This chapter and were I started to realize things. I was that innocent girl who lost memory and tried to fall in love again but I was starting to realize that I actually wasn't that innocent. A lot of question needed to be answered but a part of me didn't want to know. I knew one day, I would know. Was I helping him or was I breaking him? 

The fifth chapter.

I woke up at eight o'clock. I took a big breath before I got out of the bed and headed to the kitchen. I wanted to make myself a breakfast but Shawn was already up, cooking pancakes.

- Good morning Camila!

- Good morning. 

- Did you slept at all? You look so tired.

- Yeah, not really. I don't think I will ever be able to sleep properly.

- Yes you will.. You know before your accident you use to have trouble sleeping and when I sang to you, you would almost automatically fall asleep. 

- Really? Can you sing to me tonight?

- Sure.

He smiled.

- So what are we doing today Mendes?

- Uh.. What do you want to do.

- What about you just drive and we jam to some music? It would be so fun. 

- Whatever you want.

He looked happy. 

- OK so I'm going to get ready and I'll tell you when I am.

- OK.

I walked in my room and opened the closet. None of the clothes felt like mine. Even the clothes in my closet were like strangers to me. All of my life was a big question. I had a lot of things to figure out but for the moment all I needed was to have fun. I put some casual clothe and barely did anything to my hair.

After that, I went in the kitchen and ate the pancakes that Shawn made for me. 

- Are we ready Cabello?

- Yes we are, I said, smiling.

He took my hand, which surprised me and we headed to the underground parking lot. Then, we entered in his car and he drove for about thirty minutes until we arrived on a country road. He then put some music very loud and we sang really loud too. It was an amazing moment and we had so much fun doing such a simple thing. 

We spent two hours singing in the car, screaming like crazy before Shawn stopped the car on the side of the road and stopped the music. 

- Shawn, what are we doing here?

- I want to show you something?

- What is it?

- You'll see.

He took off his seat belt and opened the door of his car.

- Wait what are you doing Shawn?

- Just get out the car and you'll see, he laughed.

I got out of the car and looked at Shawn that was heading in the woods. 

- Camila, what are waiting for, he said as he turned around. 

- Sorry, I'm coming. 

I followed him in the woods, wondering if he knew where he was going. We walked during ten minutes in the woods before he said:

- Here we are.

I looked around. We were on the waterside and we could see the beautiful city of Los Angeles.

- Shawn... I mean the view is incredible. 

- You are the first person I ever brought here. 

- Why me?

- You may not know it yet but you mean the world to me.

He put his hand on my cheek and my heart raced. He was looking right in my eyes. 

- Shawn, this place is.. beautiful.

- So are you. 

He came closer to me and kissed me. My eyes were closed while his lips were on mine and I got a flashback.

(FLASHBACK)

Shawn is sitting on our bed and I walk in the room. He turns around and say:

- Where have you been?

- Uh..

- No don't even tell me. 

- But Shawn!

- No Camila, stop. I know. I know what happened. 

Tears ran down his cheeks. 

- For how long have you known?

- Long enough Camila.

- Shawn I'm so sorry, you know it's been killing me.

- All of this is tearing me apart and you are slowly slipping away. 

We both stare at each other. 

( END OF THE FLASHBACK.)

I pull away from the wonderful kiss we were having, thinking of what I just remember, wondering if my mind could be messing with me. 

- What's wrong Camila? Was it too soon?

- No.. I mean, I don't know. I just don't feel really well suddenly.

- Do you want to go back home?

- Yeah let's go. 

We went back in the car. I ask Shawn not to put some music, saying I had a headache but I just needed to relax. I was looking at the window all the way to the car drive until we were finally parked back at our apartment.

- Are you sure you are OK Camila?

- Yes I just got a lot on my mind you know. 

- It's OK.

We went out of the car and then went to our apartment. 

I spent the rest of the day thinking about the flashback I had, claiming I needed to rest since I supposedly felt weird. At ten o'clock at night, Shawn came into our room with a guitar in his hands.

- Do you want me to sing for you? Maybe you'll fall asleep easier. 

- Sure. 

He started to sing «act like you love me». Even though I was about to sleep, I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep. When Shawn thought that I was sleeping, he put his guitar on a rack beside our bed and put some blankets on me. As he was making sure that I was comfortable, I said:

- I did something terrible to you, didn't I?

I opened my eyes and Shawn was really close to me, his eyes wide open. 

- What?

- Just tell me if I did something to you or not. 

He took a big breath and looked away. 

- Yes, you did. 

End of the fifth chapter.