Amanda Pov

Danny and I were out, doing God knows what, but whatever we were doing, it was fun, well that was until I saw somebody who looked like my mother, so naturally I started to panic, because if that was her, it meant that Gary was there too, (because you can't have one without the other).

"Danny, we need to go"
"What, why's that Babe?"
"I think that I just saw my mother"
"Is this a bad thing?"
"Yes, it's a bad thing"
"Why's that?"
"Well that means that he found me Danny"
"Who's-?"
"He's the reason why I'm in America in the first place"

Poor Danny just looked so confused about everything, (and I don't blame him here, as he literally knew nothing about my birth family), but I didn't have time to explain everything to him, (I mean it was the difference between life and death here, so I couldn't take that chance, ya know).

"Well shit, ok, uh, so we're acting like it's not a drill?"
"Yeah that's the safest option that we have here right now"
"Ok Babe"

So we really fucking ran for our lives, as you do, my heart was pounding in my chest, I felt like I was gonna throw up right there and then,(thankfully I didn't but it still a fucking scary feeling, ya know), (I have a fear of puking, no not of puke itself, because weirdly I'm fine if someone else pukes, but if I puke, it's game over for me), (and game over meant risking death, which I did not want to risk here)

We got to the car, (to which I thanked God for, as I genuinely thought that I was going to puke before we did), (or that we'd get caught, take that as you will), (or don't, you're an adult here), (unless you're not an adult, then I'm sorry for being a shit influence on you dear reader).

Danny then started to drive us home, (I was in no fit state to drive us home and he could see that), Danny did look a bit concerned about me but he knew me enough to not push me to giving him answers at that point, (which I did really appreciate, since I probably would've puked if I attempted to talk right then and there, ya know).

Anyway, we were about 20 minutes away from arriving at home, which I was grateful for as we had been in the car for a few hours at that point in time, (which was quite boring under normal circumstances, ya know, well that or it gets boring as a care kid), (though that time I had zoned out for most of the journey), (though what is it about driving for hours on end do you bloody Americans like?, because I cannot for the life of me fathom how you could actually enjoy that).

"How are you feeling now Mandy?"
"Well I still feel a bit meh, but I'll be ok"
"Can I ask what that was about?"
"I revealed that my Step Dad snitched on this gang leader to try and disassociate myself from what happened to me because of them, which totally backfired on me as that lead to a death threat, so I had to illegally change my identity, Terry had to as well"
"Is there not a version of witness protection program in England?"
"(Snorts), No, there is not, but even if there was, well I'm a care kid so they wouldn't want to know about it"

Danny looked a bit worried about that statement, (though I'd feel the same way if I was in his shoes here), he squeezed my hand to make sure that I was ok, which helped a little bit, it didn't make any feelings of paranoia go away, but it did take the edge off that paranoia for me, if that makes any sense to you, (it made perfect sense to me so that's all that matters when it comes to this stuff).

I felt bloody terrible about worrying Danny, (yes I know that people do worry about the people that they love, but that doesn't really stop me feeling bad about it, ya know), my head was all over the place with the 'what if' scenarios running through at 120mph, (yes I know that it's oddly specific of me but that's what I felt, ya know).

I squeezed Danny's hand back to make sure that he wasn't too worried about me, (plus it's like sending out a mini 'I love you' to the person that you love, which sounds like a good thing, ya know), (if the whole 'sending an I love you' thing makes any sense to you my dear reader), (it probably doesn't and that's ok if that's the case).