The thirteenth chapter.

What is wrong with me? I keep remembering things but it always end up not being what I actually need know. My mind was going crazy and Shawn was still staring at me, confused, but maybe not as much as I was.

- I don't understand..

- Look, I don't know what to tell you Camila. I don't know if I should tell you..

- But if I never remember? What will happen to us? I can't live with you, knowing I did something terrible to you. And if getting pregnant with Jacob's child wasn't going to make you leave me, than what would?

- That was different. He raped you and I never forgive him. It wasn't you fault and we could've make it work. But something way harder was in our way.

- Tell me.

- Camila..

- Shawn, I'm not doing anything unless you tell me, I can't deal with this anymore.

He took a big breath, then, he got up and started to walk around, like he was nervous.

- Ok.. so. We were friends for a long time. We had toured together and we were getting really close. Then, we started dating and I always wondered why you would date me because you could litteraly have any guy you want.

- Why would I not date you?

- I don't know.. anyways. So we dated for awhile and then the accident with Jacob happened. He was one of my best friend so we got in a huge argument. I never saw him again after. I told him not to reach me or you. I worked really hard so that we could be happy again and focus on ourselves instead of the things we couldn't  change. But, one day I was cleaning the apartment and found a letter in your things.

Shawn walked around and took a piece of paper that was hidden in his closet. He handed it to me and look desperate. I looked at him for a long time to make eye contact, but he kept staring at the ground so I looked at the paper.

(This is the paper)

Hi Camila,

It's your manager. I have something to offer to you. Now that you are going solo in a month, I figured that we may need some drama to get to you so that people focus on you and not what the group is going to say. So I've sent you a contract, please read it:

Me, Camila Cabello _camila cabello_ (sign here), will fake date the co-signer, Shawn Mendes for a year. He can not know about this and this needs to stay private. I will not officially announce our "relationship" but will hint the fans intentionally.

Thank you Camila, see you Wednesday.
(End of the paper)

I lifted my eyes back to Shawn, ashamed that I could've ever done that.

- Your contract ended the day we argued and you had your car accident.

- Did I had a car crash on purpose?

- I don't know camila, how can I know this if I thought you loved me all this time.

- There must be something you don't know. I would never do that. This is not me. I don't understand.

- This is all I know. I knew for six months and we kept getting far apart until you left. I don't understand either.

- Why do you stay with me and you know that I did this to you.

-Because I'm in love with you.

I begin to cry.

- You deserve so much better, I ruined your life, I'm sorry.

I left his apartment without even letting him say anything but it wasn't the end. I knew there was something missing and I would do anything to know what it was. Pour him, I just kept breaking his heart.

End of the thirteenth chapter.