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I gasped it be suddenly pinned down by him, "I'll make this last be the best~" Tom said getting close to my neck, "better then that commies," he muttered but I heard him.

Tords POV

It's been a long stressful day. Mr. Davis not telling me what I need to know, soldiers not doing what they are so post to do, god damnit, all I want to do right now is be with y/n.

"Sir, when will you like us to go get her?" Pat asked me as I filled out paperwork. I checked the time, "you can start to go now, but I'll come with you guys," I said. I set down my pen and stood up. "Are you sure sir?" He asked and I nodded. "Let's go," I said as I lead him out of my office.

Y/n's POV

I can't believe what I did with Tom. We didn't have sex... we were close to, but we decided to stop before we got too far... but we also did at the same time... if you know what I mean on that.. let's just saw he was able to see everything and we did many things to each other, And he proved me wrong may I add.

But I do regret it.. a lot.. now I'm just worried of him finding out.

I was sitting on the couch. Next to Tom, Edd, and Matt on the other side of Edd. I was overthinking everything. No I don't blame Tom for anything, it was me who let it happen. I just hope I can just forget all about it.

A knock was soon heard at the door. I must be them. I stood up, "I'll get it for you guys," I said quietly and walked over to the door. I opened it and to no surprise, pat was standing there. "Ready to go?" He asked me. I looked over at the guys, "yeah... one minute please and I'll be out," I said softly closing the door again. "Hey guys.. I got to get going soon," I said walking over to them.

"Already?" Matt asked. I nodded and opened my arms, "But the movie just started," Matt whines and stood up and gave me a hug. "Don't worry I will come back guys," I said as I gave edd a hug. "Promise me that please?" Edd asked me. I chuckled softly "I promise Edd," I said smiling. Then I hugged Tom. "Promise to keep that promise?" Tom asked in a joking way. I chuckled and nodded "of course," I said softly.

After I pulled away I said my final goodbyes to them and went on my way. I headed out of the house and into the car. I smiled when I saw Tord.

"How was is it min kjærlighet?" (My love) Tord asked pulling me into a hug. "It was good," I said softly and kissed his cheek. "Is everything alright?" I asked him. "I've just been stressed out, but I've been looking forward into seeing you," Tord says softly. "Awe," I said softly. I hugged him again, it was nice seeing him but my guilt from what I did with Tom was shadowing; and I just realized something. Tom made a hickey on my neck. I'm going to have to hide that from him... I don't have any makeup to use on it either to hide it. I fucked it big time...

Tord soon moved me onto his lap, so we were able to hug each other better. He buried his face into my neck and I smiled. I closed my eyes softly enjoying the long hug we had. It lasted until we reached his base. Which when we got our Tord picked me up and began to carry me.

"Torddd you don't need to carry me," I laughed softly. He looked down at me smiling. His damn smile always makes me remember why I love him so much. "Well because I want to," he says and he continued to carry me. I leaned up to kiss his cheek. "I love you goof," I chuckled softly. "I love you more my cute-mess," he says.

We soon got to the room. I changed and sit on the bed. I looked up at him as he came to me, he was smiling... but then it quickly changed. He leans down, "what is that?" He asked tilting my head, revealing the hickey Tom made. My eyes widened as my heartbeat quickened.

Tords POV

I saw a spot on her neck. It looked like a hickey... I swear to god if it was...

"Oh that! Matt wanted to test a few things out with my hair.. and.. uh..- we actually nicked a spot on my neck with the flattening iron.." she said. I watched her as she spoke, she covered her neck rubbing the spot. She was lying to me...

"Y/n... what happened... what really happened because I know that is a fucking hickey.." I said in a more angry tone. "N-no Tord! I-it's not-" "y/n stop lying to me!" I said. I tried to not raise my voice at her.

"Was it that fucking Jehovah witness?!" I asked her. "Tord no, please I-" she was going to lie again. So that Jehovah witness did make a hickey on her. I just felt... empty... "y/n stop fucking lying!! I know that Jehovah witness did this! I can't believe you!" I said turning away from her. I began to think about what Mr. Davis was saying... he was right...

"Do you even love me." I asked her in a cold tone. I turned to look at her. "Yes Tord! I do," she said as she started to tear up. "Then why the fuck would you already cheat on me, with fucking Tomas! Why?!!" I asked raising my voice. "If you fucking loved me then you would have stayed loyal. That's all I've fucking been to you. I trusted you, I gave you everything you needed, I fucking loved you with everything I had!! But then you go of, screwing off that fucking Jehovah witness!!!" I yelled a bit. She began to cry... but I didn't feel bad.

"Tord... just listen to me please..." y/n said as she began to cry. I watched her, with a stone cold face. "I didn't know what I was thinking, but I do love you. I love you so much Tord you don't even know. I've loved you for years, and I could never go back..." she said. I sighed trying to calm down but I just felt so hurt. "Did Jehovah force you to do whatever you did with him, or did you allow it?" I asked. She didn't answer me and I just sighed having enough of this.

"I'm done. I'm fucking done." I said walking to my door. "Tord please don't leave-" "too fucking bad." I said coldly to her, "go back to the others if you want them so badly, call Jehovah; he'll pick you up." I said before I left the room. I made my way to my office, I locked my doors and went to my desk.

