"BAM!"
The sudden loud bang of door closing awakened you. A visibly drunk Taehyung staggered past you & collapsed face down right onto the bed.
You rose from your seat & hesitantly approached him. The stench of alcohol was so strong that you couldn't help but scrunch your nose.
"Taehyung ssi.. Are you okay?" You lightly nudged his shoulder. No response. He seemed to be really out of it, so you knelt down at his feet & carefully took off his shoes. All of a sudden, he turned around, almost kicking your face in the process.
"Taehyung ssi, are you awake?" He only responded with an indecipherable murmur.
You stood up & stared at his sleeping face.
"How is it possible that someone's born with such perfect features? God is definitely not fair."
With eyes still closed, he coughed out loud & tried to loosen the tie around his neck, but he couldn't do it because his hand was feeble due to the alcohol.
"Let me help you.." You were about to untie the knot, when he suddenly opened his eyes.
"What the fuck?! Why are you here?! Kang jibsa! KANG JIBSA!!" He pushed you hard until you stumbled backwards a couple of steps & yelled furiously. His angry eyes scanned you from top to bottom, making you feel extremely self-conscious. You didn't know what to say or do in this situation, so you just kept quiet & lowered your head.

"도련님 (young master), is there something wrong?" Kang jibsa rushed into the room in her night gown, squinting as her eyes were still adjusting to the light.
"What the fuck is she doing in my room?!" He pointed his forefinger vigorously at you, his eyes wide, face hard.
"I- I don't understand. Isn't 사모님 your wife?" She stuttered in confusion.
"Do you think I can sleep in the same bed with a pig like her?! Are you out of your mind?! Get her out of here, NOW!"
Taehyung screamed full of rage & hurled a pillow at you, hitting one side of your arm. Both you & Kang jibsa trembled in fear seeing his violent action.
"Y-yes 도련님, 사모님 따라오세요 (Mrs please follow me)." Kang jibsa quickly bowed at him & pulled you out of the room.
You were so shocked that you couldn't say a word, your whole body shook uncontrollably. You had already known that he was a cold person, but you didn't expect him to hate you so severely.
"사모님. 사모님." Seeing your frozen expression, Kang jibsa patted your arm to wake you up from your daze.
"H-huh?"
"Please sleep in the guest room tonight. Maybe he's tired & intoxicated, hence the outrage. Call me if you need anything else. 안녕히 주무세요 (good night)."
She retreated as soon as she showed you the guest bedroom & glanced at you one last time, frowning, before closing the door behind her. You could see the pity in her eyes & that made you break down in tears. Scared of angering Taehyung again, you muffled your cry with a pillow. Your uncontainable tears dampened the pillow case.
"He's right. I'm unworthy of him. Why did I ever think that he'd accept me as his wife? Me, who's so ugly, fat & disgusting, can never be good enough for him." You thought to yourself that tonight was the lowest moment ever in your life.
One thing you didn't know was that the worse had yet to come.

"KANG JIBSA! KANG JIBSAAA!!"
Startled by the loud scream, you immediately woke up from your restless sleep.
5:34 AM. The dawn was just breaking & the sky was still dark. You rubbed your eyes & quickly ran out of your room.
As soon as you stepped out of the room, your feet stumbled onto something. You looked down & gasped, as you saw your belongings strewn all over the floor in front of you.
"도련님, wh-what's wrong?" Kang jibsa was equally shocked as you, seeing the mess Taehyung created.
"Who gave you the permission to put your belongings in my room?! Let me make this clear, you're my wife only on paper. I have no intention to consummate this marriage with you, so know your boundaries. Don't ever step into my room or be within my vicinity when I'm home. And I'm not spending any money on you, in other words, you need to support yourself. Are we clear?!"
He barked at you as he threw a fist full of clothing onto your chest.

