Gulf POV

I was crying so hard while hearing what Mew said. The whole time I was afraid that Mew will abandon me and will never listen to me. I thought he was just doing this because of our children which until now for me is so surreal. I've known about my pregnancy the first time I got unconscious because of much crying that I did hearing what the second round of doctor tells me about my dad condition.

I was hopeful that this time there will be changes. I hired the best doctors in the US and fly them here to Thailand but it's still the same. I was hopeless at that time but then the most unexpected news came to me while I'm in at the lowest point of my life. The best news I have ever heard.

After a while, we then let go of each other. He was just busy wiping my remaining tears away. He looks at me straight in the eyes. The love on his every look is so visible and it radiates directly to me

"Are you okay baby?? Is there something hurting in you? Are you feeling uncomfortable or something. Please tell me, baby!"

"Mew, do you still love me despite everything," I asked him sincerely, he then held my hand tightly before speaking to me

"I love you so much, baby!! I love you so much not because I found out that you are pregnant with my child but because of everything. It only made me realize how much I can't lose you. I love you so much, baby!! I love you and our future baby!!" I'm so happy about everything that he is saying right now that it made me cry so much again. He just continues to wipe my tears while trying to calm me down

"Please stop crying baby!! It will hurt our babies!! You remember what the doctor had told us right? You cannot be stressed!! it will endanger our babies. I'm sure they will be sad if they feel that their mommy is sad. Please baby! Please stop crying!! I can't see you like this." He repeated to say to me. I'm trying to stop too but it seems that my tears have their own life that it won't listen to me to stop.

"I'm really sorry Mew. I didn't mean to hide my pregnancy from you. I'm confused just so about it too. Even though last week, the doctor already told me about this, I still couldn't believe it and also I was afraid for it to be true. I don't know what to do Mew. I'm so afraid!! I don't think I can do this alone. No!! I'm afraid to do this alone! I don't want to do this alone especially if you are not here! I'm so sorry that I left you on the Island Mew! I didn't mean to do it but after I got the news about my dad. I can't think of anything else at that time. I just want to go home and be with my dad. I'm so sorry Mew! I didn't mean to forget about you. I just." I was speaking but Mew interrupted me

"What? What happens to your dad. Where is he. is he okay" He asked me then I started to cry again because I remember about my dad.

"He is dying Mew! My dad is dying! I thought he was okay. He said he was okay that is why I got to go to that Island for my vacation. He said he was doing okay then his cancer metastasis to his heart and form another tumor. They operated on him to remove it but he suffered a stroke during his operation. He is now in a coma Mew! My dad is in a coma! I feel like my world had collapsed right in front of me. I feel so hopeless that I can't do anything to save him. I can't do anything for my dad. He lives his life making sure that I'm okay. That I live comfortably but here I am just watching wither right in front of me." I was crying really hard while saying to Mew. He quickly pulled me into a tight hug.

"I'm really sorry baby!! I didn't know you suffered so much without me. I'm so sorry that I only added to your problem if only I know about it. I'm so sorry baby!! Don't worry about your dad baby! I'm sure he will continue to fight for you!! Especially right now that we are having our baby!! I'm sure it will only add to his reason to fight baby!! and I'm here. I'm here with you now. You will not have to be afraid anymore. I'm here baby!! I'm here!!" He said while caressing my back. I tried to calm myself again because I want to tell him everything. I don't want to leave anything without telling him everything that happens. I let go myself from his embrace started to speak again

" I want to tell you everything Mew. I want to tell you everything that happens when you are not here with me. I know you said that you are okay even though I don't tell you anything anymore but I'm not!! I want to be completely honest with you!! If we both want to make us work. We have to start to me being truthful to you." I said to him.

He just looked at me for a few seconds and he nodded telling me that he ready to listen to me.

"I was busy handling our firm alone while taking care of my dad. I was literally juggling myself between my dad and our company. I want to focus on my dad but I can't really abandon our firm. Like what I told you in my presentation. Our company is the fruit of my dad and mom's hardship and perseverance. I don't want to disappoint them by neglecting the company that they took care for so many years that I completely forget about myself. I admit I forgot to take care of my body that resulted for me to collapsed. " He looked shocked when he heard that I collapsed.