I sat there. I just felt so hurt... I don't feel anything at the moment except sadness and rage...

I soon broke down... first time that ever happened in years. I covered my face in my hands as I just cried quietly. Here I am, a great and powerful leader, crying about someone who I thought I could trust, someone I even loved for the longest time...

Y/n's POV

I just sat there sobbing. I hid my face in my hands crying non-stop. Regretting every choice I made.. did I just lose the only person I ever loved? Probably.

I went and lay down on the bed. I curled up and hugged a pillow just for comfort. Why did I do this? Why did I do this to myself? To Tord, and to Tom....

I sit up trying to think how I can talk to Tord. I though of calling his office phone so I did. I had to do something to make it up to him. I don't want him to go after Tom and kill him...

He didn't answer the first call, but he answered the second time I called. "Red leader speaking," I heard him speak. I sniffled slightly, "Tord.... please come back.." I cried quietly. "I-I want to talk to you... please..." I said in a sad tone. I heard him sigh and stay silent for a while. "Why do you want to when you can just be happy with Tom..." I heard him say. Was he crying too?

"Tord I am happy with you... can you please come back... I want to talk to you in here..." I said. I slightly bit the fabric on my sleeve. I sniffled again as he spoke, "y/n I don't want to see you right now... you don't understand how much you hurt me... especially doing shit like that with another guy, specifically that Jehovah..... you don't get it..." he said. I sighed closing my eyes as tears go down my cheeks. "Tord... please... I'm not going to leave.. I don't want to go to them.. I just want you..." I said in a sad way. I choked back more tears. "I-I don't want to l-lose you again..." I cried out. I cried harder but tried to stay quiet but it was hard to.

He stayed silent for a while. He the hung up on me. I set down the phone, curled up and cried more and harder. I fucked up big time and it's all my fault. Not Toms, not Tords, but my fault. I was wearing his old hoodie and I just put the hood up and hugged the pillow again, crying into it.

He didn't come back to the room that night. I slept alone in his bed, I don't know where he went to sleep but he needed it more then me. God I fucked up bad.

When I woke up I sighed to not seeing Tord next to me in the morning. I fought back tears as i just felt very guilty and alone. I sit up sighing softly as a tear goes down my cheek.

I then saw Tord come out from his bathroom. He was in his uniform pants but shirtless. I guess he just took a shower but I didn't dare look at him. I looked away and fought back my tears but more slipped out. I didn't say anything either, just the awkward silence between us made things harder or me. I tried to stay quiet and I sniffled.

"I'm sorry for not being there." I heard him say in an unamused tone. I didn't respond. "I'm sorry you had to go to someone else to feel loved." Tord continued and I just cried. More. I soon looked up to see him looking at me at the end of the bed. He had a emotionless expression while I looked a bit red with tears going down my face.

I finally spoke and said, "I'm sorry Tord..." I said quietly. He gave me a blank expression and I just looked down. "I-I still love you..." I quietly cried. I hid my face again, Bringing my knees to the back of my hands. I heard him sigh. "Get up." I heard him say but he was closer to me. I uncovered my face and stood up. I didn't look up at him at all.

I gasped to the feeling of him suddenly picking me up, and then pulling me into a tight embrace. My eyes widened as I quickly wrapped my legs around his waist and wrapped my arms around his neck. I softly cried into his shoulder. This just made me cry more.

I felt him sit down but kept me on him. "Shhh... don't cry y/n..." Tord said to me quietly. This just made it worse. I kept crying into him. "I'm so sorry..." I cried out quietly. I kept repeating that every now and then.

"Y/n... shhh, just listen to my voice... it's ok... I forgive you y/n.." he said calmly. "I don't like seeing you cry like this y/n..." he continued and holding me tighter.

I slowly calmed down. Still holding onto him tightly. "I love you..." I said quietly, just hoping he will say it back.

"I love you too y/n.." he says softly. He slowly pulled away to look at me. He wipes my cheek with his thumb and cupped my cheek. His expression was different, at least it wasn't.. emotionless and more mad looking. I won't lie, that kinda scared me when I saw him like that.

I looked up at him, gently cupping his scared side and I saw a tear go down his cheek. I gently whipped that tear away. I lean up to gently peck him on the lips. I looked up at him again. He leans in and kissed me but we kept the kiss there longer. I adjusted myself, I straddle his legs getting closer to him. It was a more comfortable way  to sit on him. It made it easier to kiss him and everything.

We slowly pulled away and looked at each other. Tord gave me a soft smile. I sighed softly still jerking guilty. "I'm sorry how I acted last night... I just.. that wasn't right of you to do what you did either. I just over reacted..." Tord said rubbing my cheek softly. "Tord no... it's my fault Tord. I shouldn't have done what I did," I said with guilt. Tord sighed softly and kissed my head, "let's just forget about it... just make sure this will be the last time with will happen.." Tord said hugging me again.

"I promise.." I said quietly. I buried my face into his neck, enjoying the time I had with him.

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I'm really surprised how far this book got, I see a lot of other books who end at chapter ten with only 500 words per chapter or more.

I just hope you guys like this book, I really enjoy writing it. I honestly don't know when this will end but I don't want to make this too long.

Love you all. Please stay safe and stay inside -LB

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