"T-then why did you agree to marry me?" You mustered all your courage & asked in a tiny voice.
"Why? Because my father threatened to erase my name from his will if I didn't marry you! It was all because of your father, why would he ask my father to make such promise? Are we living in the 17th century? Fucking ridiculous!"
The moment he brought up your father, you lifted your face & stared sternly at him.
"Don't you dare drag my father into this." You said with trembling voice, "I'll leave & divorce you now if you don't want me here."
"Who says I want to divorce you? You need to stay in this house & pretend to be happy in front of our parents. If you dare to tell anyone about the real situation, I will not go easy on you. And your mom. Now go hide somewhere until I'm out of here, although it probably won't be easy with such a huge body." He snickered & turned around to go back to his room.
You thought he couldn't hurt you any more than he already did, but apparently you underestimated him.
Swallowing all your pride & misery, you slowly knelt down on the floor & picked up your stuffs. Tears streamed down your face as you replayed what he said just now inside your head.
"I have to be strong, otherwise he'll hurt eomma." You bit your lower lip to stop it from quivering.
"사모님, let me help you." Kang jibsa stooped down beside you & helped you gathered your things.
"감사함니다 (thank you)." You croaked.
"I know you must have felt very hurt now. I apologize on behalf of him. Actually, he is not a bad person, but his conditions made him become cold & harsh." She said kindly.
"Why is he so mean? Did I do anything wrong? My only fault was going along with this whole marriage arrangement." You sniffed hard & wiped your tears away with your sleeve.
"I don't have the right to tell you about what happened, but I can see that you are a genuine & nice person. I hope your warmth can melt his heart, so don't give up on him, ok? I'm on your side." She smiled kindly at you which caused you to sob even harder, because she reminded you of your mom. You really really missed her now even though you just saw her yesterday, your wedding night felt like it happened a decade ago.
You wanted to call your mom, but she'd know right away that something was wrong if she heard your bitter voice now, so you just did as Taehyung said.
Hide yourself inside the guest room until he was out of the house.

The next few days, you followed the same routine of waking up before the sun rise to make breakfast for yourself, then going back to your room & staying there until around 10 am when Taehyung went to work. The room you were staying in didn't have TV & you didn't have your laptop with you, so what almost killed you was the sheer boredom.
After Taehyung was gone, you'd spend the rest of the day helping Kang jibsa clean the house & garden.
Then, you hid yourself in your room again when he came home until morning.

You were lying down on the bed, thinking about your bleak future when your phone rang.
"Eomma?" You cleared your throat & prepared yourself to sound as cheery as you could.
"여보세요 엄마 (Hello mom)."
" Y/n 아, 잘지내니 (how are you)? I was going to call you because I missed you so much, but I was afraid that I would bother you newlyweds. Is 김서방 (Kim son-in-law) treating you well?"
Hearing her voice made you want to cry & tell her everything, but then you remembered what Taehyung said & stopped yourself.
"Yes eomma, he's very kind to me. He brought me to to eat at different restaurants & kept bringing me flowers everyday even after I told him not to. Now our house is like a florist. Haha." You used your imagination & created a happy story for your mom.
"Aww, that's so romantic. You need to be nice to him too Y/n ah, 알았어 (okay)? Sometimes you're bound to have arguments, you need to be patient & considerate."
"네 알았어 엄마 (Yes, I know mom)."
"And don't delay for too long. I know you youngsters love to spend some time enjoying your newlywed life, but your father-in-law & I can't wait to hold our grandchildren soon." She chuckled.
"Eomma, i- it's still too early to talk about children."
How could you have children when he doesn't even want to look at you?
You thought sadly to yourself.
"Is there a problem honey? Did he say that he didn't want children?" Your slight change of tone was enough for your mom to detect that something wasn't right.
"Oh no no no. He loves children. It's just that we've only been married for less than a week. I mean isn't it too early to talk about children now?" You quickly assured your mom.
"Ahh, you're right. I won't push you, take your time, but don't wait for too long ok? I need to go now, some customers are coming in to the shop. I'll talk to you again soon Y/n ah. 사랑해 (I love you)."
"나도 사랑해 엄마 (I love you too mom)."
You stared at the blank screen on your phone & tears involuntarily rolled down your cheeks again.
I can't spend the rest of my life being pathetic like this. I need to either give up on him or try to win his heart.