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Natsu POV

"Sleep with me." she stated. "Like what kind of sleep?" She smirked. "What kind of sleeping were you think I was talking about?"

"The... The sexual kind?" "Haha no Natsu. I ment sleep with me its getting late." He sighs. "Oh." She moves closer to me. "But... We can if you want."

She hugs me tight. I grab her hand. She gasps a little. I kissed her. "Lucy. I can never forgive myself for hurting you so badly.

I had no Idea I would do something like that." "Natsu. Its ok its over." She said gripping my shirt. I looked around her dark room.

"Lucy... Do you love me?" She didn't answer, So I ask again. "Do you love me?" She nods. "Yes...yes I do. I still love you!

I love you so much it kill's me. I was holding a grudge towards you but I can't anymore."

I smiled happily. "Thank you." I said. "Thank you for still loving me even even though I did all those things."

Lucy POV

"Oh and Lucy. I want to sleep with you." He said. My heart was pounding again.

i could feel my face get warm. "u-uhhh..." he chuckled. I could feel myself blush. "it isn't funny." i said. "no seriously. I don't mind..." he moves closer to my ear and whispers. "just being naughty for a day."

I shiver at his words. "n-n-n-n-" was all I could say.

-time skip-

I blush slightly and smiled at his sleeping face. I got up and went straight to the bathroom and changed. First I took a shower and thought about things long and hard.

I wanted Natsu to fix my problem. My problem is I have a broken heart. But that's not even half of my problem. I'm practically cursed.

As long as I'm a virgin, or pure no man will ever stay with me. And the worst thing yet is no man is suppose to know I'm cursed .

I can't say anything about it cause if I do I'll be cursed for the rest of my days. No man will ever love me. Even if they tried to date me it wouldn't ever work out. The man will either die,

run off with a women or there's obstacles in the way of our relationship. that's probably a reason why Natsu kicked me out of his team and chooses Lisanna over me.

I get dressed and walk out of the bathroom brushing my hair. that's when I decided I can't love Natsu. 'cause if I don't he wont get hurt. he'll die if I start to love him back.

Going through town I finally made it to the guild. A few people greeted me and the guild acted as though nothing happened. "Hey were getting the team back together. if that would be ok with you." Erza said. I gladly excepted the request smiling. Lisanna decided to go her own way.

Levy, Gajeel, Jellal and Juvia had talked to me. "Well it was fun." Juvia stated. "We can always work together its no big deal." Said Levy. "Just thanks... For staying with me and sticking with me, I really appreciate that." I said to them all.

"I can't take all this moshy talk." Gajeel said. "But when ever you need us... Were always there." He said sticking out his fist. I smirked and fist pounded it. They started to part.

Jellal stayed for a second. "you know did you hit it off with Erza?" I asked. we both glance at her then back at each other. "no. maybe. well I guess a little bit. " "well thats great. what happened to meredy?" "She is fine hanging out with the lima scale people." "well I hope for the best with you and Erza." he turns around.

"its been... fun."

I sigh and go sit down. I put both of my elbows on the table and placed my forehead in both of my palms. I sigh as I run both my hands through my hair.

Natsu sits next to me. "Hey." He said. "Hi." "I need your help." I said. "Oh is it that problem you needed me to fix?" I nod. "Well what is it?" "Well I can't tell you cause you have to figure it out." He looked confused. "How is that possible." He said.

"I don't know you would just have to guess or something before it's too late." He nods.

Natsu POV

I can't get anything Lucy is saying. How am I suppose to know what she needs help with if she cant tell me? Is it serious? Can she really not return my love back? It's because of what I did to her isn't it? Did i screw up

That bad or something? She sighs. I could tell there was a little frustration. " you know what forget it. I just can't love you, I can't." It felt like my heart was dropping down a black whole.

So what last night those words didn't mean anything? Did you lie so you could say what I wanted to hear?" She looked away. "Oh course not." "Then what?" "I just can't ok?" "Then whats the point?" "Guh! I hate you just go." I ball my hand into a fist.

"Lucy." I said trying to reach for her. "I'm done." She said getting up and leaving. I felt I wanted to go after her but my body wouldnt move. I don't get it. I'm confused. My feeling are confused. What the hell Lucy?!

One night you tell me you love me an the next day you hate me? I got up to go after her. We were in front of the guild. "Lucy stop!" "No! Don't follow me. Curse you! Curse this place, urse us, urse Lisanna, curse freaking love!"

She calms down and starts to walk backwards. "You know what.... just.... curse everything... like me." She starts to walk off. I took a breath and began to walk the opposite way so that she could get her space.

-time skip-

Night has come and I was still walking. I was walking in the park, but it just so happens I walked passed Levy sleeping by a tree. I went over and she had a book on her lap. but out of curiosity I looked at the page she stopped on.

Or•din•sin•ation

/ . ôrdn ' śI (ñ)n /

noun

1. A curse that is love related. Not being able to love someone or the person who is being loved dies.

I look up from the book. Then a flashback of Lucy came to me when I last saw her. "You know what....just curse everything... like me." My eyes winded. She's cursed? Is she? Is that why she can't love me?

I drop the book and started to run back to the guild. I have to know more about this.

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A/N: hello! i have been requested to update this book! comment and il update! dont forget to vote!