May 17

Dear Diary,

In the last few days, a lot has happened. I was unable to retrieve my diary. When my mother went into my room to find out what I had been up to and what I was doing with my life, she found my diary, which was hidden under the mattress of my bed.

I never asked for my diary from her. I don't need it, so I'm starting over. And I'm currently writing on my new diary.

I've chosen to store it beneath my bed this time, along with some old clothes. It's inconvenient, but I don't want my mother reading my 'craziness' again.

I started taking these pills after a few weeks of talking to Layra Aldente, my therapist. I'm not sure what they're for, but I believe they're what's keeping me from dreaming about Kaiden or anything else.

I need to dream about Kaiden. It kills me not to.

Mom gives the medicines to me every 30 minutes before bedtime. She watches me as I take the pills. So I'm going to pretend I took the pill. I'll keep it in the corner of my mouth until she leaves, then spit it out. Hopefully, it will work...

Always dreaming,

Kei