Flashback

Hours after I became unconscious in my father's room, here I am laying in the emergency room bed. I don't know why it happen to me. I never collapsed before, Maybe it was because of my lack of food and drinks for the past weeks.

How can I eat and take care of myself if I can see how my father is struggling to fight for his life. I really want to go back to him but the doctor doesn't let me. They advise me to stay here to finish my IV fluid to aid my dehydration. They have drawn some blood from me to do some tests. I don't really know what it is for so I just let them so I can finally go back to my father.

I pursued Mild to stay at my father's side cause I'm afraid something might happen to him when I was not there and no one is there to monitor him. I starting to get restless but I'm trying my best to be patient.

After a while of waiting. A doctor approaches me, I tried to sit up but he stopped me.

"Hi, Doc! Do you have my result yet?? I have been nervously waiting for you to come back? Is there something wrong with me because I never collapsed like that before. Am I sick or something?" I nervously called him.

"Actually before I told you about the result, May I ask you some questions for our additional analysis. Have you been experiencing symptoms like you are always dizzy, hungry about food, tired, and want to vomit." Doctor asked me made me think so hard if I ever experience those things and now that I think about it.

"As a matter of fact Yes doc. I have been feeling weird these past few weeks. I'm easily tired even though I'm just sitting. I'm always hungry but when I tried to eat something I will just throw up all of it. Then recently I started to lose my appetite. Why is this happening to my doc? Am I really sick like my dad. My dad is currently in a coma because of his cancer? AM I" I can't help but feel a little panic while realizing all the things that I've been going thru this past few days

"Actually Sir, We are struggling too in the beginning but your blood test confirms it. We already checked it multiple times to be sure because this kind of case is very rare that even I don't know that it can happen but to make sure I would like to ask you to consult for an OB check-up." The doctor seriously said to me which made me feel more anxious

"What do you mean doc!! Why do I need to get checked by an OB. Isn't OB for ." He didn't let me finish.

"Your intuition is right Sir, base on your blood test, I can conclude that you are pregnant." The doctor said to me

End of flashback

Still Gulf POV

"I was so afraid to know for sure Mew. I don't think I can handle knowing that I'm really pregnant but you are not here for me. I don't know what I will do to face this alone. I'm so afraid Mew. I'm so afraid."

Mew just held my hand.

"You don't have too baby!! I'm here. I'm here for you! I will never let you go again!! I will do everything to make sure that you and our babies are safe and will forever stay with me. I love you so much, baby!! You love me still right??" He asked me.

"I love you, Mew, it will never stop. I will never stop loving you!! I'm sorry that I've hurt you!! I don't want to but I did. I'm so sorry Mew. Please don't leave me. Please don't leave me and our babies!! Please! I don't know what will I do if you leave me. Please don't be tired of me! Please, Mew!! Please I'm begging you." I was begging him. I don't want to lose him again. I can't lose him especially now!! I need him now more than anything!! I need him.

I was crying so hard when I felt him suddenly put lips against mine. I wasn't able to kiss him back because I was so shocked. He let go of me and held both of my faces. We are both an inch away from each other faces.

He was just looking at me intently.

"Remember this baby!! I, Mew Eziekiel Phawattakun Kirigun will never leave you and our kids ever. I'm forever stuck with you. I will always love you and our future family baby!! Don't be afraid anymore cause I'm not going anywhere. I'm never going away." He seriously said to me.

I can help but feel so happy while hearing what he said. I feel like I waited for so long enough to hear those words from him. I'm so very much happy!! We are looking at each other and slowly going near each other.

A few distances away and our lips are going to meet again. We going looking at each other lips until.

"I think everything is okay now hon!!" Suddenly, We both heard someone talk coming from the door.

We quickly move away from each other and looked who is it.

"Your right hon!! I think everything is okay no!" Mild teasingly said to his boyfriend.

I can only look away from them because of so much shyness while Mew is laughing upon realizing that Mild and Champ has been watching us

GOD!! That was so embarrassing!!

To be continued

A/N

And the craving sessions began. Any suggestion for his cravings?

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