(Before leaving he added, "you have said everything about you, without trust?")

Nihanth left.

I tried to sleep, and began to review my life.

Should I trust him? For that matter did I trust him already?
***

I acted very well all these days,no years!. Acted to an extent of winning an Oscar,no! atleast having a role in short films.

I was breaking down both physically and mentally. Had 2 episodes of giddiness. Nothing was wrong, except that I don't have any sleep. Days were miserable, nights were more miserable.

Nights were scaring me more than anything else.
****

I can see someone looking at me. I wiped off my tears interfering with my visual acuity then saw a clearer picture. It was Jay! What? Is it really him? Can can I really see him?Oh! I cannot believe my eyes. I can see his eyes were as glistened as mine. Why was he crying?

I wanted to speak alot. But all that was talking is my mind and heart. I have many questions to ask and no matter my mind took the responsibility

My inner voice Vs Jay

Me: Jay? Am I really seeing you?

Jay: yea bey! He nodded his head making a tear drop meet his cheek overcoming his lower eyelid

Me: I was just staring at him, not to miss him even by blinking my eye.

Jay: I'm really sorry bey! I didn't know what I was doing that time. It was just because of momentary anger and helplessness. I know I was doing wrong but I couldn't resist myself. I was in such a situation where I have found no solution other than doing suicide. I wanted to speak to you one last time but I know you wouldn't allow me to do what I was about to do. I Missed you idiot.

Me: So simple it was . Sorry?? sarcastically my inner voice said

Jay: I know sorry isn't enough, but I cannot do anything about it now. I was such a stupid that time.

Me: why did you come now after so many years? before I was talking to myself a voice spoke to me.

Jay: I know its too late to come, you may also think why i came now. I thought you would overcome this, but I cannot see you in this position. I always wanted you to keep smiling and be happy alwaaysss. But you were breaking down, and that too because of me.

Jay: I can't even rest in peace because of you. Please forgive me bey. Please.

He wiped tears off my face and said
As I promised we will be best friends for life . But a small correction "we will be besties even after my life"

I will be always with you as a smile on your face. So don't leave me by crying. Promise me!

Me: I nodded my head and promised him with a small smile over my face.

He now came nearer to me and kissed my forehead making my tear run over the cheek upto the chin! And said wiping it "this would be the last tear u would spend on me."

May be this way I overcame my internal conflicts subconsciously or is he really infront of me.
And he disappeared with in blink of my eye ,with a smile..
A smile which I could die for
No!!
A smile which I could LIVE for!!
****

I woke up and saw the text
From Nihanth!

Nihanth: atleast let's be friends😕. By the way.. wish you happy birthday once again

Me: no.I don't agree.
LETS LOVE EACHOTHER 😂😂
love you alott my first love❤️❤️❤️❤️

A/N

The end!!
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