The birds were chirping, the wind blew softy over the field of colorful flowers we were sitting in.

"Laken, I have to tell you something."

I looked up at him curiously. "What is it Bertholdt?"

He looked up at the sky and shoved his hands in his pockets.

"I-i don't know how to tell you this."

I grabbed his hand away from his pocket and held it in my own. "Bert, you can tell me anything, Remember?"

He took a deep breath. "Laken, you know I love you, right?"

I looked at him confused. "O-of course, Bertholdt."

"Okay then. Well, I'm the. The, ummm." He rubbed his neck as I looked up at him impatiently.

"You're the what? Go on."

"I'm the colossal titan..."

I stared at him for a few moments, trying to take in what he had just said. "You're the.... the what??"

He looked away. "Please, don't make me say it again."

Still confused I asked him again. "Bertholdt, I'm not sure if I understood you correctly. You're the colossal titan?"

He looked over, ripping a flower in half. "Yes. And I hate myself for it."

"Wow..." Is all I could manage to get out.

"Yeah, I know. So I guess you're afraid of me now. It's okay, I'm afraid of myself as well. If you don't want to be with me anymore, it's okay. I understand. Everyone else left too." He looked over and a tear fell from his eye.

I took his hand and stood up, almost making eye contact.

"Bertholdt, I will love you for who you are. Not what you've done."

He looked down at me. "But I'm a monster. I don't deserve this after all the terrible things I've done." He started to sob.

"Look, I know you've done unmentionable things, but that just makes you more desirable to me, to own up and take responsibility for your actions."

"The bad part is, is that I don't even remember doing them. When I'm in that body, I just don't feel anything. It has a mind of it's own. It's like I can't control it."

I wiped away his tears and hugged him. "Oh Bert, how did this happen to you?"

"All I remember was a man with round glasses, with long dark hair. He was wearing a trench coat with a key around his neck. He had a syringe in his hand. He kept shouting at me. I don't even remember what he was shouting. He kept trying to put the syringe in my arm, but I kept pulling away. After a few more tries he just held me down and shot it into my arm, and after that everything went black."

I stepped back and gasped...

"Bertholdt, that man was Ere-"