May 7

Dear Diary,

God, I'm such a terrible daughter!!!

I almost made my mom cry.

Well, that's why I saw. I heard her crying from her bedroom when I went down to drink water. I thought that it's because of how we ended our talk.

I feel so had. I'm cursing myself non-stop because of what I did.

Kaiden hasn't been showing up in my dreams for almost a week! I don't know what's happening! I maintained my sleeping routine so that I can dream of him, but still no luck.

If this continues... Maybe I have to accept that he's not permanent in the first place. He's a temporary happiness that was given to me by God knows who, or maybe God himself.

I have to brace for the fact that I need to let him go and forget him so that I can continue living the life that I have in the real world.

But for now, I need to dream of him again! I need to control my dreams this time!

Always dreaming,

Kei