April 22

Dear Diary,

Ever since, I always thought I will find the man. The perfect man for me and the perfect man. Or if I can't find him, he will come and find a very flawed woman like me.

I grew up thinking all those things, not until I met the man from my dreams... Kaiden.

When he said that when he saw the outside world— the world far from the world he grew up in, and it gave a lot of new meanings to him. I discovered that my beliefs as a child were all flaws.

When I met him, I really thought that... This is it. We found each other. I don't know if he found me or I found him, but I found the perfect guy, not only for me, but he's really perfect.

He told me his vulnerable side. About how he thinks negatively even while in the middle of a very happy moment. When he told me that, I knew that there is no perfect man that exists. He can be the right one for me, but never the perfect one. I don't even know why ‘perfect’ exists if there's no perfect humans and things that exists. Maybe I am bound to find that out.

Come to think of it, maybe this is only one of those things that make him beautifully imperfect.

He's slowly revealing all of these things to me. It makes me feel special.

Not until I realized— or I remembered, he doesn't exist.

Always dreaming,

Kei