I woke up shivering. What did that mean? Was that one of those dreams that was trying to warn me about something? I shook it off. No, Abby, it can't be. He would have told me this, wouldn't he? I need to ask him. He would tell me, right?

"Abby, are you up? Mikasa asked, yawning. I looked out the window and saw Bertholdt and Reiner walking. I jumped out of bed.
"Abby, is there something wrong?" A worried mikasa asked. "Oh, no sorry. Just a bad dream." I replied. "Oh okay, want to go get a shower?"
"Uhh, yeah sure. Just let me get my things." I grabbed my necessities. "Alright, I'm ready.

We both jumped at the sound of someone knocking on the door. Mikasa walked over. "Yeah, who is it?"
"It's Reiner and Bertholdt." Mikasa opened the door to both of them covering their faces.

"What are you doing?" Mikasa asked. "We didn't know if you'd be naked or anything haha." Reiner chuckled. I walked up. "Oh, is that why you're peeking?" I said to Reiner prying his hands away. "What? No. I wasn't peeping!" He said blushing.

I brushed it off and looked at Bertholdt who was blushing. "Hey, can I talk to you for a moment?" He looked up at me blushing even more as if that were possible.

"Y-yeah, Abby, sure." We walked outside and sat on the porch. "I guess we'll see you in a bit?" Reiner asked. I looked up at him. "Yeah, we'll be there." They both nodded and walked off.

Bertholdt looked down at me. "So, what did you want to talk about?" Should I just come out and ask him? Or try and get it out of him? I think I'll just work my way to it.

I took a deep breath. "I had a dream last night, that seemed all too real Bertholdt. It really scared me." He pulled me in for a hug. "You can tell me Abby. You know that, right?" This seemed a little familiar.

I sighed. "You're going to think I'm crazy. It can't be true, it's just so illogical." I looked down, he pulled my face up to his. "I'm not going to think you're crazy, you can tell me anything and I'll believe you. Abby, you could tell me that flowers could talk and I would just brush it off." I looked up into his understanding eyes. Here it goes.

"We were sitting in a field and you told me something. You said it was your biggest secret. It scared me, but I accepted it. I promised I wouldn't leave you for anything, no matter what you've done, that I still cared no matter what."

He looked up at the sky and ran his fingers through his hair. He was silent, just sitting there. I looked up at him with worried eyes.

"Bertholdt, if you had a secret, you can tell me, you know that? I wouldn't dare tell anybody." He looked down and picked up a flower. This is really all too familiar. He took a deep breath.

"So, I guess you know now." I leaned back in shock. Did he just confirm my accusation? Is he really the, The beast? I just say back and accepted it, knowing there's nothing I can do but comfort him.

"I guess you're scared of me now. It's okay, I'm scared of myself too." He looked down and a few tears threatened to escape his eyes. I grabbed his hands. "Like I said before, I will stay by your side Bertholdt. I don't care about what you've done. That's in the past."

He leaned over into my shoulder and cried. "I can't do this anymore. I'm not meant for this creature. I can not help the things I do and it kills me." He leaned back and rubbed his forearm exposing some of his skin, I was shocked at what I saw.

"Bertholdt, no. Why would you do this to yourself?" I looked up at him tears streaming from my eyes. He looked down on me with hints of sadness in his eyes.

"That's the only way I can deal with it. The only way I'm in control. I thought maybe I could bleed the injection out of my body, but obviously that hasn't worked yet."

"Bertholdt, you're going to kill yourself... I can't lose you too!" I pulled my knees up to my chest and starting bawling. "You're one of the few people I have left in this world that I can call home. I can't lose you. I can't. I just, I just can't." He wiped the tears from my face.

"Abby, that's the only logical way I can think of to get rid of this disaster. You're not going to lose me. I know my limits. I'm not doing this because I want to die, I'm doing this so I can live."

I looked up at him. "You don't have to do this, m-maybe we can talk to someone about all of thi-"
"No, we can never tell anyone about this! Reiner and Annie are the only ones that know!" I looked up at him confused.

"Wait, why do both of them know? I mean I can understand Reiner, but Annie? It just doesn't make any since." He looked off rubbing the back of his neck.

"Oh no, please tell me they are not shifters too..." He looked up at me with uneasy eyes. "You can't tell them you know!"

Oh my god, now Annie and Reiner?? How did this all happen? Was it really Erens dad?

"I won't, I promise. Your secret is safe. I won't tell anyone, not even mikasa."
He let out a deep breath.

"There's something you need to know about Reiner." I looked up at him and nodded for him to go on. "Abby, Reiner is the armored titan."

A punch in the lungs felt equivalent right now. This is all too much. "Bertholdt, this isn't funny." He looked down at me in shock at what I had just said. "Why would I be joking right now? I'm serious, Abby. He is the armored titan."

I looked up in disbelieve. I can't believe these words I'm hearing. "I'll keep their secret too Bertholdt. I promise. Just please," I took his arms in my hands. "Please don't do this again."

"I won't, I promise. Anything you ever want I'll do it, I love you too much not to." I looked up him with once more teary eyes. "Y-you, w-what?" He looked down and kissed me on the forehead.

"I love you, Abby."
"Oh, Bertholdt. I love you."

We sat there for a while in comfortable silence and finally met up with Mikasa and Reiner.

The rest of the day I wanted to tell her so bad, but I promised.