Lee Know p.o.v.

Yesterday morning I see a panic attack for the first time and, I swear, it's terrifying.

Han had glassy eyes, he seemed not to see me, not to breathe. I was next to him, but I couldn't help him at all. It was frustrating.

Obviously I hate Han, but he's still a human being after all. I'm not so heartless.

Anyhow, he seemed okay after that. He danced, he rapped, we went on with our rehearsals. I have to admit that I felt a little bit guilty. I couldn't stop thinking about him protecting me from Chan. He just didn't want us to argue because of him. I've never thought he was so considerate. 

I'm at the JYP agency again today, waiting for another full day to start. I'm sipping my american coffee and I'm holding another one in my hand. I don't know why I bought two coffee at the bar this morning, but when Han appears I understand my subconscious.

Without saying anything I hand it to him.

He repeatedly shifts his astonished gaze between me and the paper cup, like I was trying to kill him with a beverage. It's almost funny.

«There is no poison in it, I swear.» I say, holding back a smile.

Since when did I start smiling at him?

He takes the coffee from my hand, whispering something like «Thanks» and he heads into the agency. He looks at the elevator and sighs. Then he turns to the stairs to reach the upper floors.

I follow him, in silence.

He seems annoyed or maybe he just doesn't understand my behavior and I can't blame him, I don't understand it either.

We reach the third floor without saying any word and we meet Chan in the recording room. He is always the first to arrive and the last to leave, our leader.

«Hi!» he smiles at Han and then his eyes move to me. He is perplexed to see the two of us together, but he doesn't say anything. We both return the greeting and we start recording my first part of the forth track. The new album will be released in a month, so we have a lot to do. 

After an hour we go to the dance room, where the others Kids are waiting for us. Today we have to learn a new choreography and, of course, it's up to me to explain everything to the members. I'm the most experienced dancer in the group, I work on the choreography with our dance teacher and then I correct the mistakes of each component. 

There is a bit of tension in the room, due to yesterday's accident in the elevator, and Han jokes less than usual. Indeed, he's very quiet and, for once, I find myself thinking that his pranks would lighten the mood.

«One, two, three, four, five, six, seven and...» I keep the time observing through the mirror that everyone is doing the right steps, «Jeongin, what was that?!» I reproach the maknae.

He freezes, he knows I'm always very strict as a teacher.

«Okay, come on, do it again by yourself please.» I ask kindly.

The other members move and Jeongin repeats the steps in time with my count. I find the error and we fix it together.

«Oh, okay hyung, thank you.» he thanks me. He seems embarassed but also relieved.

It's nice to help others, actually. I help them my way, of course, but it gives satisfaction.

We get back into position and start dancing again.

Han is really missing many steps today, he seems not very attentive, but I don't have the courage to scold him. So I just watch him holding back a smile. He is so awkward that he is almost tender.

Wait, what are you thinking about, Lee Know?

My face become serious immediately and I focus on the lesson again:

«One more time and then we'll try with the music»

I still look at Han, who seems to be in trouble, and I sigh. I'll tell Felix to stop a little longer to help him after rehearsals, hoping he has just a bad day and that he will recover in the next few days. 

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