loves
I don't want to hurt Gulf more. It dangerous for his babies!!

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