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Dream #6

I didn't got to meet Kaiden today. I locked myself up in my room, and I honestly don't know why...

I just felt sad all of the sudden. It was so sudden that I avoided any contact with other people this day. I woke up feeling emotional that I skipped breakfast.

My mother knocked at my door but I shouted that I'll go down later, and she didn't have the choice.

She goes to work every day, and works a 10 hours shift. I'll go outside once I know that it's just me.

I just felt that I should avoid any people today.

And right now, I am alone at the dinner table. Eating some leftovers and heat them up in the microwave.

I was happy to be alone. But my solitariness didn't last for so long.

Someone rang our doorbell, and I thought it must be mom's visitor or maybe anyone... But I didn't realize or thought that it could be Kaiden, but it was Kaiden.

"I was worried sick. You didn't call me and you didn't showed up at our spot," he had a worried tone while he was saying those things.

I offered him to sit in our living room and asked if he liked to drink anything.

"Water is fine. We need to talk," he said. I left him to get him a glass of water.

My thoughts keep going on and on while filling up a glass with cold water. I was suddenly coming up with excuses for not showing up, but I agreed to myself that I'll just say the truth, even though my excuse is shallow.

"I'm sorry... I just wanted to be alone today. I didn't mean to avoid you or anything..." I said in a low voice while he was drinking his water.

He gulped it and placed the emptied glass at our center table. I sat next to him at the sofa and maintained a generous distance from him.

"I understand. But you could've texted me or left a voicemail. I was worried that you..." He stopped midsentence, and he shook his head.

"Sorry," I said, almost pouting.

I acknowledge my fault. It is normal for him to be concerned and upset. As his girlfriend, I should have known better.

"It's fine, stop saying sorry. I'm sorry for being clingy," he said and his face reddened.

He looked away so that I cannot spot his cheeks that turned red as tomatoes. I can't help but laugh and tease him about it.

"Oh, stop it! I don't mind that you blush. You blush all the time, Kei!" He exclaimed but it made me want to tease him more.

"Do you know Taylor Swift's Red? You—"

"Kei," he said with a warning tone now.

I laughed out loud and held him in the shoulders. His arms was already crossed in his chest and, trust me, he looked so manly. He was wearing a plain white shirt, partnered with gray trousers. It was simple. Too simple for a guy that lives in a palace.

But then I remembered, he lives alone now. He moved out of the palace to experience the outside world, to experience simplicity or what's normal.

"How do you know where I live, by the way? I don't remember showing or telling you my place."

His hand was already in my thigh, and we were both leaning on the sofa. I felt too lazy because of his light hand on my thigh.

"I know your university, remember? I asked the registrar about your information," he said with a smirk plastered in his face.

My forehead creased at that and I looked at him, so confused.

"How? They can't disclose any personal information!" I looked at him suspiciously.

"My family owns that university. Let's say, I just used one line of my connections. Yes... I know it's wrong, but I just really want to know what happened to you," he explained.

I knew how rich he was, so knowing that his family owns a university wasn't much of a shock to me, but knowing that his family owns the university I go amazed me.

"Why don't you study there, then? And why are you taking engineering instead of business ad?"

"I don't wanna go to a university where my parents are known, or basically because they own it. Professors, staffs, and people will give me a special treatment even though I will ask them not to. And to answer your other question, I was also planning to take that after engineering."

He was really a man... He's not a boy any more. My standards went much more higher just by knowing all of these things he had done and things he say. He has a way of words and he's a man of words.

"I want you to meet my mom." I told him after he finished telling me about his college years.

His eyes lit up but I can see that he was taken aback to what I said. His lips quivered as if he's holding a smile or a smirk.

"Are you sure? I mean... Are you ready? I can wait, uh, till you're ready. I hope you don't think that I'm rushing you or pressuring you—"

"It's fine, Kaiden. It's my decision. Don't worry about mom, she's supportive of me."

Mom arrived a few hours later. I and Kaiden spent the entire day just watching TV, talking, and eating. It was a simple day, but it was fun.

"I'm home!" I heard mom shouted as if she knew that I was just in the living room.

Cold sweats was dripping from my forehead down to my cheeks and neck. I got up so sudden and my room was dark and there's no light coming from my window, a sign that it's still night time.

I woke up again in the middle of the night! I often finish my dreams going to bed but these days I wake up so sudden in the middle of the dream.

I felt so disappointed again. But I knew I wasn't going to sleep any moment now so I busied myself with writing on my notebook and diary.