Hi, bunnies this book is on about real life problems and is very graphic. if you have or know anyone that have gone through this or are going through this and have not told anyone pls get in contact with NSPCC if there a child or teen but seek help through whoever it is if you don't have the NSPCC just realise people go through this every day. Thanx, bunnies and enjoy this might get you emotional and cry but it does get better.

Have you ever felt like you didn't belong?

Have you ever felt like no one cared for you?

Have you ever felt people are always judging you?

Every corner you turn people are looking at you and judging you. That's just the world.

HI, my name is Lucy Heartfilia and I'm 17 years old and I don't go to school so I have no friends and no mother but I have a rich and abusive father. I'm not emotionally abused, he... he rapes me. He said he does it because I look so much like my mum. When my mum died I was 7 my father didn't change he was just there for me like any other father would be but as my 8th birthday came so did puberty which meant periods and tits. It was torture and I'm glad you only go through it once, but as I was saying I would walk down to his study to get a book and here strange noises coming from inside there I would brush it off and decided not to go in there. One day though I really needed a book and I couldn't wait it was for my studies I was about 10. I knocked lightly on my father's study door and opened the door as I walked in I saw my father had his trousers at his ankles and the maids dress was up I wasn't stupid I had been told about the birds and the bees. I quickly turned around and closed the door. I total forgot the book and ran back to my room. A.bout five minutes later the same maid came in and asked to talk I just nodded I didn't care. She started off talking by saying she really loved my dad and I better not spoil it for her because she really wanted to become rich. About a minute before she said that my father had walked in and heard what she said he fired her and kicked her out.

My father sat me down and said he was sorry for what I saw, I didn't pay attention. Over the next week, he had asked me to sit in his lap more often and would ask my frequently when I was due on that month. For my eleventh birthday, I got woken up to something hot on my thigh. When I opened my eyes and looked down I could see my father's head in between my thighs and my panties were on the floor. I quickly sat up and asked him what he was doing he said this is what all dads did on girls 11th birthday. I didn't believe him and had no clue what he was going to do either. He moved further up the bed until he was next to me. Slowly he undid his trousers and took off both his trousers and boxers. Something sprung out I blinked and looked again it was his dick it was standing proud and ready for what he was going to do. He asked me to sit up. As I slowly slid up my bed to sit up my father stroked his dick from the base to the top and back down. I was eventually sitting up. He asked me to face him and open my mouth. I did as I was told I didn't know what the punishment would be if I didn't comply. He grabbed the back of my head and forced his dick into my mouth. He kept on ramming into my mouth. I didn't know what to do until he told me to suck so I followed his instructions. He was grunting. I could see he was growing bored of me sucking his dick and as I expected he pulled out and repositioned himself between my legs. he bent down to kiss me and I had no option but to kiss back he then leant his head towards my ear whispering sweet nothings in my ear. he was quite for a second then the pain came. I was eleven years old when my father first raped me and that's not only the sad thing  the saddest part was not that it was my birthday but that it was also the day my mother passed away. I was already sad but this just topped it off.