(WARNING: slight smut, strong language)
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Tord nodded and soon headed off. I got into the car along with the other two and the road trip began.

Toms pov

I was sitting on the couch with Edd and Matt. I sighed watching the screen as the words became a fuzz to my ear. I was lost in thought, just thinking about anything.

I snapped back into reality when I heard the doorbell ring. "Tom go get it.." Edd says. I rolled my eyes getting up. "Lazy-ass..." it muttered as I soon opened the door. My eyes widened to what I saw.

"Hey Tom," y/n said who was standing In front of me. I immediately went to give her a tight hug. I was relived seeing her again. "Tom who is it?" Edd asked soon getting up. I heard him gasp and run over to hug y/n too.

"Are you ok?!" Edd said franticly. Y/n just simply nodded and chuckled, "I'm fine guys don't worry," she says in a sooth tone. Matt ran over as soon as he heard her voice. "What happened?" "What did he do?" "Why did he do this?"

"Guys enough," y/n said as we just kept asking questions. "I'll tell you more inside, it's a bit warm out here," she says and we soon welcomed her in. "So, What happened?" I asked her. "Nothing too bad, and I'm serious about that." She says looking at me.

Y/n's POV

I was happy to see them all again. But too many questions asked at once.

"What do you mean by that?" Edd asked me. "Well... I know you guys don't look at Tord the same way anymore.. but..-" "don't tell me you two are together?" Tom cut me off. He gave me a heartbroken look. And I felt bad. "Hear me out on that... yes I am.. but... he hasn't hurt me at all.. he was the Tord I used to know whenever he was around me and he always acted that way even in front of other people. No I don't know what he is like behind my back but.. I trust him.." I said quietly. Edd and Matt didn't seem too affected by my decision but Tom on the other hand. He was a different story of many emotions.

"But y/n, he almost killed you," Tom said to me. "Did he tell you why he did what he did?" Edd asked me too. I never thought of asking tord that. "I don't know why.. but he doesn't act like what.." I said. "Well... I'm not going to criticize you for your decision, but just be carful.." Edd said. I smiled at Edd, "thank you," I said softly. It meant a lot for at least someone to support me.

"It's really nice to have you back though. We have been worried for months about you," Edd says, hugging me again. I hugged back tightly. "I'm sorry too guys.. but at least I'm here now," I said slowly pulling away from him. "How long are you staying?" Matt asked with sparkles in his eyes. "Maybe the whole night, if not then later tonight," I said softly.

"That's great! So what do you want to do?" Edd asked. "Spend time with you all, Duh," I chuckled softly. "I can do separately or all together," I suggested. "Can I got first! I wanna show you my new collection!" Matt says. "Edd you can go second, I'll go last," Tom said. I was disappointed that he wanted to be last but maybe I can talk to him without any distractions later. "Sure, lets do that," I smiled and went to go follow matt.

Tom's POV

It was a long day. But I took this time to think to things to talk with y/n about. I really want to make the time I have reasonable and meaningful. Then I could try to change her mind about being with that commie...

"Hey Tom," I then heard y/n's soft voice. I turned to look at her, "hey," I said. "Well it's your turn now, I was thinking maybe after this we all can go watch a movie together," y/n said. She walked over to my bed and sits next to me. "Sure," I said softly. The sun was setting and just the golden light from the window on her made her look more beautiful.

"So.. I'm sorry if edd or matt has talked to you about this already, but what all happened to you? What did he do to you?" I asked her in concern. I didn't want her to be annoyed with me asking.

"No you are fine, only Edd asked me.. um. So at the beginning I was afraid, don't get me wrong anyone would be afraid. But later on, I talked to Tord a few times. I tried looking past through what he did and he truly did show that he cares about me. I know that you guys do too.. but you know my reasoning behind this..." y/n said. "Yeah... but you know how I am with him and you being together..." I said. She sighed but kept eye contact with me, "yeah I know, but just trust me that I know what I'm doing.." she says gently grabbing my hand. I blushed a little bit as I just stared. I could get lost in her beautiful e/c eyes. I leaned in a bit closer. Just a little bit so it wasn't too noticeable.

I then reached my other hand to rest it on top of hers. "Do you trust me..?" She asked softly. I sighed looking the other way but she cupped my cheek and made me looked at her. "Please?" She asked.

I gently held her wrist that was on my cheek and soon placed my hand over her hand. "You know I love you... and I just don't trust him..." I said a bit upset. "I love you too but-" "no y/n, I love you more then just my friend, I've already told you this and I just don't get why you run back to him every time... what am I doing wrong?" I asked in a upset tone. I really just wanted her all to myself, make her feel safe, be able to have her friends and myself to help her....

