Han Jisung p.o.v.

It's time to sleep, but I'm afraid to be alone tonight. Today's event was shocking, much more than a classic panic attack. It was as if I no longer existed, like I was watching Han Jisung from afar.

Horrible.

«I should go now, you must sleep» Minho says, trying to get out my bed.

We were watching a movie but it's been over for half an hour. We stayed to chat a little longer but now it's really late.

I grab his wrist and block him before he can walk away.

«Please, stay.» I ask him, crossing his eyes. He looks surprised but his lips hint a smile.

«Are you sure you want me to sleep with you?» he says mischievously.

I know he's joking, but I don't care: «Do what you want to me, you don't scare me, but please don't leave me alone tonight».

I'm not alone, I'm in an apartment with 3 other members and I could sleep with one of them, but I want him. And I know that he is realizing it too.

«Baby, if you want me here, I can move and never leave you alone for the night.» he says, sitting down next to me again.

«You're becoming soft, Min» I mock him, patting him on the thigh.

«Just for you, baby» he smiles.

Omg, that damn smile. It will kill me one day.

«You didn't tell me what was written on the paper plane...» I tell him to change the subject.

His sweet gaze is too much for me and he's acting so soft...

«You do remember it, don't you?» I ask.

He nods and with a slight embarrassment says: «Please take care of the youngers, especially Han. He's so sensitive. You have to protect him, no matter what.»

I look at him, amazed. He only kept a paper plane because it was about... me?

I lay down again on my bed, my hands between my cheek and the pillow, and he imitates me. We are lying on our sides, our faces inches apart, our eyes locked together.

«And why did you keep it?» I ask, almost whispering. The atmosphere seems to have changed suddenly and I don't want to spoil it with my high-pitched voice.

«I swore to myself that I must protect you, no matter what.» he says softly.

I bite my lips, feeling my face redden. I can't help thinking about how much this guy means to me.

In a few weeks he has completely changed towards me. His defenses have collapsed and now he looks into my eyes, saying such sweet things to me. I feel that my heart could explode.

I can't take my eyes off his face, thinking how handsome he is. Those huge, sweet eyes, that perfect nose, and those lips, slightly protruding. They give him that cute bunny look.

I don't even notice that I'm getting close to him and that my pulse is racing.

«However...» he says, his voice hoarse, «You should be scared of me»

I don't know why but his voice is so hot, his tone so sexy.

I can't resist, I can't resist anymore. Now I know why he kissed me that night, I feel like a fool for not realizing it sooner: we are soulmates.

I can see it in his eyes, in the way he looks at me, in the way my brain constantly thinks about him.

I get up, approach him and kiss him harshly.

This is not a soft touch, like the kiss after the concert. This time I really kiss him, licking his lips, nibbling them, asking for access to his mouth which opens immediately letting me enter.

I feel him reciprocate, panting, cuddling me. Our mouths are warm, hungry, but sweet.

He grabs me by the hips and puts me on top of him. I straddle him, my fingers run through his hair as his hands go under my t-shirt.

We depart for a moment to catch our breath and our eyes meet again. I blush hardly, he smiles. His eyes shine, like this is the happiest moment of his life.

«You just kissed me» he says incredulous, as to make me confirm that this is not a dream.

I nods laughing: «I guess, I kissed you»

«Should I get angry?» he asks, mocking me.

I hide my face in his neck: «Don't be an asshole, please» I complain.

I'm so sorry for turning him down that night and causing us all this displeasure. He had already figured it all out, while I hadn't understood anything yet.

«Babe, watch me.» his soft voice make me raise my head. I look at him, feeling the blush on my cheeks.

«I could be an asshole but... You mean a lot to me, do you know this?»

I nods. His eyes are so deep and I know he's sincere. I see how much he cares about me and I don't think anyone has ever looked at me like that before.

«Can we pretend this was your first kiss?» he asks, caressing my face.

I nods again, feeling my intestine to roll over. His hands are touching my skin and they are so delicate and so sensual at the same time.

«I didn't know you could kiss so well! Are you sure that was your first?» he says, biting his lips. His eyes settle down on my mouth.

Oh god, I want to kiss him more.

«I used to practice with my pillow as a teenager» I say, making him laugh again.

I'm still sitting on him, in a somewhat ambiguous position. Seeing him under me, captivated by my body, makes me feel powerful. His gaze make me feel really handsome.

«How many people have you kissed?» I ask him. I don't even know where this jealousy come from. He is so damn beautiful and I'm so fucking insecure sometimes.

«That will surprise you, but only a girl. And then I realized that I liked boys. You are the first.»

This makes me happy. At least we're both inexperienced and, if we mess up, we'll make it together. I don't have to worry about meeting certain standards, about being better than his ex... I can be just Han.

«You are so sexy, baby, sitting on me. It's better if you come down...» he says, watching me with an intense look.

I feel my face on fire, that gaze is so... hungry.

«What if I don't want to?» I ask, trying to act sexy.

He laughs and with a quick gesture he takes me, throws me on the bed and gets on top of me.

«Do you like playing with fire, baby?» he whispers to me and I'm already hard at this point. I realize I've been holding my breath. No one had ever had this effect on me before.

«I like you, Min. If you are a fire, I will get burned.» I say, enthralled by the contact of his body smeared on mine.

He detaches a little from me: «You're damn hot, Han, but I think it's best to sleep tonight.»

I pout. I was so excited...

«Do not look at me with those eyes. If you're sure, I'll make you come right now, baby.» he speaks, with a smirk. 

His explicit words set me on fire. I blush and cover my face with my hands.

«But... I think it's best to go slow» he adds.

I move my hand a little away from my face, just to look at his smile, and I nod.

He's right, I'm so embarrassed and we just kissed, I don't want to rush ahead just because he's damn hot.

«Okay but... Jagi?» I call him, «Not too slow, please»

We both laugh, he turns off the light and we curled up in the blankets, ready to sleep together. 

«Min?» I ask him, almost asleep.

«Tell me baby» he whispers in the dark room, hugging me from behind.

«Do you still hate me?» I ask.

I know it's a stupid question, but I'm scared. I'm scared to be hurt by him, again.

He tightens me and kisses my neck, behind the ear. And I had no idea it could be such a sweet gesture.

«Baby, can I call you 'Prince'?» he asks me in response.

I blush lightly: «Yes»

«So...» he comes close to my ear, I can feel his breath tickling my skin, «I love you, my Prince» he whispers.

I turn towards him to look into his eyes wrapped in the darkness of the night. I can't believe what he said.

«I love you, my Prince» he repeats again. He knows I'm so insecure and he wants me to get that he really means it.

And his eyes are screaming at me, that he really means it. Lee Minho really loves me.

My eyes fill with tears, tears of joy, and I peck his lips, before taking his perfect face in my hands.

«I love you, Min.»

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Author's space:

Hi everybody!! Hope you like this chap because this is the end of this fan fiction "I hate him".

I have to tell you that originally I imagined this story different ahaha but, how I already said, when I write I can't decide how the story will turn ahaha I'm so impulsive ahah

The 30th chapter is an epilogue, with a smut scene!! (TW)

But... So many of you have asked me to continue, that I'm thinking about going on with some other chapters, like a "I hate you - part 2". I dunno, what do u think about that? 

P.S. Hope u follow me and read my other fan fictions <3 

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