"Tom.. it's hard to let go of someone you've liked for a while... it's kinda what you are doing with me. It's hard to let go of me and it's hard for me to let go of Tord... what if I did something bad, would you still want to love me?" Y/n asked me. I thought of about what she said. Yes I would still love her because I know she isn't like that....

"Yes I would... but.." I couldn't say anything else. She was right. "I'm sorry y/n.." I sighed looking down again. "Tom please don't be upset..." y/n said trying to get me to look back up. "I'm not... im just a bad friend," I sighed looking back at her. She then hugged me.

I hugged back tightly and felt her get closer to me. I didn't want to let go. We slowly pulled away but instead of me letting go. I leaned in to kiss her again. I couldn't help it.

Y/n's POV

After we pulled away slightly I was surprised to Tom kissing me. I froze honestly, but... I'll make this the last time we do this... so I kissed back.

I know this was wrong to do against Tord but.. this will only be once.. I don't want him to end up finding out.

Tom and I began to make the kiss.. more heated. I felt him slowly push me down, I placed my arm behind myself to I would go down smoothly without breaking the kiss.

Tom was now on top of me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he got closer to me, pushing himself between my legs. Guilt began to rise in me.

I let out a hum as we soon pulled away for air. I pant softly as Tom rests his forehead on mine. "I'm sorry y/n..." he said to me. I was bit surprised to hear that but I then sighed. "Don't be... but.. can we make the the last time we do this? I don't want Tord to find out what we did..." I said quietly. I blushed seeing him on top of me.. just the way he was looking at me... I couldn't help it but pull him down one last time into a kiss.

We didn't take it slow, we immediately went down into a make out session. I moaned slightly from this, I blushed more feeling toms hand slowly go up my shirt. I groaned softly to the feeling of him groping me. I moan again holding onto him tightly. I blushed more as more guilt filled me. I soon pulled away myself, got out from underneath him and sighed sitting up, "I'm sorry Tom.... I don't know what I was thinking..." I said. Tom sits beside me again, not looking at me, "I'm sorry again too..." Tom says. "This will be the last time..." Tom says once more, and looked at me again. I looked at him sighing.

I just felt extremely guilty, maybe I shouldn't stay the night...

"Let's just forget what happened Tom... let's just trying to spend as much time together as we can," I said. I tried to lighten up the mood so it wouldn't be awkward.

And then it went on from there; I'm not going to go into detail about everything we talked about. It was mainly about.. Tord. As we talked more and more I felt a bit better about what happened even know it was more of my fault.

Tom then suddenly gasped, "you had sex with this guy?!" He said out loudly. I cringed and sighed out of annoyance. "Tom Shh! I trust you to keep that quiet. We only did once.." I spoke quietly.

"But y/n, you really helped that guy get laid?" Tom chuckled as I just gave him a glare. "Tom, have you ever been laid before? I don't think so, so you have no place to say that," I huffed crossing my arms. "Whoa, whoa, y/n I'm just joking... kinda... besides that, are you actually being serious about that?" Tom asked me. I rolled my eyes, "yes Tom," I said plainly.

"Does Edd know about it?" Tom asked me and I shook my head no. "He'd be more upset than you are with that Tom," I said softly. "Not to be nosy or.. weird about it but, was he at least good?" Tom asked giving a smug grin. He was probably expecting me to say no. "He actually was really good, I don't want to rub it in on you... you know... but... yeah, he was," I said softly. "Really, for a guy who only watches hentai and jacks off 24/7 to it," Tom says laughing and I rolled my eyes once more. "Oh shut up Tom, you really can't be saying stuff like that for a guy who hasn't done that stuff, and is probably a virgin," I said jokingly and laughed. "Oh no I'm not," Tom said crossing his arms.

"Oh really?" I asked jokingly. "I can't really say prove it, but-" "I proved it earlier basically," Tom said, I growled at his smirk. "Ohhh- a kiss is such a daring, extreme thing to do! You are totally right," I said in a very sarcastic tone. "Oh shut up, I'll make you," Tom said, but in a more serious tone. I smirked at that, "then make me," I said testing him. "I can't. we agreed that we'd only do what we did once. I keep promises y/n," he said.

I sighed, he was right but I wanted to see what he would do,"well..." I thought about it, and finally made my decision. "we can do that... just one last time.." I said. "Are you sure y/n?" Tom asked me. I watched him, "yes I'm sure," I said. I'll most likely regret my decision later.

I gasped it be suddenly pinned down by him, "I'll make this last be the best~" Tom said getting close to my neck, "better then that commies," he muttered but I heard him.

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I know, I cut it off at the best part.. in my opinion. But I'm trying to focus this on Tord. More of this stuff will happen in my Tom x reader "I'm not the monster on the inside" book that is still in progress. Of course, I'll finish this book first before I make faster updates on my other book.
Thank you all for showing support for this book, it truly means a lot to me.

Please stay safe and stay inside -LB

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